Normal or Not?
Title: Normal or not?
Pairing:(s) Yunjae
You sighed as you counted the drops of the rain and listened to the ticking clock at the wall of your living room. You continued your counting which had already reached 2078.
You worried because of the rain. You thought all the worst possibility included flood and drown, which it was totally impossible because it was only a little rain. You chuckled silently at your own silly thought. You just worried over him to much. You shooed away all the strange thought and convinced yourself that he was a mature and grown up man which made you didn’t need to worry over him anymore.
However, you couldn’t stop your worry…
Was it normal to worry this much over your ‘best friend’?
All of your friends and staffs and of course your band-mates knew at your over caring behavior towards him and they smiled at you. It was okay at first. However, lately you found their smiles were nearer to ‘I-know-it’ smile. You ignored them and forced your brain to think that it was normal affection towards him… Even your heart said that it was more.
You wrapped your arms at the couch pillow. It smelt like him. He usually sat at the couch and sprawled like a kitten over the sun while hugged and squished the old-but-comfortable coach pillow. You always wanted to pat him and wanted to know if he could purr like a real kitten. He grinned at you when he knew that you watched over his feature at the couch from the door. And you suddenly and willingly walked to the couch and snuggled over him and had a cat fight for the couch pillow after a while.
You missed him…
You attached to him. The entire world knew it. And if there weren’t any much proves, the entire fan cam in the whole internet would likely prove it. You two glued together until your fans noticed it. The result… ‘Yunjae pairing’
You scoffed when you heard about the pairing. You knew that it was only crazy fan girls’ things. Fanservice… That was you called it. Nothing more than it… However, a side of your heat filled with warm and you couldn’t deny that you were yearning for more to touch him while all the fans screamed like crazy over your action.
Was it any normal to crave for his touch this much?
You just screwed with it and told yourself that it was nothing but fan service… It was a little game to make the fans gone crazy… However, the tiny sound of your heart told you it was more than that.
You didn’t know why you ended wait for him and your mood suddenly turned into gloomy and clouded one. You had slumped at the couch since he left and earned a weird stare from Changmin and Junsu even poked your ribs in annoyance at your gloomy mood before you hushed him away.
You became damn bored without him. It was so much entertaining with him. You could tease him over and over about anything you could tease him and it made him flushed red into embarrassment. The sight of his red cheeks always made you wanted to pinch his cheeks. When you did pinch his cheeks, he would make a pout and annoyed glare that enough to make you shivered down into your back bone. He would attack you then, tickled you all the way and you struggled from his merciless action while laughed along with him. His laugh was music to your ears. A strange fetish you got from him. He was your best friend and you had a fetish towards him? However all you felt seemed so natural and so right.
Then, you and he would be both landing in awkward position that made you could see clear through his eyes and he could see straight to yours. Both of you would blush before retreat.
Still, you denied the heartbeat of your stupid pumping blood machine in your rib cage…
You hated it when he gone and left you, like a situation like this… very much big annoyance into your mighty ego.
You were a big boy... A man… Leader of bunch of Gods… And you couldn’t live without him…?
Aissh… You realized how much of Yunjae fangirls would cheer if they knew this scene.
Your thought back to your body and you pouted more as you remembered all the scene from your back brain before he went…
“Where do you want to go?” You asked him as you saw him in a black suit with leg fitting jeans. Sexy… Whoops…
His brownish hair styled in nice view as the earrings you gave him for his late birthday dangled in his ears. You asked yourself whether it was normal when you wanted to lick your best friend’s ear lobe. You stared at his feature without your conscious brain like it was suddenly clogged with the tempting aura from him.
“Yunnie…?” He waved at you. Good… He grinned… He must be noticing your idiot dumb stare at him. Thanks so much to heaven that you didn’t drool. It would break your label as the mighty leader-sshi if you did that.
“Huh?”
“You are checking on me…”
Oh Great Lord, why could a devil smirk look this heavenly…
Sweet... Indeed he knew that you were drooling over him.
“What..?. What? I… not… I am… Not…!” You stuttered and his smirk broke into grinned and then turned into chuckled.
He walked closer to you and tilted his head cutely.
“Can I go leader-sshi?”
You shrugged.
“I don’t know, Boo… I think it is a little too late to go, isn’t it? It is dangerous and…
“But… Yunnie… Please, I don’t hit the club since forever… with all tight schedule and all the recording things… Can I go please?”
