Touching The Heavens Above
Title: Touching The Heavens Above. (One Shot)
Author: onkeyloves
Pairings: Onew/Key
Ratings: G
Genre: Romance.
Summary: It's still comes back to just loving you and never letting go.
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A tear slid down your porcelain face. It belongs to me. How could I ever let go of this love? yet, everyone hates to see us together. & every day I see how exhausting it was for you to keep defending yourself, us.
My heart bleeds from the resounding screams. & I kneel and pray every night for people to accept us; I pray for you to keeping loving me; I pray for our parents to acknowledge this our love.
I tried to say goodbye, but I choked. I tried to walk away, but I stumble and I know it isn't because of my clumsiness, but simply because I refuse to leave. Because I know my world crumbles without you.
However, as I caress your face, I couldn't bear to watch you going through this any longer. Having to see you keep a mask in front of me; having to be strong for me, for us, it hurts so bad.
It gets so frustrating to see detest in people's eyes. & I know how much you care about how people look at you.
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"You’re disgusting, kim kibum." I saw how you held your head low, tears threatening to fall out. & all I could do was watch you drag me away.
It hurt didn’t it, bummie? But you never said anything to me.
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I lost myself between memories of pain. This love keeps tumbling blindly, with no care in the world, & it’s time to stop. "i love you" keeps ringing in my head. It’s agonizing for you to live this life, having to prove yourself to everyone.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box. The tormenting nostalgia of past occurrences kept tugging on my heart strings. I used to comfort you, cradle you in my arms, giving you strength and force you to believe everything's gonna be okay.
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"Hyung...hyung! I love you, I love you so much." You were crying so badly, your body trembling against me.
"shhhh...I'll be here. Don't listen to what they say. Believe in us." I genuinely said, with all the sincerity I could manage.
But I was filled with infinite doubts.
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& I see you get stronger every day. The burst of strength; I didn't know where it came from. & the smiles you give when you look my way; as if assuring me. for what, i have no idea.
You surreptitiously crept into my heart, situated at a corner and refuse to go. & I thank the gods for you. & I was happy. Happy for us. Until the times I notice how you always grit your teeth, and how your face scrunch in annoyance and disappointment when you think I was not looking.
It gets exhausting. & it seems as though we're fabricating images of a future of our undying love. Is love ever going to be enough for the both of us? Aren't you tired of waiting? Waiting for the world to realise this is love we share.
The last straw was that faithful day. The strong front you shouldered broke. You were devastated. No one could soothe the pain.
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"You are revolting. Stay away from us. You are no son of ours. i can't believe we loved a fucking faggot." & you continuously ran in the pouring rain, till your feet gave way.
That was the last time you saw them. You were devastated on that day. It remains vivid in my head. Those words pierced through your heart.
& I heard every single shatter of that fragile heart of yours. & I know, not even I could pick up the pieces.
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You took 2 weeks. 2 weeks to recover from that memory. & you told me "I have you. I'll always have you, hyung. That’s enough."
I know it isn't true, but who am I to deny and say anything... sometimes I see you staring at the endless sky with bewilderment. What goes through your head? I never know, I never did found out. & half my mind says I don't really want to either. & my heart pounds loudly against my chest for reasons I don't know either.
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& today, today was the final straw for me. It was when I saw how you shed those trails of tears in front of someone that isn't me. & my heart unknowingly felt an excruciating pang of guilt.
You never did cry in front of me, & you told me there wasn't a reason to. At that moment, I knew I was being suffocated.
This love we have is disastrous. & I wasn't the pillar of strength you needed. I'm just not.
& I came to a decision, I had to leave you. To simply have our past to reminisce, I think it is enough for me. I can't be selfish anymore.
So tonight, as I smiled weakly at your beautiful face, I know its the right choice. & even if I regret it now, it doesn’t matter. I need you to be happy.
My heart crushed into beads of glasses as the scene from before flashes through my head. I don't want to see the pain you go through to aggravate. It wasn't even your fault in the first place.
"Sorry baby, I wish you never knew me. Just what can i do for you to make it better?" & I brushed a strand of hair away from your eyes. I know you didn’t deserve the treatment you get from people, and its time I stood up for us, for you.
"I have to leave you, don’t i?" I chuckled. I love you.
& silently, your eyelashes fluttered open against your cheeks. You heard it all.
"Then don't leave me. Just love me." you pulled me to your embrace and hugged me tightly.
The tears I shed, you lick it up. & I soon settled in the silence of your breathing and think.
I don't want to wake up one day, & realise reality was your presence being away from me; & having to wait for you to look back at me; whispering I love you when you're out of ear shot. or to regret every single second wasted being away from you.
This reality, I can't bear.
But... this love, I can continue to pray, & believe we're just baby steps to eternity
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Dear god,
i pray that this selfishness I possess, would become fruitful one day.
Amen.
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My author's note: :I have shifted to fabricatedays <3
-I sincerely wish you silent readers could make my day and comment because i love you guys dearly for reading. ♥
-I earnestly thank commenters who have stick by me to bring love and happiness to me. ILYSM, i can't even describe. ♥
-I deeply appreciate every single comment I receive from you all. I don't bite. so feel free to communicate with me. (:
-I truly wish you all to be happy all the time & hope my fanfic didn't disappoint you. ♥
I sound dead and depressing. I guess I am. But please do ignore me. -huggles-
I think this story seems empty /: pardon me.
& comments would really really make me happy.
