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[onesonglory]

Do you ever get the feeling that you're in the wrong place? Doing the wrong thing with your life? I mean I guess college is the place to doubt yourself and find yourself and then lose yourself all over again but it gets exhausting. I'm not doubting my passion but I'm doubting whether I should be in Chicago. Ugh. I just don't know anymore. I'm

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[imsochildish]

emily, its ok. the middle of my first semester at calarts, i was thinking the same things. its a part of getting to school, you start questioning things you used to take for granted. and that can be scary, and make you want to turn around and go home. but you just have to plow through it, i recommend not making any life-changing decisions until you've spent a year there. that way you can know for sure its not just the new kid in town jitters. keep your chin up, you are at a good school and chicago is an awesome city. go exploring with some friends, check out the fireside bowl or something.

[cinderella714]

Hey! You probably don't remember me - I actually had to stare at your jounal for a bit before I remembered who you are, so if you DO remember me, admitting that is probably pretty awkward. So hi! I'm Jess, I met you through Brittany Squier, I think, a very long time ago. ANYWAY, my point is you are absolutely not alone!! A lot of it does have to do with being in a new place: new people, new situations, new challenges... it can be pretty crazy. But there's also nothing wrong with changing your mind. If you're not happy where you are, or if you think you'd be more comfortable somewhere else, there's absolutely nothing wrong with transferring and trying someplace new. Just be open minded about it - figure out what you feel you can and are willing to adapt to, and what just isn't going to work for you.
Best of luck!!!

[sabine_chan]

You are not alone. I question myself every day.
If you need to talk, my phone is glued to my hip. I'm there if you need anything :)

[toanythingtaboo]

ugh, i hate that feeling. not knowing what to do is absolutely the worst. i think my whole not knowing lasted for a good 2 years...maybe more. i always wonder if something else would have been better for me, but i couldn't find anything better and i kinda refused to quit. and having come out on the other end, i'm glad i pushed through it. it was hard, but it finally put me in a good place. but, yeah, i think geographical changes are really the hardest part of the college transition. people are so different in different parts of the country.
i'm hoping i can avoid getting this feeling again if i go to grad school, but i'm already unsure if i want to do what i would be studying for the rest of my life.

[barefoot_lizzy]

nope, not alone.

some mornings i get up, gaze out at that beautiful pacific ocean and wonder to myself,

"...what the shit am i doing in Malibu?"