Call Me, Please (Ch2)
Wandering Soul
Beta by : _supa; on Season-of-mist
All that you stared was a white wide area that covered all of your eyes sight. The after effect from the darkness that previously around you made the whiteness blinded your chocolate iris even more. You felt your pupil dilated to make a synchronization with the amount of sudden light that entered your eyes.
The white area that you stared was a ceiling and you felt your head felt dizzy and too light for your taste. You frowned and tried to remember what had happened before you entered the pitch darkness. You groaned as you remembered the black car that bumped your body harshly and you flung toward the hard asphalt. You remembered all the shouts that pierced your ears when your body slumped at the road.
You gasped and stood in all of the sudden. You eyed yours arms, then down to your feet, then the last, your body. There were no wounds in your body.
“I’m a superman…” You told yourself as you felt your jaw dropped because you had no wounds or even a scratch from the previous accident. You remembered the bump was surely pretty rough.
After checked and admired yourself because of you got no wound, you looked around at the white room. All was white and the smell of antiseptic got through your nostril as you looked around the white room. You concluded that this was one of the rooms in the hospital.
Then, you saw a tall man sat quietly at the sofa in the corner of the room eyed you fiercely and you felt all cold from the top of your head into your toe nail.
Okay, it was your fault that you didn’t pay attention to the world around you. But, it wasn’t your fault fully, right? Why couldn’t he push the brake pedal when he saw you walked and crossed the streets?
Okay... Duh... Okay, it was your fault. No… No… You didn’t pay attention because of you thought about Yoochun, so it was Yoochun’s fault. Yes, Yoochun’s.
Yoochun…
How was he at the moment?
Did he know that you get into an accident?
Would he care about you?
Where were him at the moment? Would he come and visit you?
Oh… Yes, you remembered. You had nothing again toward him. You and he were over.
All of suddenly, you felt the tears slowly broke down from your eyes.
No… Not again… You rubbed them harshly and you took a deep breath. You must learn the facts that Yoochun and you were no longer in relationship. However, you felt that it was only a dream, a nightmare that you wanted to avoid. The events on that day altogether were making it even more like a dream. The alley of your heart felt the emptiness again.
“Hem…” You heard a fake cough that broke the train of your thought. You saw the man that stared at you stood and walked toward you.
“Hello...“ He smiled to you and waved his hand toward you. You found it cute, like Yoochunnie, Yoochunnie was cute and the smile was like sunshine and had you mentioned the cute cheekbones that… Oh snap… Just forgot about it.
“My name is Changmin, but you can call me Minnie, because you are cute…”
Okay, this man surely freaked you a little. However, you leaned your hand to shake the one that extended to you. It was rude to refuse it.
“Junsu…” You told him while you nodded your head.
“Owh… Junsu… Nice to meet you... Judging that your body was right beside you then I guess that you are new in this wandering world and I am more than glad to guide you through all of your confuseness in the future…”
“What?”
Wandering world?
Your body?
Okay, this man was seriously insane.
“Okay, I guess you haven’t realized that you are now a soul…”
“Excuse me… I am the one that get bumped, right? Why do I think that you are the one that his head got bumped?”
He rolled his eyes at your words.
“Okay, Junsu. Listen, my name is Changmin and I am a wandering spirit like you… And because I am one spirit with a kind heart I will gladly help you even I prefer wandering around by myself. So, do you want to be my friend or not?”
“Are you insane?” You exclaimed, made the crazy man in font of you closed his ears because of the loud shriek that you made from your dolphin throat.
“Yah… Why do you sound like a dolphin?”
“I’m not a dolphin and I’m not crazy either, and why must I become a friend with a crazy person like you?”
“Before you tell me that I’m crazy, why don’t you stand up and look at your bed?”
You stood up in annoyance then turned your body toward your bed.
You saw a cute man with a bandaged head. Look so fragile and lot in the entire machine that supported his life. His eyes were closed and blotch of blood could be seen at the white bandage in his head.
Wait, you knew this man.
You knew the cute pointy nose of his and the plump lips of his. You knew the long eyelashes and the auburn hair. You knew them exactly, because the man was you…
“Oh… My… God…”
“Now, I think you understand that…”
“I must be crazy, yes… I must be insane because of me broke up with Chunnie…”
“Wait…”
Then you heard footsteps toward your room. The door opened and revealed a middle age but still pretty woman that was your mother and beside her, there was your twin, Junho.