Puppy dog eyes…
Jaejoong : 1 - Yunho : 0
“Okay… But you…”
“I go with Chunnie… So, you can’t stop me with any safety reason again…”
You sighed as you nodded at him with hesitation. He smiled the enchanting smile that made your churning stomach fluttered in agony. There was nothing normal in the way he made your stomach suddenly had butterflies.
He called Yoochun and your dongsaeng answered it from the other room, demanded Jaejoong to wait for him because he had a problem in chose his pants.
“Why did you ask me for permission when no matter what I said in the end you would go after all?”
“Hmmm….” He put his finger in his chin and tapped it as he thought.
“Maybe because you are the leader… And… as a good band mate I must have your permission…” He grinned when he answered the question, showed his perfect pearly teeth.
You smiled…
He leaned closer to you… And he whispered to your ears.
A juggle of soft words that you could barely understand…
“Because you attach to me Yunnie-ah… And you barely could think straight if I suddenly disappeared… I know it…”
Your half brain pretended to not understand the private words in your ears. He pulled his face and grinned even wider. He winked his eyes in flirtatious manner and said another words to you…
“I still can wait… I am a man with much patience…”
You frowned, readied to open your mouth to exclaim your confusion. However Yoochun had already walked and readied for the night club.
You saw his back walked towards the door and left your apartment without hesitation, left you drown deep in confusion.
You heard the sound of rustle and incoherent conversation together with silly song at the front of your apartment door. And in short terms, you knew, your Jaejoong had already come home. And you were right…
He was flushed, face red, with arm clung into Yoochun… He shouted your latest single of this summer which turned into a weird hummed tune. You still found it beautiful.
Was it normal? …Again… You asked yourself.
“Hyung…” Yoochun whined as he felt the beautiful drunk man beside him slowly slid down, gave a dead weight to him as he desperately tried to made him stood as long as possible. You took it as your cue to help.
“I take care of him… It’s already late… Just take a shower and go to sleep, ne?”
Yoochun nodded, bounced slightly at his happiness when he knew he freed from take care of his drunken hyung. He knew that Jaejoong was difficult to handle when he was drunk. He would continually ramble and tell about many things, which the other people hard to catch them. You saw your dongsaeng slipped into his room.
You tried to hold him with your arms while he was singing another single from your album He had his step in limp, first to the left and then to the right while sung the song and continued his walk to enter the living room… Aish… why must he drink until become like this? He struggled at your grip and pouted like a spoilt child. Well, he was a spoilt child… You spoilt him too much.
Whatever he asked, you would give it to him…
The cheesy line from a Casanova told it like you could bring down the moon if he asked.
Normal?
Ahhh…. Nope... It was everything but normal…
You questioned it at yourself as you caught him when he nearly tripped and the result, you became the tripping one. Your fall brought him down with you. You landed at the couch with him at the top of your body. You stared nothing but his eyes. He looked at nothing but yours too.
Suddenly he grinned at the sight of your face right in front of him.
“Yunnie-ah…” He whispered happily as he brought his slender fingers to brush the strands of hair in your forehead.
You were dead right at the moment you saw his smile… Definitely died and went straight to heaven… Too much butterflies and warmth in your stomach, it might became the cause of your death.
No… no… You were not dead… It was only a hyperbole to describe your feeling. Even you might really die if he continued his stroke of his fingers on your hair.
He eyed you with something that you often found when he was staring at you at the previous time. Well, you might know it, but you didn’t want to know it. Your position, your gesture, your loving stare at him without you could control, and for more like the other wasn’t enough, the butterflies in your stomach were so and too strange. It wasn’t normal… Yes, it was weird, against the universe. It was against the natural ways, laws and orders. This was not supposed to be happening right? Because he was your best friend, even you are sure but denied the extravagant feeling you had when with him. Because he was a male… A lead vocal of a boy band which all Asian dreamt that they could have him… You didn’t suppose to feel like this with him.
But your body and your brains were moving themselves. You touched and cupped his right cheek and softly caress it. It was so soft and felt nothing but a tingling feathery touch in his cheeks, you sure about it because he tilted his head to the right side to feel more of your touch. When he purred with contentment, you felt the same filled feelings from his action. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the sensation of your touch in his cheek.
