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“
Let’s break up…” You told him slowly, as you didn’t dare to look at those warm chocolate emotion that always drew you into the magical world of the deepest maze that buried in the orbs. They caught you so tightly until you couldn’t escape again from the deepest maze of the hurtful feeling of love that buried inside your heart.
The man that you loved was so calm. Far too calmly and it hurted you even more. He wasn’t even showing any forms of sadness from the words that escaped from your lips. You struggled to stand; even your feet had already lost their power to support you.
“Okay…” You gasped at the light answer that launched from the lips that you had always dreamt to kiss and you didn’t ever, get boring to taste it again and again.
Was it true that you were nothing for him?
Was it true that all the moments that you endured together meant nothing for him?
Was it true that it was only one-sided relationship?
Was it truly true that he felt nothing for you?
“You agree?” You asked him with the pure disbelief that ordered you to release the words of pure shock to your soon to be ex-lover. You hoped that what you had heard was a false word and your ears misunderstood it.
“If you think that it is the best for us, then… I agree…” He told you nonchalantly like it was as easy as turning a page of a book to look at another caption. It was so easy to him, but why was it so hard to you?
You were the one; who was the fool and goof here, weren’t you?
You saw him with hurtful eyes and what you met was a calm and steady pool of warm chocolate orbs that you loved and you hated because of their calmness. The calmness, it self careened your heart and your brain into insane situation that no one could ever imagine.
He walked you calmly and passed you with the scent that you loved the most in this entire world. It left you hurt and a broken hearted as you saw him walked away from your life.
“Be happy…” He whispered to you as he passed you by and you held your tears from falling freely downward your cheeks as the carbon copy of your already wrecked heart.
He was releasing you completely, like you were nothing at the beginning for him. You were not special to him; even you always thought that he was your most precious pearl and the most precious possession.
And there you stood quietly with the eyes that fuelled of brimming tears; they threatened to fall down your cheeks. You slowly took a breath to prevent them from falling to the ground.
Once…
“It is okay, Junsu…”
Twice…
“Nope… No.. Don’t cry…”
Thrice…
“Oh my God…”
You failed. Tears had already fallen down from your eyes as you snorted to calm down yourself only to make you fall and crouched down to the dirt of the beautiful; autumn park that you loved to go together with the man you loved. Your lips shivered in agony as you felt the wetness in your cheeks that you couldn’t deny even for once.
The fallen leaves surrounded you as they captive you into their fall together, the realization made your heart jumped as you knew the sudden truth. The sadness filled capillarity inside your body as you felt the sadness itself carved permanently in the aching heart of yours.
You didn’t want to cover it.
However, all of these things choked you dearly. He didn’t even care and show any emotion when asked why a break up from this hurtful relationship. Even the catchiest words were nothing in his ears, right?
You were nothing compared to all the girls that came and went in his entire playboy life.
You were none and even didn’t get a single spare glance from him. The imaginative catcall all whispered in your heart and made it ached for more and more.
You and Yoochun were no longer together again…
Everything was over.
***
Junsu cursed loudly as he kicked a rock at the ground, harshly. His face must of been red and swollen because of all the tears that he spilled since that damn; Yoochun. His favorite shirt crumpled in dirt and tears. He felt all eyes in the street were looking at him. However he didn’t bother with all of them.
“Why must I cry for that damn bastard…?” He mumbled, kicking another stone again. He felt innocent even the stone landed at an ahjumma’s head and earned a glare from her.
“He doesn’t deserve a beautiful and cute person like me…” He pouted while the other people around him looked at the cute man like he was crazy.
“Such a pity, a handsome man with crazy brain…”
“Yes, he is so cute, how come he’s being crazy like that…”
Two women were mumbling and whispering about him and he glared at them with all of his might until his eyes were nearly popped out from the sockets.
“And now, people think me; crazy, all because of that stupid Yoochun. Damn him… So damn him…”
‘But you still love him, right?’ His inner voice told him as he hitched at the harsh reality that presented in front of the cute man.
‘But, he didn’t even love me…’ He told the naughty little voice that whispered in his brain.
‘He hasn’t called me even once…’ Junsu sadly narrowed his eyes at the sight of the two pretty girls and made the giggled in excitement, although the truth Junsu didn’t look at them and only deep buried in his thought.
“I am always the one that tell my feeling to him, and he never once told me that he loves me… not even once…” Good, at the moment, he really spoke to himself. He must be crazy right? Thanks to his ex-boyfriend, dearly beloved Yoochunnie… bah.