“Umma, Don’t be sad… Junsu will open his eyes soon…”
“But, doctor told us that he didn’t even know when Su-ie will open his eyes…” Your mother sobbed as she held the hand of the man in the bed tightly. Okay, you could tell that she held your hand if Changmin was true that it was your body that lay unconsciously at the bed.
“Junsu, please open your eyes, son…” She whispered as the tears broke down in her eyes and your twin held her tightly in his arms.
“Umma, I’m okay, I’m here…” You tried to touch your mother but you couldn’t.
“You couldn’t do that… We are only a soul, Junsu…” You heard Changmin whispered to you.
“I see…” You whispered quietly.
“Minnie, right?” You asked him as you eyed your family sadly.
“Yes?”
“I’m not death, am I?” You asked him as you turned your body suddenly to him and shook his taller body harshly.
“No, you aren’t… Stop shaking me, I become dizzy…”
“Oh…” You made an ‘O’ with your mouth as you stopped to shake the taller man in front of you.
“You aren’t death; you just become a wandering soul like me…” He sighed.
“Well, how do we go back to our body?” You asked him as you saw that your twin, Junho, was in tear at the moment. You stuck between laugh and cry when you saw the though older twin of yours got his nose all red and tears wet all of his face.
“Well, if you want to go to your body… The strong will to live can bring you back.”
“How do you know it?”
“Of course I know, I have been wandering around for longer time than you and I saw many of wandering souls came back to their bodies because of the strong will to continue their live…”
You heard Changmin’s words that penetrated deeply into your soul. The sobs of your family became blurring in your ears as you remembered your break up with him.
The almighty universe was surely such a cruel one. You became to doubt the amatory and love that people always believed in the world. You believed too, that was why you confidently asked Yoochun to go out with you, despite his entire playboy world. You believed that your love could catch his heart. However, at the moment you felt that you made a big mistake in believing the theory of love.
They were like a high mountain that was still growing aloft and made you hard to climb it. Yoochun seemed too far away from your reach. The ample of the gap between him and you was surely too big to cross.
Yoochun, the beautiful man that captured your heart tightly in the palm of your hand was surely crashed into pieces. You felt the heart of yours cracked and crumbled slowly.
“Changmin, what if the soul didn’t want to go back to the body?” You asked him as you stared deep into his eyes. You hoped he would understand your sadness. You needed someone that could share all of this pains that rammed your heart harshly.
“They are becoming wandering souls as long as they didn’t want to go back, like me…”
“Why did you don’t want to go back to your body, Minnie?”
He turned his head from you and you caught the glimpse of sadness that covered his eyes.
“I have my own personal reason…” He told you, the sadness obviously covered his voice.
“I don’t want to go back to my body, yet…”
“Good then…” He jumped excitedly as the sadness in his eyes was nowhere to find at the beginning. You were surprise at his sudden change of behavior.
“We can become friend… It was so boring to wandering alone…” He giggled happily and made you think about a little brother that you never had.
“Good, Minnie…” You joined him to jump up and down excitedly.
“Where do you want to go, Junsu?”
You stopped your jumps as your mind ran towards another thought. You bit your lips; you knew that you were selfish. However, you were so curious about this. You couldn’t decide between do it or not, because you were afraid that this leftover hopes of you would crash if you didn’t find it do it for you.
“Minnie…”
“Yes?” You saw the blinking happiness of excitement that tinted the young face in front of you.
“Can you wait with me here? There is something that I want to see…”
He blinked his eyes curiously before nodded his head and smiled sweetly…
“Yes, I will wait with you, Junsu hyung… after all, we are friends, right?”
You smiled as you nodded your head to him and back to eye your sad family.
“I’m sorry Umma; I’m sorry, hyung… I can’t live again, especially after Yoochun had done to me. The hollowness was too big too handled. The hurt was too painful for m too felt it…”
You knew that Yoochun and you were over, but deep inside your heart, you wanted to know if he still cared about you even a little.
Would he show himself to visit you…?
“Yoochun... Please visit me…”
A barely whispers echoed in your heart, as unconsciously you made a new paradigm of hope and crashed dreams. You were hoping a beauty pageant of his figure at this room. Just to show you that he cared for you even for a little bit.
