Beyond the Mirror (Chapter 5) End
Forever
Yoochun averted his eyes from the white ceiling into the sleeping face of his wife. They were in the hospital, even Junsu was refusing his suggestion to go to hospital, Yoochun with his thick head insisted him to go to that place. He was worried at Junsu’s mental and physical condition. After the doctor ran some checking and fixed the wound in his body, Junsu fell asleep at the bed, tired because of the whole events of the day. Yoochun caressed his hand at the forehead of the man he loved and swept the bangs from Junsu’s face. Yoochun was feeling so grateful to be arriving in Yunho’s mansion on the right time. He couldn’t imagine what would be happened to his dolphin if he came a little bit too late.
Yoochun tilted his head, stared at his wife’s face with such a content ness. Junsu must be so tired and so scared because of his nearly death experience.
No one could describe his fearful feeling inside his heart when he saw his love, Junsu, was being pinned by Yunho. When he saw Junsu closed his eyes hopelessly, like he was ready to face his own death, his heart was like being stopped. Fortunately to him, Junsu could escape from Yunho’s tight grip. And for now, the nightmare was finally over.
However, Yoochun still couldn’t get it, why Yunho could turn into some mental like that. Yunho was known as a man who was cool and calm, unlike him who was usually exploding in his emotion. Who could think, Jaejoong’s death could drive him into this kind of state.
Yoochun shifted, leaned his body, and planted a kiss to his dolphin’s forehead. The kiss woke Junsu up. The man in the bed frowned, and slowly his eyes fluttered open.
“I’m sorry... Do I wake you up?” He asked the man softly.
“Can you see it? I obviously wake up because of you practically were harassing me when I sleep...”
Yoochun didn’t answer the sarcasm teasing from Junsu. Instead, he hugged Junsu and buried his head in the smaller man’s shoulder. Junsu, surprised at his husband reaction but he decided to enjoy the warmth from the hug.
“I’m so sorry...” Yoochun whispered softly at him.
“What are you sorry for... Chunnie?” Junsu asked his trembling husband softly.
“For shouted at you, made you angry, and mad you turn into a great danger...” The manly man slowly sobbed as he imagined the worse thing that could be happened at his lover.
“I’m sorry too... Chunnie... We are equally guilty...” Junsu sighed, stuck between melting heart and almost giggled in happiness beause of Yoochun's concern at him.
He patted Yoochun’s head, wanted to calm the other man inside the embrace.
Yoochun broke the embrace and stared deeply into his lover’s eyes. He took his hand, and placed them in his lap.
“I just... I can’t understand, why Yunho did such a thing like that...” He told the smaller man. His hands were squeezing the others tightly.
Junsu snapped at the thought of his brother in law, he was forgotten about him.
“Where is hyung, Chunnie?” He asked the man in front him, eyes shimmered in concern and delight.
“Why do you still worry about the person who almost killed you?” Yoochun snorted with a hint of disgust in his voice.
“Because he is my brother-in-law... Chunnie. And he is only Yunho... A person who lost his lover and get the world all crash down on him...” Junsu averred seriously, he really wanted Yoochun to understand the feeling of losing someone that you loved, the feeling of avidity to keep them forever in your heart, and not to lose it again.
“Was there any human who can averse the madness of love, Chunnie?” He eyed the other man, like wanted to prove his authenticity of his words.
“We also can’t... Why do we expect Yunho hyung to can averse it? Who is he against desperateness?”
“But still, he hurt you... That’s why I can’t forgive him...!”
Junsu pulled Yoochun inside his embrace, slowly caressed the hair of the older man.
“I’m here now... Why do you still look at it as a problem, Chunnie...”
Yoochun tightened the hug at his lover, not wanting to lose it again, not wanting to over it soon.
“I love you, Junsu...”
“I love you too... And if you love me... Can you forgive Yunho, the man who my hyung, and your best friend, Jaejoong was in love with...?”
Junsu felt the man he loved nodded slowly, and slowly he pulled away, stared deeply at his eyes.
“Yunho was sent into a mental institution... He was decided to get a hand for his mental illness before he can hurt another people...” Yoochun told the dolphin softly.
Junsu nodded, Looked through and pierced right into Yoochun’s soul...
“I want to visit him, can you accompany me..?” Junsu told him softly.
‘Of course, but only if you have recovered from all the wounds and the bruises in all over your body... They make your already ugly body, get uglier...’ Yoochun told him, as his wicked smile reappeared in his already cunning face. The remark made Junsu squalled and hit him in his hand.