It was only him that always took a step in their relationship. He was the one who told his feeling to Yoochunnie, ups... Yoochun. He was the one that told him that he loved him.
The former Casanova only smiled and nodded his head when Junsu asked him to go out with him. He was the one who called Yoochun every night in his relationship. He was the one who asked him to go to the date. He was the one that took the initiative to hold the older man’s hand as the other only walked quietly beside him. He was the one who showed all the care and the other had never done it even once for Junsu.
Junsu knew Yoochun was a Casanova and he acted all mushy in the front of his entire former lovers. He even fed them… And with him, Yoochun had never even once acted like he cared to him.
He acted so charming in front of all the women and flirted so damn sweetly and did nothing beside him.
Who weren’t sad if his boyfriend did that to him?
And all of these were signs to Junsu that he was not even better towards all his former lovers. Even he wanted a break up, the other just calmly accepted it and left Junsu’s heart ached for more because of his ex-lover.
“I wish even for once, he was the one that called me, not the other way around…” he sighed deeply as he continued to walk down the street. All of the road and his surrounding were surely became a blur of reality if they were compared toward his Yoochun. The silence in his empty heart surely frazzled what had left in his broken previous already broken relationship.
He decided to release the fount of his happiness because it only brought him another sadness that made a continuously frantic in his life.
All of his insecurities were nothing compared to the hurt he received from the passiveness from the other man. The tank of sorrow had already fraught and he couldn’t do anything but to release it and let it flowed to other place.
The frenetic beside him was suddenly disappearing and made him not hear the sound of people that warned him. All the warning that shouted from the people disappeared completely before they could even go through the barrier from his mind and the real world that shouted clearly at him.
His feet were too freezing to stop his motion to cross the street. All was deep blank when he heard the honk from the car that screeched near him and all he saw in the cold eyes of his were a black car that bumped his body hard.
All was so fast, yet in his eyes it was like a slow motion…
The frequency of the shouting around him was too high as he felt his body flung toward the hard road of crowded city. He gasped when he felt the breeze of wind that surrounded his body when he saw the gasping face of the people.
The fundament of his heart crashed down together with his entire world when he felt the harsh and hard road wounded his skin when his body made a contact with the ground.
It was hurt at first, but it suddenly felt nothing but numb. Numb… Like his heart at the moment… Good, he didn’t feel the hurt again inside his heart and even with his body.
The sounds were suddenly whispered in his head, making him dizzy and became frenzy.
They were a bunch of people with gab, could they just shut up?
[Yoochun, I love you, do you want to go out with me?]
[Chunnie, I love you…]
[Hold my hand, Chunnie…]
[Chunnie, where are you? Why don’t you call me?]
[Chunnie, I made this for you…Do you like it?]
Oh, there was a sound of ambulance. The loud sound made his head get more ache…
Too much insult…
Too much…
[Please call me…]
[Please call me… *Sob* Just this once… *Sob* Chunnie, call me…]
[Let’s break up…]
And suddenly all became pitch black in his eyes. And his head were filled with nothing but sadness and darkness that ate him alive and might be forever in his world of numbness. Too tired, he gave up at the overwhelmed darkness and numb that covered all of his body.
The crimson liquid from his tainted; the black asphalt of the road and painted the road with a paint of sorrow and sadness. The metal scent surely oozed through the air of the beautiful evening. The galaxy mourned together at the sight of the pretty body slumped oddly at the street all drown in crimson beauty. The genuine pretty face made the heart winced even more at the sight of the broken doll that lay at the cold hard asphalt.
The more sadness that made the heart of the angel cried and bled even more when he saw the broken beauty in the cold harsh reality.
The glimmer of the pretty face soon faded with the glimpse of the eyes from the other people who walked at the street. They watched the broken beautiful body and lost the words from their private glossary.
‘Did you love me…?’
“Oh my God…”
“The ambulance is here…”
“Help him, his blood was everywhere…”
“He doesn’t breathe, do the CPR…”
“Please be alive… Please….”
The first scene of the love story had already closed with the sight of mass blood of scattered dreams and loves. And the actor himself didn’t know if he could get up and continued the play of the story…
***
“Yoochun-sshi…”
“Yes, this is Yoochun…”
“Junsu got an accident…”
“What?”
The cell phone fell from his grasped as the eyes of the man were staring deeply into the pretty sky that colored with the red sun. Yoochun stood quietly and didn’t move.
No one knew what he had inside his brain except him, himself.
***
And even gnawed my love for you…
Why didn’t you do something?
Why did you always go-bye at me?
Why?
Why?
