Im really annoyed at myself that ive lost touch with so many people i care about, and i feel like whenever i do talk to them were just always talking about ME and never really seem to get to them. That is why i think i really need to listen and not yell at people when i dont like what there doing but listen to them. I guess i should have done that ( Read more... )

Finally! i am done with being grounded just in time for the weekend and for the awesome concert next week! oh and today i got my schedule changed for the 4th time this tri and here is what it is now ( Read more... )

i havent written in quite a while but for a brief summary my grades are in the hole and im grounded and also have never been happier. funny how even when life is the shittyest one little thing can make it feel so much more okay. but of course that doesnt mean i wont try and swindel my way out of grounding and boost my grades eh. So im going to ask ( Read more... )

so today i did what i should have done logn ago let billy have it i mean what a dick? i would never ever do anything like that wow. im going to get my nutcracker and uh head over to his place eh? and im all angry and tired

i guess i was expecting some kind of reaction or something and i shouldnt be that dissapointed but i am, i mean its been 2 and a half weeks and he still hasnt responded how could i have been that stupid to even think that in making contact with him everything would be like it should be and all mended i just wish things were normal and i didnt have ( Read more... )

on friday the day started out pleasant with the minor upset of failing my science test but josh came at lunch to see me which was very sweet and that night we went to the football game and then left and went to the beach which  was even more fun. But on saturday i went to drivers ed and failed miserably but had the hopes of going to seattle to go ( Read more... )

In the past few months I've tried to be nice to everyone even those who i dont like but there has been a few minor exceptions. and yet there are quite a few people who are mean to me for no reason at all? in a way it's kind of ironic since im being so nice and for someone to be so mean to me for being nice, are they loathing me because my hapiness ( Read more... )

today everything just sort of caught up to me and i just went mad and started crying because im so past being overwhelmed and its emerged into insanity. I got in a enormous battle with my mother about school and of course she was right that im not doing as good as i have to be doing right now some of my grades are as low as a 75 percent yeah. And ( Read more... )

ahhh even though im way stressed all the time and SO busy i completly love my life and everyone apart of it and yes hapiness does come with some massive downsides but i suppose i just need to work harder and have it half an half. Oh and i hope anyone who reads this doesnt take this the wrong way but i think im getting considerably fatter im not ( Read more... )

Im completly confused why josh likes me i mean im like completly retarded and pretend to be I- gore infront of him how is that attractive? gross lifes so weird

oh and i am aware i just wrote an entry a minute ago