Thank you [12/12]
Title: Thank you
Author: onewaytrackk
Genre: Drama.
Disclaimer: In no way do I own bigbang, something I don't feel happy about. ):
Pairing: GTOP, slight hints of daeri, somehow.
Rating: PG13.
Summary: Seunghyun is sick.
(okay idk how to write a summary, so just read on if you want to okay?)
A/N: First fic.
Jiyong looked at the enlarged black and white picture staring him.
Seunghyun was smiling in the picture.
He will never be able to see the smile in real life anymore.
He stood solemnly at the side.
He didn't want to be here.
But if he know he would regret for the rest of his life if he don't turn up to see his lover, bandmate for the last time.
He didn't cry.
He went to see Seunghyun.
His body was lying there, he looked so. beautiful.
Like he gotten eternal peace.
He didn't cry.
He walked back to where the guests were.
He seated at the first row, with Youngbae, Daesung and Seungri.
Youngbae's eyes were red.
Daesung was crying.
Seungri was sniffling and comforting Daesung with a hug, offering mutual support.
He didn't cry.
He know he was supposed to.
But why should he cry for the guy for left him in this world alone.
He hated him.
Damn Choi Seunghyun, he broke his promise.
He said he would never leave.
He hated him he hated him he hated him so much.
Youngbae looked at him,
He squeezed his hands and pushed Jiyong's head towards his shoulder.
"Its okay, you can cry you know, don't suppress it."
He blinked.
No tears were forming.
He stayed there for a while.
He pulled himself away from Youngbae and sat up straight when the funeral was about to start.
It was over, the funeral.
Many people came over to them and offered their condolences.
He just nodded, he refused to speak.
Some asked what are the upcoming plans for bigbang.
The hell one of their members just died, must they really ask?
Yeah sure they were just concerned.
But seriously, he didn't want to think about that now.
Youngbae must know how he was thinking, he helped to answer those people and shut them up.
They went back to the dorm.
All 3 of them were worried for him,
He knows that.
He didn't cry, his boyfriend died and he didn't cry.
He had to pass by Seunghyun's room.
The door was slightly open.
He looked in.
All Seunghyun's toys were there.
His bed were still left unmade.
His ipod was still on the table.
Nothing was touched.
He went in, took the ipod, closed the door, and left for his own.
He didn't know why he took it, something in him told him to.
He plopped himself onto his own bed.
It smelled like Seunghyun.
Why the hell...
He ripped the bedsheets off the bed and threw them on the ground.
He felt so alone.
He plugged the earphones into his ears.
He heard Seunghyun's rap blast out from the earphones.
One of the songs they had recorded together in the early days.
God it was then tears started to form.
He missed him so much.
Just like how he could never see his smile ever again, he could never hear his voice too.
What he heard next came as a surprise.
"Hello Jiyong. If you're hearing this, I did tell you not to touch my ipod before didn't I. But then its okay, it's kind of a good thing you did. I recorded this just in case I'm can't be there for you anymore. Just like these lines from Haru Haru, Please forget about me and live on, I hope you will Ji. Be happy Kwon Jiyong, live for Youngbae, Daesung and Seungri if you won't want to live for yourself okay? They need you, the leader. And if you really don't want to or can't, forget about what I said about the lyrics earlier, live for me. Remember that I want you to continue living happily. okay? And what will happen to the world you're gone too, my dear Ji. What will happen to the Korea music industry. Of course I hope you will never have to hear this message but. What will happen must happen. And then I guess it did. Don't hold your tears in okay? Just cry if you feel like it. I'm sorry I can't be there to comfort you but, I love you. Forever and always, Choi Seunghyun."
It was then he started crying.
He had checked the date Seunghyun recorded it,
It was the day before his op.
He recorded it in case his op failed,
Who knew that it will be because of another reason he died, it wasn't expected any way how.
His tears flowed like a water fountain, never ending.
Youngbae came in, and hugged him, he was relived to see Jiyong finally crying, he didn't want him to keep everything to himself.
He started off comforting Jiyong, before crying too.
Daesung and Seungri came in, and joined the huddle session.
4 grown men hugging each other and crying.
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
They will be alright, Jiyong knows it,
They will be stronger.
Even though now that Seunghyun wasn't here physically anymore, even though nothing will be the same again.
"Op's a success."
Jiyong cried upon hearing that.
He stood up shakily, using the wall behind him for support. His legs were really really numb. He couldn't feel them, but whatever.