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The beautiful man still wrote down into the paper of his work. All that he could do was drown and got more drown into the busy task and work in his office. The light shone brightly as he felt tears were trickled down toward his flawless cheeks and wetted the paper of his work.
He touched his cheek, felt the wetness in his skin.
He groaned and held back the sob that threatened to break out from his mouth. The moon shone down brightly accompanied the sight of the struggling man and his lost. The radical sadness was radiated from the entire room as the clock was ringing twelve times.
The sorrow was like a rat that ate your heart like a fresh meat and made a hole in your blackened feeling because of the sorrow.
The tears were recognition of the feeling that he couldn’t express in his real life.
The light from the room made refraction in is crystal tears and mad a rainbow from the salt liquid. A small one that no one could ever see it. The flower and the beauty were blossomed from broken ashes that were the heart of the man.
“Junsu…” he whispered softly as he gasped the name of the man that made his heart all cried in agony. The gory feeling could be tasted by his tongue as he took a breath like the air was full with the poison from the addiction with the man that was his former lover.
And for the first time in his life, Yoochun cried for his ex-lover.
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“Junsu hyung…..” Changmin whined as he tugged the other man’s hand, all too harsh and made Junsu winced in pain and glared to him. Well, he had just known that a soul could feel a pain too. Yes, Changmin was calling him Hyung because he insisted the other soul to do that. Even, he protested at first because he was wandering around longer than Junsu, but in the real life Changmin was a year younger than him. In the end Changmin agreed, of course with a pout in his mouth.
“I’m boring… What do you wait here?” Changmin asked him as he paced back and forth like a five years old that his lollipop was taken by Junsu.
“This is the last day we wait here…” Junsu sighed as he raised his eyebrows in annoyance.
“Who is the one that you wait, hyung?” He asked Junsu, as the other stood up from his seat.
“Let’s go wandering around, Minnie…” He exclaimed.
“But, how about the one that you wait, Hyung?”
“It had already five days, Minnie…”
Junsu stared at the blue sky outside the room. The clear sky with no cloud was obviously the opposite with his heart that held a very big disappointment.
“He won’t come for me…” He whispered softly as the gentle breeze of the wind made the leaves outside fell to the ground.
Yoochun wouldn’t come for him. He didn’t have any connection with him. However, his heart still refused to release the e love that he held for the man. A regular ache once again grazed down his chest.
He turned his head to Changmin and presented his sweetest and his best smile, but the tears were wetting his eyes. He couldn’t control it. He couldn’t control himself when it was about Yoochun.
“Hyung…” Changmin used his thumb to wipe away the tars in the older cheek.
“It is okay, Minnie… Let’s go and have fun…”
He felt the younger hugged him tightly inside his arms. However the cold heart of his was still aching even in the warm hug of the other wandering soul. It was aching for Yoochun…
“I’m okay, Minnie…”
“Are you sure, Hyung?”
The older but the smaller man nodded as he smiled and erased his tears from his cheeks and laughed slightly. Changmin smiled at the smiling man in front of him.
“Do you want to see my office, Minnie?”
“Yes… Show me, Hyung…” Changmin got back to his previous jumpy mood... Junsu laughed loudly at the sight of the already grown man jumped up and down like a child.
However, Junsu knew more than Changmin why he suggested the other to go see his office. He told the other to go to his office, because he wanted to see Yoochun. He wanted so badly to see the man. Even, Yoochun couldn’t se him, or cared about him.
His heart was longing for the other man; even he knew that he was selfish that he dragged Changmin to his personal wanted. He wanted to see Yoochun’s reaction after their break up. He hoped that he was showing the same desperateness that Junsu had…
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Beta by : _supa; on Season-of-mist
All that you stared was a white wide area that covered all of your eyes sight. The after effect from the darkness that previously around you made the whiteness blinded your chocolate iris even more. You felt your pupil dilated to make a synchronization with the amount of sudden light that entered your eyes.
The white area that you stared was a ceiling and you felt your head felt dizzy and too light for your taste. You frowned and tried to remember what had happened before you entered the pitch darkness. You groaned as you remembered the black car that bumped your body harshly and you flung toward the hard asphalt. You remembered all the shouts that pierced your ears when your body slumped at the road.