Against all laws and orders, like the earth suddenly rotated from right to left and made the sun rose from the west, or like the fish suddenly flied to the sky, you leaned your head towards him. You cupped his head firmly but with such gentleness and you closed your eyelids when you touched your lips to his.
It was a sweet and chaste kiss as you felt his breathing against your face, all smelt sour from the alcohol, strangely and with anomaly you found it sweet. The way the smooth curve of his lips felt so perfect yet so strange in yours. Slowly you moved against his lips and felt that he was smiling while you kissed him.
When you retreated because of the lack of the oxygen in your lungs which made your brain dizzy and the percentage of oxyhemoglobin in your blood decreased, you looked at his glowing-with-happiness face. He snuggled his face at the crook of the neck and you smelt the alcohol fragrance again in his slender yet firm body blended together with the real scent from his. It was still sweet even it was only seeped from the alcohol smell that wrapped his body.
“Took you long enough…” He murmured against the crook of your neck and sent a wave of sweet delicious rush into your lungs and brain, refilled every cells in it with an abnormal happiness.
You found the eyes of his glinted with so much over joy. Finally, you surrender at the thought of the normal and non normal battle against your head and decided to screw with all of them, threw all the thought out from the window and just gave thanks for the thing and the beauty inside the wrap of your hands.
“I’m sorry…”
“I know… you are totally dense… Yun…”
“Hmm… I’m sorry. I just found it difficult to admit my abnormal preference about my sexuality which ended with losing control towards you and kissed you without proper explanation… Boo…” You grinned as you held his body tight into yours. The heat between you two was surely unbearable to be missed.
“Shut up and kiss me…”
And you obeyed his command with more than willingly. The way his body in yours and his lips against yours and the fact that he would be yours tonight were more than enchanting. It was too perfect to describe.
Nothing could be more perfect than this perfect moment… There was nothing wrong inside something which was perfect, right?
At that time you knew that kissed your best friend and soon to be lover was the most normal thing in the world…
Because in love… There wasn’t a thing you could call it wrong…
Yes… The line between ‘normal’ and ‘abnormal’… hmmm…. It was surely ambiguous… So why not just screwed with it…?
Pairing:(s) Yunjae
You sighed as you counted the drops of the rain and listened to the ticking clock at the wall of your living room. You continued your counting which had already reached 2078.
You worried because of the rain. You thought all the worst possibility included flood and drown, which it was totally impossible because it was only a little rain. You chuckled silently at your own silly thought. You just worried over him to much. You shooed away all the strange thought and convinced yourself that he was a mature and grown up man which made you didn’t need to worry over him anymore.
However, you couldn’t stop your worry…
Was it normal to worry this much over your ‘best friend’?
All of your friends and staffs and of course your band-mates knew at your over caring behavior towards him and they smiled at you. It was okay at first. However, lately you found their smiles were nearer to ‘I-know-it’ smile. You ignored them and forced your brain to think that it was normal affection towards him… Even your heart said that it was more.
You wrapped your arms at the couch pillow. It smelt like him. He usually sat at the couch and sprawled like a kitten over the sun while hugged and squished the old-but-comfortable coach pillow. You always wanted to pat him and wanted to know if he could purr like a real kitten. He grinned at you when he knew that you watched over his feature at the couch from the door. And you suddenly and willingly walked to the couch and snuggled over him and had a cat fight for the couch pillow after a while.
You missed him…
You attached to him. The entire world knew it. And if there weren’t any much proves, the entire fan cam in the whole internet would likely prove it. You two glued together until your fans noticed it. The result… ‘Yunjae pairing’
You scoffed when you heard about the pairing. You knew that it was only crazy fan girls’ things. Fanservice… That was you called it. Nothing more than it… However, a side of your heat filled with warm and you couldn’t deny that you were yearning for more to touch him while all the fans screamed like crazy over your action.
Was it any normal to crave for his touch this much?
You just screwed with it and told yourself that it was nothing but fan service… It was a little game to make the fans gone crazy… However, the tiny sound of your heart told you it was more than that.
You didn’t know why you ended wait for him and your mood suddenly turned into gloomy and clouded one. You had slumped at the couch since he left and earned a weird stare from Changmin and Junsu even poked your ribs in annoyance at your gloomy mood before you hushed him away.