He managed to get into Seunghyun's room with the help of Youngbae, his legs were pretty useless, he could only shuffle as his form of walking.
Seunghyun was moved to a first class hospital room.
Of course, the best for Seunghyun.
He refused to leave even though it was already late at night.
Hyun Suk managed to convince Seunghyun's family home,
And then the other YG artises had to leave, for they all had schedules the next day.
Eventually the room was cleared except for the bigbang memebers.
They had promised to inform everyone the moment Seunghyun wakes up.
He slept by Seunghyun's bed, waking up with his hair being played with and messed up. He brought his hand up to the person's and pulled it down. "Disturb my sleep and you die." He mummered, not fully awake yet. He heard a chuckle. "Not funny Choi Seunghyun." He settled to sleep once again. Choi Seunghyun.
What.
His head snapped up to see Seunghyun's face, laughing at him. "Hyunnie, you're awake!" He reached over to hug the elder, then pulled back almost immediately. "I'm not speaking to you," Seunghyun looked confused for a moment, before laughing even more. "You know you want to Ji."
Jiyong pouted. "Nah uh."
"You're talking to me now."
Jiyong glared at him.
"I was scared I would never see you again."
Seunghyun confessed.
"Me too," Jiyong's voice came up as a whisper, upon hearing his words, "Thank goodness you're awake, I know you won't bear to leave me alone."
"Mmm, you know me so well, and it's so easy to make you talk."
"Ji you stink." When was the last time you bathed." Jiyong smiled sheepishly with fresh tears on his face. "Since the day you lied to us and came here secretly, you better be thankful the op was a success, if not I will kill you."
"But if the op failed, I would be dead, you can't kill me a second time you know, smartypants."
"Tsk hyun. You suck. Whatever. As long as you are awake now. Gotta wake the others up, and then call everything else. You make us so busy. See how many people care about you. Seriously leaving without telling us? I hate you for that."
"I love you too Ji."
They did everything they needed to, and somehow managed to persuade the concerned parties to not come yet, visiting hours had not started and having 4 visitors in the room was the maximum number the hospital would allow when it was not the visiting hours yet, after a lot of pleading, reasoning and reassuring had been done with the hospital staff.
The doctor and nurse had come,
To check on Seunghyun,
The doctor had said that the chance of a relapse was very slim, only 1 in 100 people with the same condition as Seunghyun had that happening to them, and unfortunately had been the cause of their deaths, an sudden unexpected death in epilepsy.
1 in 100, Jiyong scoffed at the number, his Seunghyun will definitely not be part of them.
"Hyun, lets go shopping today, theres this shirt I wanna buy.."
"Nah, I'm lazy to go out Ji."
"Please please please Hyunnie hyung?" He looked at Seunghyun, eyes pleading, hands clapsed together.
Seunghyun groaned. "Okay but you owe me one."
Jiyong smirked, he knew that acting like this would guarantee that he would get his way with him.
8 shopping bags that Seunghyun was made to carry later,
"Ji, lets go home, I'm tired, the weather is murderous, and your stuff are heavy."
"Theres this one more shop I wanna check out hyun, last shop I promise!"
Seunghyun sighed in defeat, before nodding. "You promised."
"Wheres the shop-" He began, "Hey stop!" He ran after the pickpocket he spotted, leaving Jiyong with his shopping bags in shock. "Hyun!"
"Don't run off like this again! That pickpocket could be armed for all you know!"
"Sorry, just that, the old woman's wallet was stolen, I can't just act like nothing happened.."
"You can't even run quickly Hyunnie, still thinking of being a hero."
"At least I got back her wallet!"
"Yeah thanks to the guy tripping."
They argued, Seunghyun somehow ended up with carrying the shopping bags again.
"But I was just centimetres away -"
That was when he fell on his back, he fainted.
"It seems like he got a relapse and when he hit his head on the floor, it caused a blood clot. I'm sorry, we did our best."
Death was a cheat, a charlatan who offered eternal peace but so often left behind nothing but perpetual torment.
MY ANOTHER NOTE. The last sentence quote was from the book 'The Reluctant Hero'. Kind of what inspired me to. kill seunghyun off. And. The end! I know the story had been kind of unrealistic and stuff, but yeah. And and and, I had a hard time deciding the ending. So many possibilities, only one could be chosen |: Sorry if it wasn't what you expected o.o. And the pickpocket part is so LOL. kk thanks for reading~
Author: onewaytrackk
Genre: Drama.