You gasped and stood in all of the sudden. You eyed yours arms, then down to your feet, then the last, your body. There were no wounds in your body.
“I’m a superman…” You told yourself as you felt your jaw dropped because you had no wounds or even a scratch from the previous accident. You remembered the bump was surely pretty rough.
After checked and admired yourself because of you got no wound, you looked around at the white room. All was white and the smell of antiseptic got through your nostril as you looked around the white room. You concluded that this was one of the rooms in the hospital.
Then, you saw a tall man sat quietly at the sofa in the corner of the room eyed you fiercely and you felt all cold from the top of your head into your toe nail.
Okay, it was your fault that you didn’t pay attention to the world around you. But, it wasn’t your fault fully, right? Why couldn’t he push the brake pedal when he saw you walked and crossed the streets?
Okay... Duh... Okay, it was your fault. No… No… You didn’t pay attention because of you thought about Yoochun, so it was Yoochun’s fault. Yes, Yoochun’s.
Yoochun…
How was he at the moment?
Did he know that you get into an accident?
Would he care about you?
Where were him at the moment? Would he come and visit you?
Oh… Yes, you remembered. You had nothing again toward him. You and he were over.
All of suddenly, you felt the tears slowly broke down from your eyes.
No… Not again… You rubbed them harshly and you took a deep breath. You must learn the facts that Yoochun and you were no longer in relationship. However, you felt that it was only a dream, a nightmare that you wanted to avoid. The events on that day altogether were making it even more like a dream. The alley of your heart felt the emptiness again.
“Hem…” You heard a fake cough that broke the train of your thought. You saw the man that stared at you stood and walked toward you.
“Hello...“ He smiled to you and waved his hand toward you. You found it cute, like Yoochunnie, Yoochunnie was cute and the smile was like sunshine and had you mentioned the cute cheekbones that… Oh snap… Just forgot about it.
“My name is Changmin, but you can call me Minnie, because you are cute…”
Okay, this man surely freaked you a little. However, you leaned your hand to shake the one that extended to you. It was rude to refuse it.
“Junsu…” You told him while you nodded your head.
“Owh… Junsu… Nice to meet you... Judging that your body was right beside you then I guess that you are new in this wandering world and I am more than glad to guide you through all of your confuseness in the future…”
“What?”
Wandering world?
Your body?
Okay, this man was seriously insane.
“Okay, I guess you haven’t realized that you are now a soul…”
“Excuse me… I am the one that get bumped, right? Why do I think that you are the one that his head got bumped?”
He rolled his eyes at your words.
“Okay, Junsu. Listen, my name is Changmin and I am a wandering spirit like you… And because I am one spirit with a kind heart I will gladly help you even I prefer wandering around by myself. So, do you want to be my friend or not?”
“Are you insane?” You exclaimed, made the crazy man in font of you closed his ears because of the loud shriek that you made from your dolphin throat.
“Yah… Why do you sound like a dolphin?”
“I’m not a dolphin and I’m not crazy either, and why must I become a friend with a crazy person like you?”
“Before you tell me that I’m crazy, why don’t you stand up and look at your bed?”
You stood up in annoyance then turned your body toward your bed.
You saw a cute man with a bandaged head. Look so fragile and lot in the entire machine that supported his life. His eyes were closed and blotch of blood could be seen at the white bandage in his head.
Wait, you knew this man.
You knew the cute pointy nose of his and the plump lips of his. You knew the long eyelashes and the auburn hair. You knew them exactly, because the man was you…
“Oh… My… God…”
“Now, I think you understand that…”
“I must be crazy, yes… I must be insane because of me broke up with Chunnie…”
“Wait…”
Then you heard footsteps toward your room. The door opened and revealed a middle age but still pretty woman that was your mother and beside her, there was your twin, Junho.
“Umma, Don’t be sad… Junsu will open his eyes soon…”
“But, doctor told us that he didn’t even know when Su-ie will open his eyes…” Your mother sobbed as she held the hand of the man in the bed tightly. Okay, you could tell that she held your hand if Changmin was true that it was your body that lay unconsciously at the bed.
“Junsu, please open your eyes, son…” She whispered as the tears broke down in her eyes and your twin held her tightly in his arms.