“Aw... Su... Can you just shut up and kiss me....?” He told the man, before pulled him into a sweet lip locking passionate kiss, which Junsu had already longed for since he was awake.
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You stood in a white room, which only had a door and a window.
You refused to give up at the world. You wouldn’t want to believe at the cruel reality of the real world.
If he was only your fantasy, could they just leave you alone in your dream world...?
You knew he was awaiting you in a place far far away from here with his perfect ness that always made you became awestruck.
You couldn’t sleep for all the days you had been in this room because of missing him, bewailed at the lack of his surrounding around you.
A baggy wing in your shoulder was already broken. The azalea in the table was withered because no one cared for them.
You looked at the dieing flower with a lost-hope feeling. They dried like your heart. Flowers died without water, and you would die sooner without him.
The place you sat was a banishment place from the world, because of you had already lost him, slipped between your finger.
Like a broken bandwagon, useless, and ditched, you had been thrown away from the heaven the day he left you.
He was the reason you were breathing...
If he wasn’t there anymore, whatever with life...
You wanted to take an interlude from the thought of his but simply said, you couldn't.
The mirror had already broken, the wings were already fluttered, you saw him soar in the blue sky from your window. He finally broke free from his cage.
You put your body into the mattress, frowned as you saw the white ceilings....
“Jaejoong...” You breathed the name, which was your inspiration. The man you was bonded and tied with.
The show was over...
The angel was already coming back to the heaven...
You closed your eyes, and you saw him...
White, pure, smiling...
Hands awaited openly, welcomed you to run into his embrace. With a bewitchng smile of him, you saw the light of your love was lighetned again.
Black beady eyes looked longingly at you...
Lips curved into smile, which made only for you...
You held your breath as tears were forming in your eyes...
Like a invigorating water to your dieing soul... You started to hope that it wasn't a big joke.
“Joongie...” You whispered your angel’s name, approached him slowly.
“Miss me?” He asked you teasingly, laughed widely at your gaping expression.
You fell into his embrace. He was still the same... The same warmth, you felt when you cuddled him to sleep. The same sweet smell, you smelt every morning. The same small waist, you held when he was making a breakfast in the kitchen.
He was him...
Simply him...
Simple presene, which made you addicted.
A justification to all of your blindness and sorrow.
“Jaejoongie.... It’s you...” You told him breathlessly as you hugged him tightly.
“I have waited for you... Yunnie...’ He told you softly. How much you missed his soft melodic voice...
“Then take me... take me into your place... I don’t want to live in the world without you anymore... I am sick of the emptiness without you...”
He broke the embrace. Locked his hand with yours, slowly he walked, guided you into the white ness, which filled with his presence and his love.
You were complete...
You were perfect...
It would be only you and him...
And for this time...
For this real...
For forever...
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Death is one who awaits for every soul
All of nature's child have feared this word
It will bring thee terror from head to sole
Centuries past, it had been told and heard
If one should conspire a sinful deed
Then death shall punish and take one away
And if nature is evil, death will breed
No matter where, one cannot end this day
It is destiny that all could foresee
Something that no one could hinder nor cheat
As frightful and dreadful as one can be
It is reality that one shall meet
Wherever life begins, there'd be an end
Death is a truth that a man cannot mend.
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We stood in the other funeral. This time was Yunho 's funeral. Chunnie held my hand tightly as I saw the stone of his. The soil was still fresh from the newly buried body.
When we was about to visit him, the staff in the mental institution told us that hyung was already dead. He died in his sleep. Face filled of content ness as he finally found his place with Jae hyung.
And I stuck between sorrow and joy. Must I be sad because of his death... Or, must I be happy that he finally reunited with Jae hyung again...
I sighed; felt the intertwined fingers of ours were tightening. I turned my head into Chunnie. Found my man was tearing.
He turned his head into me, and stared into my eyes. He was searching for comfort after all the grief and the sorrow.
“He will be happy with Jae hyung, right?” He asked softly, eyes searched for my agree ness with his words.
“Yes... Indeed they will be happy...” I told Chunnie, as I saw the cold stone again. I prayed deep inside my heart for both of them I prayed for mercy for them, for the universe to not separated them again.
“Can we go home?” I asked Chunnie, tugged at his black suit.
Yoochun looked at me. He sighed, and then his lips curved into smile as he nodded.
“Let’s go home... Su...”
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“Jaejoongie...”
“Huh? What’s up Yun?”
“I love you...”
“...”
“Yah... answer me...!!!”
“Yes... Yun, I love you too...”
“Forever?”