You became damn bored without him. It was so much entertaining with him. You could tease him over and over about anything you could tease him and it made him flushed red into embarrassment. The sight of his red cheeks always made you wanted to pinch his cheeks. When you did pinch his cheeks, he would make a pout and annoyed glare that enough to make you shivered down into your back bone. He would attack you then, tickled you all the way and you struggled from his merciless action while laughed along with him. His laugh was music to your ears. A strange fetish you got from him. He was your best friend and you had a fetish towards him? However all you felt seemed so natural and so right.
Then, you and he would be both landing in awkward position that made you could see clear through his eyes and he could see straight to yours. Both of you would blush before retreat.
Still, you denied the heartbeat of your stupid pumping blood machine in your rib cage…
You hated it when he gone and left you, like a situation like this… very much big annoyance into your mighty ego.
You were a big boy... A man… Leader of bunch of Gods… And you couldn’t live without him…?
Aissh… You realized how much of Yunjae fangirls would cheer if they knew this scene.
Your thought back to your body and you pouted more as you remembered all the scene from your back brain before he went…
“Where do you want to go?” You asked him as you saw him in a black suit with leg fitting jeans. Sexy… Whoops…
His brownish hair styled in nice view as the earrings you gave him for his late birthday dangled in his ears. You asked yourself whether it was normal when you wanted to lick your best friend’s ear lobe. You stared at his feature without your conscious brain like it was suddenly clogged with the tempting aura from him.
“Yunnie…?” He waved at you. Good… He grinned… He must be noticing your idiot dumb stare at him. Thanks so much to heaven that you didn’t drool. It would break your label as the mighty leader-sshi if you did that.
“Huh?”
“You are checking on me…”
Oh Great Lord, why could a devil smirk look this heavenly…
Sweet... Indeed he knew that you were drooling over him.
“What..?. What? I… not… I am… Not…!” You stuttered and his smirk broke into grinned and then turned into chuckled.
He walked closer to you and tilted his head cutely.
“Can I go leader-sshi?”
You shrugged.
“I don’t know, Boo… I think it is a little too late to go, isn’t it? It is dangerous and…
“But… Yunnie… Please, I don’t hit the club since forever… with all tight schedule and all the recording things… Can I go please?”
Puppy dog eyes…
Jaejoong : 1 - Yunho : 0
“Okay… But you…”
“I go with Chunnie… So, you can’t stop me with any safety reason again…”
You sighed as you nodded at him with hesitation. He smiled the enchanting smile that made your churning stomach fluttered in agony. There was nothing normal in the way he made your stomach suddenly had butterflies.
He called Yoochun and your dongsaeng answered it from the other room, demanded Jaejoong to wait for him because he had a problem in chose his pants.
“Why did you ask me for permission when no matter what I said in the end you would go after all?”
“Hmmm….” He put his finger in his chin and tapped it as he thought.
“Maybe because you are the leader… And… as a good band mate I must have your permission…” He grinned when he answered the question, showed his perfect pearly teeth.
You smiled…
He leaned closer to you… And he whispered to your ears.
A juggle of soft words that you could barely understand…
“Because you attach to me Yunnie-ah… And you barely could think straight if I suddenly disappeared… I know it…”
Your half brain pretended to not understand the private words in your ears. He pulled his face and grinned even wider. He winked his eyes in flirtatious manner and said another words to you…
“I still can wait… I am a man with much patience…”
You frowned, readied to open your mouth to exclaim your confusion. However Yoochun had already walked and readied for the night club.
You saw his back walked towards the door and left your apartment without hesitation, left you drown deep in confusion.
You heard the sound of rustle and incoherent conversation together with silly song at the front of your apartment door. And in short terms, you knew, your Jaejoong had already come home. And you were right…
He was flushed, face red, with arm clung into Yoochun… He shouted your latest single of this summer which turned into a weird hummed tune. You still found it beautiful.
Was it normal? …Again… You asked yourself.
“Hyung…” Yoochun whined as he felt the beautiful drunk man beside him slowly slid down, gave a dead weight to him as he desperately tried to made him stood as long as possible. You took it as your cue to help.
“I take care of him… It’s already late… Just take a shower and go to sleep, ne?”
