"어차피 너에게 난 그냥 좋은 친구잖아。。。"
my heart head hurts.
do you know? or are you too oblivious? i can't keep lying to you, or hiding, i'm just scared of your emotionless rejection,
i don't want to lose this pitiful friendship,
this, carefully built and glued together piece by piece by piece friendship.
it's an unrequited love. (what ever this love thing is, someone explain to me in detail.) a one-side thing. i'll bet this uncontrollable feeling that you do know. it's fine.
you can have my emotions.
you already settled yourself in my life.
i lost this battle with my awkwardness at trying to save this failing thing, this friendship of ours. this isn't even a poem.
it's my way of telling myself to give up on you.
ㅠㅠ
everything.
everything, every step, breath was
because of you.
my planned future.
every single excuse i tell,
every lie i make.
to myself, to my family,
to all others.
to you.
it was
you
who made me do it.
i step
towards you,
but you
retreat back.
further away.
i keep myself breathing
for you.
as if
you
even care, or know.
one or the other, or both.
everything was
always
for you.
the title is lyrics to lee seungi's because we're friends, for obvious reasons the first poem thing is like that song.
the second... thing, was my attempt at a "typography" or "concrete-ish" poem. though it has no shape or form, i tried.
i tried, okay?
yoojinnie.
do you know? or are you too oblivious? i can't keep lying to you, or hiding, i'm just scared of your emotionless rejection,
i don't want to lose this pitiful friendship,
this, carefully built and glued together piece by piece by piece friendship.
it's an unrequited love. (what ever this love thing is, someone explain to me in detail.) a one-side thing. i'll bet this uncontrollable feeling that you do know. it's fine.
you can have my emotions.
you already settled yourself in my life.
i lost this battle with my awkwardness at trying to save this failing thing, this friendship of ours. this isn't even a poem.
it's my way of telling myself to give up on you.
ㅠㅠ
everything.
everything, every step, breath was
because of you.
my planned future.
every single excuse i tell,
every lie i make.
to myself, to my family,
to all others.
to you.
it was
you
who made me do it.
i step
towards you,
but you
retreat back.
further away.
i keep myself breathing
for you.
as if
you
even care, or know.
one or the other, or both.
everything was
always
for you.
the title is lyrics to lee seungi's because we're friends, for obvious reasons the first poem thing is like that song.
the second... thing, was my attempt at a "typography" or "concrete-ish" poem. though it has no shape or form, i tried.
i tried, okay?
yoojinnie.