“Yes... Forever...”
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Yoochun averted his eyes from the white ceiling into the sleeping face of his wife. They were in the hospital, even Junsu was refusing his suggestion to go to hospital, Yoochun with his thick head insisted him to go to that place. He was worried at Junsu’s mental and physical condition. After the doctor ran some checking and fixed the wound in his body, Junsu fell asleep at the bed, tired because of the whole events of the day. Yoochun caressed his hand at the forehead of the man he loved and swept the bangs from Junsu’s face. Yoochun was feeling so grateful to be arriving in Yunho’s mansion on the right time. He couldn’t imagine what would be happened to his dolphin if he came a little bit too late.
Yoochun tilted his head, stared at his wife’s face with such a content ness. Junsu must be so tired and so scared because of his nearly death experience.
No one could describe his fearful feeling inside his heart when he saw his love, Junsu, was being pinned by Yunho. When he saw Junsu closed his eyes hopelessly, like he was ready to face his own death, his heart was like being stopped. Fortunately to him, Junsu could escape from Yunho’s tight grip. And for now, the nightmare was finally over.
However, Yoochun still couldn’t get it, why Yunho could turn into some mental like that. Yunho was known as a man who was cool and calm, unlike him who was usually exploding in his emotion. Who could think, Jaejoong’s death could drive him into this kind of state.
Yoochun shifted, leaned his body, and planted a kiss to his dolphin’s forehead. The kiss woke Junsu up. The man in the bed frowned, and slowly his eyes fluttered open.
“I’m sorry... Do I wake you up?” He asked the man softly.
“Can you see it? I obviously wake up because of you practically were harassing me when I sleep...”
Yoochun didn’t answer the sarcasm teasing from Junsu. Instead, he hugged Junsu and buried his head in the smaller man’s shoulder. Junsu, surprised at his husband reaction but he decided to enjoy the warmth from the hug.
“I’m so sorry...” Yoochun whispered softly at him.
“What are you sorry for... Chunnie?” Junsu asked his trembling husband softly.
“For shouted at you, made you angry, and mad you turn into a great danger...” The manly man slowly sobbed as he imagined the worse thing that could be happened at his lover.
“I’m sorry too... Chunnie... We are equally guilty...” Junsu sighed, stuck between melting heart and almost giggled in happiness beause of Yoochun's concern at him.
He patted Yoochun’s head, wanted to calm the other man inside the embrace.
Yoochun broke the embrace and stared deeply into his lover’s eyes. He took his hand, and placed them in his lap.
“I just... I can’t understand, why Yunho did such a thing like that...” He told the smaller man. His hands were squeezing the others tightly.
Junsu snapped at the thought of his brother in law, he was forgotten about him.
“Where is hyung, Chunnie?” He asked the man in front him, eyes shimmered in concern and delight.
“Why do you still worry about the person who almost killed you?” Yoochun snorted with a hint of disgust in his voice.
“Because he is my brother-in-law... Chunnie. And he is only Yunho... A person who lost his lover and get the world all crash down on him...” Junsu averred seriously, he really wanted Yoochun to understand the feeling of losing someone that you loved, the feeling of avidity to keep them forever in your heart, and not to lose it again.
“Was there any human who can averse the madness of love, Chunnie?” He eyed the other man, like wanted to prove his authenticity of his words.
“We also can’t... Why do we expect Yunho hyung to can averse it? Who is he against desperateness?”
“But still, he hurt you... That’s why I can’t forgive him...!”
Junsu pulled Yoochun inside his embrace, slowly caressed the hair of the older man.
“I’m here now... Why do you still look at it as a problem, Chunnie...”
Yoochun tightened the hug at his lover, not wanting to lose it again, not wanting to over it soon.
“I love you, Junsu...”
“I love you too... And if you love me... Can you forgive Yunho, the man who my hyung, and your best friend, Jaejoong was in love with...?”
Junsu felt the man he loved nodded slowly, and slowly he pulled away, stared deeply at his eyes.
“Yunho was sent into a mental institution... He was decided to get a hand for his mental illness before he can hurt another people...” Yoochun told the dolphin softly.
Junsu nodded, Looked through and pierced right into Yoochun’s soul...
“I want to visit him, can you accompany me..?” Junsu told him softly.
‘Of course, but only if you have recovered from all the wounds and the bruises in all over your body... They make your already ugly body, get uglier...’ Yoochun told him, as his wicked smile reappeared in his already cunning face. The remark made Junsu squalled and hit him in his hand.