Yoochun nodded, bounced slightly at his happiness when he knew he freed from take care of his drunken hyung. He knew that Jaejoong was difficult to handle when he was drunk. He would continually ramble and tell about many things, which the other people hard to catch them. You saw your dongsaeng slipped into his room.
You tried to hold him with your arms while he was singing another single from your album He had his step in limp, first to the left and then to the right while sung the song and continued his walk to enter the living room… Aish… why must he drink until become like this? He struggled at your grip and pouted like a spoilt child. Well, he was a spoilt child… You spoilt him too much.
Whatever he asked, you would give it to him…
The cheesy line from a Casanova told it like you could bring down the moon if he asked.
Normal?
Ahhh…. Nope... It was everything but normal…
You questioned it at yourself as you caught him when he nearly tripped and the result, you became the tripping one. Your fall brought him down with you. You landed at the couch with him at the top of your body. You stared nothing but his eyes. He looked at nothing but yours too.
Suddenly he grinned at the sight of your face right in front of him.
“Yunnie-ah…” He whispered happily as he brought his slender fingers to brush the strands of hair in your forehead.
You were dead right at the moment you saw his smile… Definitely died and went straight to heaven… Too much butterflies and warmth in your stomach, it might became the cause of your death.
No… no… You were not dead… It was only a hyperbole to describe your feeling. Even you might really die if he continued his stroke of his fingers on your hair.
He eyed you with something that you often found when he was staring at you at the previous time. Well, you might know it, but you didn’t want to know it. Your position, your gesture, your loving stare at him without you could control, and for more like the other wasn’t enough, the butterflies in your stomach were so and too strange. It wasn’t normal… Yes, it was weird, against the universe. It was against the natural ways, laws and orders. This was not supposed to be happening right? Because he was your best friend, even you are sure but denied the extravagant feeling you had when with him. Because he was a male… A lead vocal of a boy band which all Asian dreamt that they could have him… You didn’t suppose to feel like this with him.
But your body and your brains were moving themselves. You touched and cupped his right cheek and softly caress it. It was so soft and felt nothing but a tingling feathery touch in his cheeks, you sure about it because he tilted his head to the right side to feel more of your touch. When he purred with contentment, you felt the same filled feelings from his action. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the sensation of your touch in his cheek.
Against all laws and orders, like the earth suddenly rotated from right to left and made the sun rose from the west, or like the fish suddenly flied to the sky, you leaned your head towards him. You cupped his head firmly but with such gentleness and you closed your eyelids when you touched your lips to his.
It was a sweet and chaste kiss as you felt his breathing against your face, all smelt sour from the alcohol, strangely and with anomaly you found it sweet. The way the smooth curve of his lips felt so perfect yet so strange in yours. Slowly you moved against his lips and felt that he was smiling while you kissed him.
When you retreated because of the lack of the oxygen in your lungs which made your brain dizzy and the percentage of oxyhemoglobin in your blood decreased, you looked at his glowing-with-happiness face. He snuggled his face at the crook of the neck and you smelt the alcohol fragrance again in his slender yet firm body blended together with the real scent from his. It was still sweet even it was only seeped from the alcohol smell that wrapped his body.
“Took you long enough…” He murmured against the crook of your neck and sent a wave of sweet delicious rush into your lungs and brain, refilled every cells in it with an abnormal happiness.
You found the eyes of his glinted with so much over joy. Finally, you surrender at the thought of the normal and non normal battle against your head and decided to screw with all of them, threw all the thought out from the window and just gave thanks for the thing and the beauty inside the wrap of your hands.
“I’m sorry…”
“I know… you are totally dense… Yun…”
“Hmm… I’m sorry. I just found it difficult to admit my abnormal preference about my sexuality which ended with losing control towards you and kissed you without proper explanation… Boo…” You grinned as you held his body tight into yours. The heat between you two was surely unbearable to be missed.
“Shut up and kiss me…”
And you obeyed his command with more than willingly. The way his body in yours and his lips against yours and the fact that he would be yours tonight were more than enchanting. It was too perfect to describe.
Nothing could be more perfect than this perfect moment… There was nothing wrong inside something which was perfect, right?
At that time you knew that kissed your best friend and soon to be lover was the most normal thing in the world…
Because in love… There wasn’t a thing you could call it wrong…
Yes… The line between ‘normal’ and ‘abnormal’… hmmm…. It was surely ambiguous… So why not just screwed with it…?