But even if you don't, i just wanna say thank you & I would still love you all the same.♥
Author: onkeyloves
Pairings: Onew/Key
Ratings: G
Genre: Romance.
Summary: It's still comes back to just loving you and never letting go.
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A tear slid down your porcelain face. It belongs to me. How could I ever let go of this love? yet, everyone hates to see us together. & every day I see how exhausting it was for you to keep defending yourself, us.
My heart bleeds from the resounding screams. & I kneel and pray every night for people to accept us; I pray for you to keeping loving me; I pray for our parents to acknowledge this our love.
I tried to say goodbye, but I choked. I tried to walk away, but I stumble and I know it isn't because of my clumsiness, but simply because I refuse to leave. Because I know my world crumbles without you.
However, as I caress your face, I couldn't bear to watch you going through this any longer. Having to see you keep a mask in front of me; having to be strong for me, for us, it hurts so bad.
It gets so frustrating to see detest in people's eyes. & I know how much you care about how people look at you.
-----
"You’re disgusting, kim kibum." I saw how you held your head low, tears threatening to fall out. & all I could do was watch you drag me away.
It hurt didn’t it, bummie? But you never said anything to me.
-----
I lost myself between memories of pain. This love keeps tumbling blindly, with no care in the world, & it’s time to stop. "i love you" keeps ringing in my head. It’s agonizing for you to live this life, having to prove yourself to everyone.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box. The tormenting nostalgia of past occurrences kept tugging on my heart strings. I used to comfort you, cradle you in my arms, giving you strength and force you to believe everything's gonna be okay.
-----
"Hyung...hyung! I love you, I love you so much." You were crying so badly, your body trembling against me.
"shhhh...I'll be here. Don't listen to what they say. Believe in us." I genuinely said, with all the sincerity I could manage.
But I was filled with infinite doubts.
-----
& I see you get stronger every day. The burst of strength; I didn't know where it came from. & the smiles you give when you look my way; as if assuring me. for what, i have no idea.
You surreptitiously crept into my heart, situated at a corner and refuse to go. & I thank the gods for you. & I was happy. Happy for us. Until the times I notice how you always grit your teeth, and how your face scrunch in annoyance and disappointment when you think I was not looking.
It gets exhausting. & it seems as though we're fabricating images of a future of our undying love. Is love ever going to be enough for the both of us? Aren't you tired of waiting? Waiting for the world to realise this is love we share.
The last straw was that faithful day. The strong front you shouldered broke. You were devastated. No one could soothe the pain.
------
"You are revolting. Stay away from us. You are no son of ours. i can't believe we loved a fucking faggot." & you continuously ran in the pouring rain, till your feet gave way.
That was the last time you saw them. You were devastated on that day. It remains vivid in my head. Those words pierced through your heart.
& I heard every single shatter of that fragile heart of yours. & I know, not even I could pick up the pieces.
------
You took 2 weeks. 2 weeks to recover from that memory. & you told me "I have you. I'll always have you, hyung. That’s enough."
I know it isn't true, but who am I to deny and say anything... sometimes I see you staring at the endless sky with bewilderment. What goes through your head? I never know, I never did found out. & half my mind says I don't really want to either. & my heart pounds loudly against my chest for reasons I don't know either.
------
& today, today was the final straw for me. It was when I saw how you shed those trails of tears in front of someone that isn't me. & my heart unknowingly felt an excruciating pang of guilt.
You never did cry in front of me, & you told me there wasn't a reason to. At that moment, I knew I was being suffocated.
This love we have is disastrous. & I wasn't the pillar of strength you needed. I'm just not.
& I came to a decision, I had to leave you. To simply have our past to reminisce, I think it is enough for me. I can't be selfish anymore.
So tonight, as I smiled weakly at your beautiful face, I know its the right choice. & even if I regret it now, it doesn’t matter. I need you to be happy.
My heart crushed into beads of glasses as the scene from before flashes through my head. I don't want to see the pain you go through to aggravate. It wasn't even your fault in the first place.
"Sorry baby, I wish you never knew me. Just what can i do for you to make it better?" & I brushed a strand of hair away from your eyes. I know you didn’t deserve the treatment you get from people, and its time I stood up for us, for you.
"I have to leave you, don’t i?" I chuckled. I love you.
& silently, your eyelashes fluttered open against your cheeks. You heard it all.
"Then don't leave me. Just love me." you pulled me to your embrace and hugged me tightly.
The tears I shed, you lick it up. & I soon settled in the silence of your breathing and think.
I don't want to wake up one day, & realise reality was your presence being away from me; & having to wait for you to look back at me; whispering I love you when you're out of ear shot. or to regret every single second wasted being away from you.
This reality, I can't bear.
But... this love, I can continue to pray, & believe we're just baby steps to eternity
-------
Dear god,
i pray that this selfishness I possess, would become fruitful one day.
Amen.
-------
My author's note: :I have shifted to fabricatedays <3
-I sincerely wish you silent readers could make my day and comment because i love you guys dearly for reading. ♥
-I earnestly thank commenters who have stick by me to bring love and happiness to me. ILYSM, i can't even describe. ♥
-I deeply appreciate every single comment I receive from you all. I don't bite. so feel free to communicate with me. (:
-I truly wish you all to be happy all the time & hope my fanfic didn't disappoint you. ♥
I sound dead and depressing. I guess I am. But please do ignore me. -huggles-
I think this story seems empty /: pardon me.
& comments would really really make me happy.
But even if you don't, i just wanna say thank you & I would still love you all the same.♥