Its hard not to cry sometimes. It seems to be easier to find things to cry about. Right now i feel like there was a part of my body that i didn't know about was just pulled out, thrown on the ground and jumped on. over and over and over. It hurts really bad. I just hope that I can find the strength to be able to move on. To forgive and forget. I ( Read more... )

I am still up. I should be asleep. But I have a prayer request for all of you who might read this. It, I think is the most important prayer request i have ever layed out in my life. One of my friends has opened up to me. I might be in shock. I might not. But this person told me things that would normally raise my hair on end. But it didn't. I took ( Read more... )

I started a story.... so yeah. I had my dear friend Crystal in my mind when i started. And she's still there. But yeah ( Read more... )

I am writing this before I have to leave for my writing class. at 11:20. so its 10:59 right now. So I'll make this quick. Last night really put me at odds with myself. Noel preached a really powerful message. I got every bit of it and even more. I have decided to lay off going to the drop in even more. If its the Lords will that I get a job there, ( Read more... )

So i'm insanely mad at my mom. For being a jerk. just can't pinpoint the details right now cuz i'm so mad. Another plus about going to wisconsin. I can cut them out if i wanted to. Easy. I just want to make my parents feel ashamed for all the mistakes they've made with me. As I'm gone, I'm not initializing contact and they won't have any way to ( Read more... )

Ok. My life is on track. Not the path of normality or anything. But close enough. I got my lil black book. It's pretty cool. noone knows what its for unless i tell them. Cuz its not a normal black book. PPl are gonna be like, 'you sinner, you have a black book.' and i'll be like, 'nah.' so anyways. I really want to go. I have to. I must. I miss her ( Read more... )

So like ok. I can't get on my myspace right now. Grrr. special repairs or something. whatever. Anyways i just got back from a walk. It was pretty dark i admit. But who cares? So anyways I was thinking. I was thinking about maybe slowly, maybe not, just withdrawing, from ppl i know. I might keep going to youth group. But I just was thinking about it ( Read more... )

So anyways the days seem to be getting more and exciting, strange, inexplicitly weird, etcetera. So like anyways yesterday I promised my other youth pastor Will that I'd go to his youth group and I had blown him off. So like then me and David get into a debate on money, sex, lust, and the infallibility of the bible. It was incredible. I'm kinda ( Read more... )

So anyway what has been creeping into my mind lately is how much I used to take for granted. A life that I once knew. I am just still being drawn to my lord Jesus and life seems to be getting better. I actually don't know if it is getting better. My outlook on it is though. I am constantly praying for my friend Crystal. She is one of the people ( Read more... )

I am going to Virginia by October. What do I do? I just feel, at this moment of course, that life is going incredibly slow. like ok. I'm getting the new album from project 86 pre ordered though! But like I know I haven't fulfilled my duties as a livejournal person. But like every day I usually put up like 4 posts on my myspace! www.myspace.com/ ( Read more... )