Disclaimer: In no way do I own bigbang, something I don't feel happy about. ):
Pairing: GTOP, slight hints of daeri, somehow.
Rating: PG13.
Summary: Seunghyun is sick.
(okay idk how to write a summary, so just read on if you want to okay?)
A/N: First fic.
Jiyong looked at the enlarged black and white picture staring him.
Seunghyun was smiling in the picture.
He will never be able to see the smile in real life anymore.
He stood solemnly at the side.
He didn't want to be here.
But if he know he would regret for the rest of his life if he don't turn up to see his lover, bandmate for the last time.
He didn't cry.
He went to see Seunghyun.
His body was lying there, he looked so. beautiful.
Like he gotten eternal peace.
He didn't cry.
He walked back to where the guests were.
He seated at the first row, with Youngbae, Daesung and Seungri.
Youngbae's eyes were red.
Daesung was crying.
Seungri was sniffling and comforting Daesung with a hug, offering mutual support.
He didn't cry.
He know he was supposed to.
But why should he cry for the guy for left him in this world alone.
He hated him.
Damn Choi Seunghyun, he broke his promise.
He said he would never leave.
He hated him he hated him he hated him so much.
Youngbae looked at him,
He squeezed his hands and pushed Jiyong's head towards his shoulder.
"Its okay, you can cry you know, don't suppress it."
He blinked.
No tears were forming.
He stayed there for a while.
He pulled himself away from Youngbae and sat up straight when the funeral was about to start.
It was over, the funeral.
Many people came over to them and offered their condolences.
He just nodded, he refused to speak.
Some asked what are the upcoming plans for bigbang.
The hell one of their members just died, must they really ask?
Yeah sure they were just concerned.
But seriously, he didn't want to think about that now.
Youngbae must know how he was thinking, he helped to answer those people and shut them up.
They went back to the dorm.
All 3 of them were worried for him,
He knows that.
He didn't cry, his boyfriend died and he didn't cry.
He had to pass by Seunghyun's room.
The door was slightly open.
He looked in.
All Seunghyun's toys were there.
His bed were still left unmade.
His ipod was still on the table.
Nothing was touched.
He went in, took the ipod, closed the door, and left for his own.
He didn't know why he took it, something in him told him to.
He plopped himself onto his own bed.
It smelled like Seunghyun.
Why the hell...
He ripped the bedsheets off the bed and threw them on the ground.
He felt so alone.
He plugged the earphones into his ears.
He heard Seunghyun's rap blast out from the earphones.
One of the songs they had recorded together in the early days.
God it was then tears started to form.
He missed him so much.
Just like how he could never see his smile ever again, he could never hear his voice too.
What he heard next came as a surprise.
"Hello Jiyong. If you're hearing this, I did tell you not to touch my ipod before didn't I. But then its okay, it's kind of a good thing you did. I recorded this just in case I'm can't be there for you anymore. Just like these lines from Haru Haru, Please forget about me and live on, I hope you will Ji. Be happy Kwon Jiyong, live for Youngbae, Daesung and Seungri if you won't want to live for yourself okay? They need you, the leader. And if you really don't want to or can't, forget about what I said about the lyrics earlier, live for me. Remember that I want you to continue living happily. okay? And what will happen to the world you're gone too, my dear Ji. What will happen to the Korea music industry. Of course I hope you will never have to hear this message but. What will happen must happen. And then I guess it did. Don't hold your tears in okay? Just cry if you feel like it. I'm sorry I can't be there to comfort you but, I love you. Forever and always, Choi Seunghyun."
It was then he started crying.
He had checked the date Seunghyun recorded it,
It was the day before his op.
He recorded it in case his op failed,
Who knew that it will be because of another reason he died, it wasn't expected any way how.
His tears flowed like a water fountain, never ending.
Youngbae came in, and hugged him, he was relived to see Jiyong finally crying, he didn't want him to keep everything to himself.
He started off comforting Jiyong, before crying too.
Daesung and Seungri came in, and joined the huddle session.
4 grown men hugging each other and crying.
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
They will be alright, Jiyong knows it,
They will be stronger.
Even though now that Seunghyun wasn't here physically anymore, even though nothing will be the same again.
"Op's a success."
Jiyong cried upon hearing that.
He stood up shakily, using the wall behind him for support. His legs were really really numb. He couldn't feel them, but whatever.