***
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Thank you so much... ^_^
“
Let’s break up…” You told him slowly, as you didn’t dare to look at those warm chocolate emotion that always drew you into the magical world of the deepest maze that buried in the orbs. They caught you so tightly until you couldn’t escape again from the deepest maze of the hurtful feeling of love that buried inside your heart.
The man that you loved was so calm. Far too calmly and it hurted you even more. He wasn’t even showing any forms of sadness from the words that escaped from your lips. You struggled to stand; even your feet had already lost their power to support you.
“Okay…” You gasped at the light answer that launched from the lips that you had always dreamt to kiss and you didn’t ever, get boring to taste it again and again.
Was it true that you were nothing for him?
Was it true that all the moments that you endured together meant nothing for him?
Was it true that it was only one-sided relationship?
Was it truly true that he felt nothing for you?
“You agree?” You asked him with the pure disbelief that ordered you to release the words of pure shock to your soon to be ex-lover. You hoped that what you had heard was a false word and your ears misunderstood it.
“If you think that it is the best for us, then… I agree…” He told you nonchalantly like it was as easy as turning a page of a book to look at another caption. It was so easy to him, but why was it so hard to you?
You were the one; who was the fool and goof here, weren’t you?
You saw him with hurtful eyes and what you met was a calm and steady pool of warm chocolate orbs that you loved and you hated because of their calmness. The calmness, it self careened your heart and your brain into insane situation that no one could ever imagine.
He walked you calmly and passed you with the scent that you loved the most in this entire world. It left you hurt and a broken hearted as you saw him walked away from your life.
“Be happy…” He whispered to you as he passed you by and you held your tears from falling freely downward your cheeks as the carbon copy of your already wrecked heart.
He was releasing you completely, like you were nothing at the beginning for him. You were not special to him; even you always thought that he was your most precious pearl and the most precious possession.
And there you stood quietly with the eyes that fuelled of brimming tears; they threatened to fall down your cheeks. You slowly took a breath to prevent them from falling to the ground.
Once…
“It is okay, Junsu…”
Twice…
“Nope… No.. Don’t cry…”
Thrice…
“Oh my God…”
You failed. Tears had already fallen down from your eyes as you snorted to calm down yourself only to make you fall and crouched down to the dirt of the beautiful; autumn park that you loved to go together with the man you loved. Your lips shivered in agony as you felt the wetness in your cheeks that you couldn’t deny even for once.
The fallen leaves surrounded you as they captive you into their fall together, the realization made your heart jumped as you knew the sudden truth. The sadness filled capillarity inside your body as you felt the sadness itself carved permanently in the aching heart of yours.
You didn’t want to cover it.
However, all of these things choked you dearly. He didn’t even care and show any emotion when asked why a break up from this hurtful relationship. Even the catchiest words were nothing in his ears, right?
You were nothing compared to all the girls that came and went in his entire playboy life.
You were none and even didn’t get a single spare glance from him. The imaginative catcall all whispered in your heart and made it ached for more and more.
You and Yoochun were no longer together again…
Everything was over.
***
Junsu cursed loudly as he kicked a rock at the ground, harshly. His face must of been red and swollen because of all the tears that he spilled since that damn; Yoochun. His favorite shirt crumpled in dirt and tears. He felt all eyes in the street were looking at him. However he didn’t bother with all of them.
“Why must I cry for that damn bastard…?” He mumbled, kicking another stone again. He felt innocent even the stone landed at an ahjumma’s head and earned a glare from her.
“He doesn’t deserve a beautiful and cute person like me…” He pouted while the other people around him looked at the cute man like he was crazy.
“Such a pity, a handsome man with crazy brain…”
“Yes, he is so cute, how come he’s being crazy like that…”
Two women were mumbling and whispering about him and he glared at them with all of his might until his eyes were nearly popped out from the sockets.
“And now, people think me; crazy, all because of that stupid Yoochun. Damn him… So damn him…”
‘But you still love him, right?’ His inner voice told him as he hitched at the harsh reality that presented in front of the cute man.
‘But, he didn’t even love me…’ He told the naughty little voice that whispered in his brain.
‘He hasn’t called me even once…’ Junsu sadly narrowed his eyes at the sight of the two pretty girls and made the giggled in excitement, although the truth Junsu didn’t look at them and only deep buried in his thought.
“I am always the one that tell my feeling to him, and he never once told me that he loves me… not even once…” Good, at the moment, he really spoke to himself. He must be crazy right? Thanks to his ex-boyfriend, dearly beloved Yoochunnie… bah.
