With every thought I come closer to making my decision.  Not suicide, although that would be the easiest way to get out of this little predicament.  Only one other person knows what I am talking about.  It is not Cheska.  Sometimes I feel guilty because I want to talk to her about everything that is going on...but sometimes I just can't.  I know ( Read more... )

I don't know why I'm upset about it...I didn't consider them friends.  "I only like him when he's stoned."  I don't like them - stoned or not.  I want to go fucking hang out with Cheska right now.  Our parents said no.  My parents said that she could come over here but her parents said no and then my parents said I couldn't go over there.  It's ( Read more... )

I know that once it separates itself from me I am going to go down a long path of self destruction.  There's going to be no hope....no light.  Nothing will be able to pull me out of it.  I am not going to try to be happy or change anything.  I am just going to go down that path.  Obviously, I am going to be suicidal.  I will probably also be ( Read more... )

I miss Cheska a lot.  I didn't get to talk to her today after school.  I have to be at school early because Justin has detention.  Hopefully I'll be able to hang out with my baby for a while in the morning.  I don't know when I'm going to be able to hang out at her house again...probably Wednesday.  I had a pretty good day today.  Justin and I now ( Read more... )

I really miss my baby.

CHOOF

I miss her so much!!!  I wish I was at her house right now.

I had an alright day today.  Last night was fun.  I got to hang out with my baby.  I hope I get to hang out with her again soon.

I had a good day.  I got to go over to Cheska's house after school.  Tomorrow I get to go home with her!  It's going to be really fun.

I don't know what is going on.  All I know is that it isn't good.