I have kind of a lot of miscellaneous feelings, and maybe writing about them will help sort them out. Or maybe I'll just free-associate for a while
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That *is* a really good comment. Thanks, Chris! *hugs!*
You know, my PhD situation may have been sad and difficult, but I did kind of stupidly choose to stick with it -- I had a really good out in the form of the lab I worked for in 2011-2012 (because of course my advisor had no grant money)... they were happy and healthy and productive, and they can't seem to stop funneling people right into really good jobs.
They've also been, just recently, the target of right-wing conspiracy nutjobs and goddamn Lamar Smith (R-TX) who somehow have never heard of the NSA, but are *outraged* that OBAMA (aka the NSF) has spent NEARLY A MILLION DOLLARS modeling political information flow on Twitter with the clear intent of stifling the free speech of true patriots and truthspeakers...
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... best wishes for continued progress on your work!
I think I still suffer from some kind of PTSD, but I dare not examine it far too closely. I will kvetch when it's convenient to do so, perhaps in the near future, because I have applied to a couple of MSCS programs. (Because, you know, I did not get enough edumacation the first time around.)
So far, the snows have been kind enough not to bother us too much! I wonder why.
Sympathies about the research and solitude; I haven't done well in making personal hang-out buddies here, and my old friends are busy with kids much of the time. Of course, the past few weeks I've barely left the apartment anyway, we're getting ridiculous snow, and the subway can't cope.
Sorry to hear about the advisor. If it's the guy I think, I thought he was really into using software to Help the (Third) World?
At least you've got Lindsey!
It's totally fine to complain, though probably not healthy to do so too much. Almost any LJ activity is good activity, these days...
Joining local politics might be quaint to some, but someone's always going to be doing it. Or other volunteer activities, if you want a structure for leaving the house and being with people. Unless you mean local as in door-to-door canvassing.
But I feel stuck, in a lot of ways. I need to feel like I'm moving forward.
And kind of isolated, a lot of the time. I end up alone in the house a lot, at least when I'm not working.
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I actually often don't feel like I'm *allowed* to complain. My problems seem insignificant, and isn't it my job to help people, rather than whinging?
I feel like I'm in a very similar position about all of these things. It helps to see someone else struggling with this too. Keep posting! Misery loves company I guess.
I started going to Code for America meetups (well only one so far). I don't really think it's going to give my life direction, but hopefully it will get me out of the house a bit and do something kind of useful.
I should get some kind of volunteer activity going...
When I was reading Bowling Alone, I kept thinking about how there should be in-person EFF meetups, but even here in the Valley, there doesn't seem to be such a thing. Why not, I wonder? I know they have occasional "speakeasies" up in the city, but I wonder if those are more like drinkups...
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You know, my PhD situation may have been sad and difficult, but I did kind of stupidly choose to stick with it -- I had a really good out in the form of the lab I worked for in 2011-2012 (because of course my advisor had no grant money)... they were happy and healthy and productive, and they can't seem to stop funneling people right into really good jobs.
They've also been, just recently, the target of right-wing conspiracy nutjobs and goddamn Lamar Smith (R-TX) who somehow have never heard of the NSA, but are *outraged* that OBAMA (aka the NSF) has spent NEARLY A MILLION DOLLARS modeling political information flow on Twitter with the clear intent of stifling the free speech of true patriots and truthspeakers...
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... best wishes for continued progress on your work!
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How's it going in your world? Are you snowed in?
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So far, the snows have been kind enough not to bother us too much! I wonder why.
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Sorry to hear about the advisor. If it's the guy I think, I thought he was really into using software to Help the (Third) World?
At least you've got Lindsey!
It's totally fine to complain, though probably not healthy to do so too much. Almost any LJ activity is good activity, these days...
Joining local politics might be quaint to some, but someone's always going to be doing it. Or other volunteer activities, if you want a structure for leaving the house and being with people. Unless you mean local as in door-to-door canvassing.
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You know, my current job actually has pretty good potential for helping the (developing) world too :D
Thanks for listening, Damien :)
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And kind of isolated, a lot of the time. I end up alone in the house a lot, at least when I'm not working.
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I actually often don't feel like I'm *allowed* to complain. My problems seem insignificant, and isn't it my job to help people, rather than whinging?
I feel like I'm in a very similar position about all of these things. It helps to see someone else struggling with this too. Keep posting! Misery loves company I guess.
I started going to Code for America meetups (well only one so far). I don't really think it's going to give my life direction, but hopefully it will get me out of the house a bit and do something kind of useful.
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I should get some kind of volunteer activity going...
When I was reading Bowling Alone, I kept thinking about how there should be in-person EFF meetups, but even here in the Valley, there doesn't seem to be such a thing. Why not, I wonder? I know they have occasional "speakeasies" up in the city, but I wonder if those are more like drinkups...
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