He managed to get into Seunghyun's room with the help of Youngbae, his legs were pretty useless, he could only shuffle as his form of walking.
Seunghyun was moved to a first class hospital room.
Of course, the best for Seunghyun.
He refused to leave even though it was already late at night.
Hyun Suk managed to convince Seunghyun's family home,
And then the other YG artises had to leave, for they all had schedules the next day.
Eventually the room was cleared except for the bigbang memebers.
They had promised to inform everyone the moment Seunghyun wakes up.
He slept by Seunghyun's bed, waking up with his hair being played with and messed up. He brought his hand up to the person's and pulled it down. "Disturb my sleep and you die." He mummered, not fully awake yet. He heard a chuckle. "Not funny Choi Seunghyun." He settled to sleep once again. Choi Seunghyun.
What.
His head snapped up to see Seunghyun's face, laughing at him. "Hyunnie, you're awake!" He reached over to hug the elder, then pulled back almost immediately. "I'm not speaking to you," Seunghyun looked confused for a moment, before laughing even more. "You know you want to Ji."
Jiyong pouted. "Nah uh."
"You're talking to me now."
Jiyong glared at him.
"I was scared I would never see you again."
Seunghyun confessed.
"Me too," Jiyong's voice came up as a whisper, upon hearing his words, "Thank goodness you're awake, I know you won't bear to leave me alone."
"Mmm, you know me so well, and it's so easy to make you talk."
"Ji you stink." When was the last time you bathed." Jiyong smiled sheepishly with fresh tears on his face. "Since the day you lied to us and came here secretly, you better be thankful the op was a success, if not I will kill you."
"But if the op failed, I would be dead, you can't kill me a second time you know, smartypants."
"Tsk hyun. You suck. Whatever. As long as you are awake now. Gotta wake the others up, and then call everything else. You make us so busy. See how many people care about you. Seriously leaving without telling us? I hate you for that."
"I love you too Ji."
They did everything they needed to, and somehow managed to persuade the concerned parties to not come yet, visiting hours had not started and having 4 visitors in the room was the maximum number the hospital would allow when it was not the visiting hours yet, after a lot of pleading, reasoning and reassuring had been done with the hospital staff.
The doctor and nurse had come,
To check on Seunghyun,
The doctor had said that the chance of a relapse was very slim, only 1 in 100 people with the same condition as Seunghyun had that happening to them, and unfortunately had been the cause of their deaths, an sudden unexpected death in epilepsy.
1 in 100, Jiyong scoffed at the number, his Seunghyun will definitely not be part of them.
"Hyun, lets go shopping today, theres this shirt I wanna buy.."
"Nah, I'm lazy to go out Ji."
"Please please please Hyunnie hyung?" He looked at Seunghyun, eyes pleading, hands clapsed together.
Seunghyun groaned. "Okay but you owe me one."
Jiyong smirked, he knew that acting like this would guarantee that he would get his way with him.
8 shopping bags that Seunghyun was made to carry later,
"Ji, lets go home, I'm tired, the weather is murderous, and your stuff are heavy."
"Theres this one more shop I wanna check out hyun, last shop I promise!"
Seunghyun sighed in defeat, before nodding. "You promised."
"Wheres the shop-" He began, "Hey stop!" He ran after the pickpocket he spotted, leaving Jiyong with his shopping bags in shock. "Hyun!"
"Don't run off like this again! That pickpocket could be armed for all you know!"
"Sorry, just that, the old woman's wallet was stolen, I can't just act like nothing happened.."
"You can't even run quickly Hyunnie, still thinking of being a hero."
"At least I got back her wallet!"
"Yeah thanks to the guy tripping."
They argued, Seunghyun somehow ended up with carrying the shopping bags again.
"But I was just centimetres away -"
That was when he fell on his back, he fainted.
"It seems like he got a relapse and when he hit his head on the floor, it caused a blood clot. I'm sorry, we did our best."
Death was a cheat, a charlatan who offered eternal peace but so often left behind nothing but perpetual torment.
MY ANOTHER NOTE. The last sentence quote was from the book 'The Reluctant Hero'. Kind of what inspired me to. kill seunghyun off. And. The end! I know the story had been kind of unrealistic and stuff, but yeah. And and and, I had a hard time deciding the ending. So many possibilities, only one could be chosen |: Sorry if it wasn't what you expected o.o. And the pickpocket part is so LOL. kk thanks for reading~