“Aw... Su... Can you just shut up and kiss me....?” He told the man, before pulled him into a sweet lip locking passionate kiss, which Junsu had already longed for since he was awake.
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You stood in a white room, which only had a door and a window.
You refused to give up at the world. You wouldn’t want to believe at the cruel reality of the real world.
If he was only your fantasy, could they just leave you alone in your dream world...?
You knew he was awaiting you in a place far far away from here with his perfect ness that always made you became awestruck.
You couldn’t sleep for all the days you had been in this room because of missing him, bewailed at the lack of his surrounding around you.
A baggy wing in your shoulder was already broken. The azalea in the table was withered because no one cared for them.
You looked at the dieing flower with a lost-hope feeling. They dried like your heart. Flowers died without water, and you would die sooner without him.
The place you sat was a banishment place from the world, because of you had already lost him, slipped between your finger.
Like a broken bandwagon, useless, and ditched, you had been thrown away from the heaven the day he left you.
He was the reason you were breathing...
If he wasn’t there anymore, whatever with life...
You wanted to take an interlude from the thought of his but simply said, you couldn't.
The mirror had already broken, the wings were already fluttered, you saw him soar in the blue sky from your window. He finally broke free from his cage.
You put your body into the mattress, frowned as you saw the white ceilings....
“Jaejoong...” You breathed the name, which was your inspiration. The man you was bonded and tied with.
The show was over...
The angel was already coming back to the heaven...
You closed your eyes, and you saw him...
White, pure, smiling...
Hands awaited openly, welcomed you to run into his embrace. With a bewitchng smile of him, you saw the light of your love was lighetned again.
Black beady eyes looked longingly at you...
Lips curved into smile, which made only for you...
You held your breath as tears were forming in your eyes...
Like a invigorating water to your dieing soul... You started to hope that it wasn't a big joke.
“Joongie...” You whispered your angel’s name, approached him slowly.
“Miss me?” He asked you teasingly, laughed widely at your gaping expression.
You fell into his embrace. He was still the same... The same warmth, you felt when you cuddled him to sleep. The same sweet smell, you smelt every morning. The same small waist, you held when he was making a breakfast in the kitchen.
He was him...
Simply him...
Simple presene, which made you addicted.
A justification to all of your blindness and sorrow.
“Jaejoongie.... It’s you...” You told him breathlessly as you hugged him tightly.
“I have waited for you... Yunnie...’ He told you softly. How much you missed his soft melodic voice...
“Then take me... take me into your place... I don’t want to live in the world without you anymore... I am sick of the emptiness without you...”
He broke the embrace. Locked his hand with yours, slowly he walked, guided you into the white ness, which filled with his presence and his love.
You were complete...
You were perfect...
It would be only you and him...
And for this time...
For this real...
For forever...
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Death is one who awaits for every soul
All of nature's child have feared this word
It will bring thee terror from head to sole
Centuries past, it had been told and heard
If one should conspire a sinful deed
Then death shall punish and take one away
And if nature is evil, death will breed
No matter where, one cannot end this day
It is destiny that all could foresee
Something that no one could hinder nor cheat
As frightful and dreadful as one can be
It is reality that one shall meet
Wherever life begins, there'd be an end
Death is a truth that a man cannot mend.
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===================================================================
We stood in the other funeral. This time was Yunho 's funeral. Chunnie held my hand tightly as I saw the stone of his. The soil was still fresh from the newly buried body.
When we was about to visit him, the staff in the mental institution told us that hyung was already dead. He died in his sleep. Face filled of content ness as he finally found his place with Jae hyung.
And I stuck between sorrow and joy. Must I be sad because of his death... Or, must I be happy that he finally reunited with Jae hyung again...
I sighed; felt the intertwined fingers of ours were tightening. I turned my head into Chunnie. Found my man was tearing.
He turned his head into me, and stared into my eyes. He was searching for comfort after all the grief and the sorrow.
“He will be happy with Jae hyung, right?” He asked softly, eyes searched for my agree ness with his words.
“Yes... Indeed they will be happy...” I told Chunnie, as I saw the cold stone again. I prayed deep inside my heart for both of them I prayed for mercy for them, for the universe to not separated them again.
“Can we go home?” I asked Chunnie, tugged at his black suit.
Yoochun looked at me. He sighed, and then his lips curved into smile as he nodded.
“Let’s go home... Su...”
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“Jaejoongie...”
“Huh? What’s up Yun?”
“I love you...”
“...”
“Yah... answer me...!!!”
“Yes... Yun, I love you too...”
“Forever?”
“Yes... Forever...”
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