It was only him that always took a step in their relationship. He was the one who told his feeling to Yoochunnie, ups... Yoochun. He was the one that told him that he loved him.
The former Casanova only smiled and nodded his head when Junsu asked him to go out with him. He was the one who called Yoochun every night in his relationship. He was the one who asked him to go to the date. He was the one that took the initiative to hold the older man’s hand as the other only walked quietly beside him. He was the one who showed all the care and the other had never done it even once for Junsu.
Junsu knew Yoochun was a Casanova and he acted all mushy in the front of his entire former lovers. He even fed them… And with him, Yoochun had never even once acted like he cared to him.
He acted so charming in front of all the women and flirted so damn sweetly and did nothing beside him.
Who weren’t sad if his boyfriend did that to him?
And all of these were signs to Junsu that he was not even better towards all his former lovers. Even he wanted a break up, the other just calmly accepted it and left Junsu’s heart ached for more because of his ex-lover.
“I wish even for once, he was the one that called me, not the other way around…” he sighed deeply as he continued to walk down the street. All of the road and his surrounding were surely became a blur of reality if they were compared toward his Yoochun. The silence in his empty heart surely frazzled what had left in his broken previous already broken relationship.
He decided to release the fount of his happiness because it only brought him another sadness that made a continuously frantic in his life.
All of his insecurities were nothing compared to the hurt he received from the passiveness from the other man. The tank of sorrow had already fraught and he couldn’t do anything but to release it and let it flowed to other place.
The frenetic beside him was suddenly disappearing and made him not hear the sound of people that warned him. All the warning that shouted from the people disappeared completely before they could even go through the barrier from his mind and the real world that shouted clearly at him.
His feet were too freezing to stop his motion to cross the street. All was deep blank when he heard the honk from the car that screeched near him and all he saw in the cold eyes of his were a black car that bumped his body hard.
All was so fast, yet in his eyes it was like a slow motion…
The frequency of the shouting around him was too high as he felt his body flung toward the hard road of crowded city. He gasped when he felt the breeze of wind that surrounded his body when he saw the gasping face of the people.
The fundament of his heart crashed down together with his entire world when he felt the harsh and hard road wounded his skin when his body made a contact with the ground.
It was hurt at first, but it suddenly felt nothing but numb. Numb… Like his heart at the moment… Good, he didn’t feel the hurt again inside his heart and even with his body.
The sounds were suddenly whispered in his head, making him dizzy and became frenzy.
They were a bunch of people with gab, could they just shut up?
[Yoochun, I love you, do you want to go out with me?]
[Chunnie, I love you…]
[Hold my hand, Chunnie…]
[Chunnie, where are you? Why don’t you call me?]
[Chunnie, I made this for you…Do you like it?]
Oh, there was a sound of ambulance. The loud sound made his head get more ache…
Too much insult…
Too much…
[Please call me…]
[Please call me… *Sob* Just this once… *Sob* Chunnie, call me…]
[Let’s break up…]
And suddenly all became pitch black in his eyes. And his head were filled with nothing but sadness and darkness that ate him alive and might be forever in his world of numbness. Too tired, he gave up at the overwhelmed darkness and numb that covered all of his body.
The crimson liquid from his tainted; the black asphalt of the road and painted the road with a paint of sorrow and sadness. The metal scent surely oozed through the air of the beautiful evening. The galaxy mourned together at the sight of the pretty body slumped oddly at the street all drown in crimson beauty. The genuine pretty face made the heart winced even more at the sight of the broken doll that lay at the cold hard asphalt.
The more sadness that made the heart of the angel cried and bled even more when he saw the broken beauty in the cold harsh reality.
The glimmer of the pretty face soon faded with the glimpse of the eyes from the other people who walked at the street. They watched the broken beautiful body and lost the words from their private glossary.
‘Did you love me…?’
“Oh my God…”
“The ambulance is here…”
“Help him, his blood was everywhere…”
“He doesn’t breathe, do the CPR…”
“Please be alive… Please….”
The first scene of the love story had already closed with the sight of mass blood of scattered dreams and loves. And the actor himself didn’t know if he could get up and continued the play of the story…
***
“Yoochun-sshi…”
“Yes, this is Yoochun…”
“Junsu got an accident…”
“What?”
The cell phone fell from his grasped as the eyes of the man were staring deeply into the pretty sky that colored with the red sun. Yoochun stood quietly and didn’t move.
No one knew what he had inside his brain except him, himself.
***
And even gnawed my love for you…
Why didn’t you do something?
Why did you always go-bye at me?
Why?
Why?
***
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