everything concerning next year's college plans just got turned on its head.
i could cry. i did a little.
but i'm not going to anymore.
i'm really scared now.
i can't go by myself.

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"so can i just let you all know that i love work! as weird as that sounds it keeps me busy, takes my mind off of life, i get a decent amount of encouragement, i make money, and i accomplish something! so ya work is good! now my dad is going to chew me out cuz he found out i smoke and evidently its going to curse my life or something i dont know the ( Read more... )

wow! didn't i just do this 2 weeks ago ( Read more... )

today was the slowest day in the history of the universe!
we were at $377 at 3 pm...
lame.
and now i have nothing to do since the only person i feel will hang out with me is working tonight.
god, this sucks.

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what is there to say?
i love my best friend. and i want her to be happy.
i just want to be happy too.
but at this point, i've pretty much lost hope in that...

i stayed in the house all day today...it was acutally kind of relaxing ( Read more... )

a brain that never stops ticking ( Read more... )

...embracing the concept of being alone.
driving north on 98,
feeling the cold air in my hair makes me glad to be alive
even if i must be a-
alone with my thoughts,
alone with my dreams,
alone with the past and all the hell its given me."-newstart ( Read more... )