i have been feeling so crazy and strange lately. i think that maybe it is because i am always crazy. but lately its been extra bad. like i am always so down and i feel like i am such a problem to other people. i used to think i was helpful and now i feel like such a pain in the ass. i wish i could give everyone a hug. and then i would go cry ( Read more... )

i had a really good time last night with jesse. he is a fun person to be around. i wish i hadnt had to get up early this morning though, that would have been ideal.

today=crap.

i was just reading some of the weekly columns on browneyepie and i really liked what black hockey had to say.
thats all.

today better not be lame.

in the teen room at work i have to run an activity after study hour, and i am going to make them do mad libs. how fun. maybe i'll actually have a good time at work today. i hope so.

i think i have shin splints. ouch!

yesterday at the boys and girls club this kid got pushed down on the bleachers and his head split open. then when he was getting ready to go to the hospital via an ambulance, his mom showed up and took him in her car. i hope that woman brought him to a hospital. christ.

i just found out today that my next project is in Tonto National Park in Arizona. i am very excited, a little dissapointed because i was really hoping to get the alaska project. oh well.

piss off. i am so mad at myself and at the world. i feel like a 13 year old again, angry at everything b/c that is what is expected. i am such a wimp.

i would like to say that i am the happiest person ever, i would like to say that. but i am not and i dont know if i am ever going to find this so called happiness. lord help me for being over dramatic and crazy ( Read more... )

Dear Karen Revenge,
I sent you a postcard a while back, did you ever recieve it?
love, J. Kill

today was the most boring day of my life. no joke.

kill bill, v-1, right now!!! yessss!
i hope my weekend is fun...and i hope yours is too. i am excited about not going to the boys and girls club tomorrow. although i'll be doing far more boring work, it wont be with screaming kids. good god.