“Umma, I’m okay, I’m here…” You tried to touch your mother but you couldn’t.
“You couldn’t do that… We are only a soul, Junsu…” You heard Changmin whispered to you.
“I see…” You whispered quietly.
“Minnie, right?” You asked him as you eyed your family sadly.
“Yes?”
“I’m not death, am I?” You asked him as you turned your body suddenly to him and shook his taller body harshly.
“No, you aren’t… Stop shaking me, I become dizzy…”
“Oh…” You made an ‘O’ with your mouth as you stopped to shake the taller man in front of you.
“You aren’t death; you just become a wandering soul like me…” He sighed.
“Well, how do we go back to our body?” You asked him as you saw that your twin, Junho, was in tear at the moment. You stuck between laugh and cry when you saw the though older twin of yours got his nose all red and tears wet all of his face.
“Well, if you want to go to your body… The strong will to live can bring you back.”
“How do you know it?”
“Of course I know, I have been wandering around for longer time than you and I saw many of wandering souls came back to their bodies because of the strong will to continue their live…”
You heard Changmin’s words that penetrated deeply into your soul. The sobs of your family became blurring in your ears as you remembered your break up with him.
The almighty universe was surely such a cruel one. You became to doubt the amatory and love that people always believed in the world. You believed too, that was why you confidently asked Yoochun to go out with you, despite his entire playboy world. You believed that your love could catch his heart. However, at the moment you felt that you made a big mistake in believing the theory of love.
They were like a high mountain that was still growing aloft and made you hard to climb it. Yoochun seemed too far away from your reach. The ample of the gap between him and you was surely too big to cross.
Yoochun, the beautiful man that captured your heart tightly in the palm of your hand was surely crashed into pieces. You felt the heart of yours cracked and crumbled slowly.
“Changmin, what if the soul didn’t want to go back to the body?” You asked him as you stared deep into his eyes. You hoped he would understand your sadness. You needed someone that could share all of this pains that rammed your heart harshly.
“They are becoming wandering souls as long as they didn’t want to go back, like me…”
“Why did you don’t want to go back to your body, Minnie?”
He turned his head from you and you caught the glimpse of sadness that covered his eyes.
“I have my own personal reason…” He told you, the sadness obviously covered his voice.
“I don’t want to go back to my body, yet…”
“Good then…” He jumped excitedly as the sadness in his eyes was nowhere to find at the beginning. You were surprise at his sudden change of behavior.
“We can become friend… It was so boring to wandering alone…” He giggled happily and made you think about a little brother that you never had.
“Good, Minnie…” You joined him to jump up and down excitedly.
“Where do you want to go, Junsu?”
You stopped your jumps as your mind ran towards another thought. You bit your lips; you knew that you were selfish. However, you were so curious about this. You couldn’t decide between do it or not, because you were afraid that this leftover hopes of you would crash if you didn’t find it do it for you.
“Minnie…”
“Yes?” You saw the blinking happiness of excitement that tinted the young face in front of you.
“Can you wait with me here? There is something that I want to see…”
He blinked his eyes curiously before nodded his head and smiled sweetly…
“Yes, I will wait with you, Junsu hyung… after all, we are friends, right?”
You smiled as you nodded your head to him and back to eye your sad family.
“I’m sorry Umma; I’m sorry, hyung… I can’t live again, especially after Yoochun had done to me. The hollowness was too big too handled. The hurt was too painful for m too felt it…”
You knew that Yoochun and you were over, but deep inside your heart, you wanted to know if he still cared about you even a little.
Would he show himself to visit you…?
“Yoochun... Please visit me…”
A barely whispers echoed in your heart, as unconsciously you made a new paradigm of hope and crashed dreams. You were hoping a beauty pageant of his figure at this room. Just to show you that he cared for you even for a little bit.
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The beautiful man still wrote down into the paper of his work. All that he could do was drown and got more drown into the busy task and work in his office. The light shone brightly as he felt tears were trickled down toward his flawless cheeks and wetted the paper of his work.
He touched his cheek, felt the wetness in his skin.
He groaned and held back the sob that threatened to break out from his mouth. The moon shone down brightly accompanied the sight of the struggling man and his lost. The radical sadness was radiated from the entire room as the clock was ringing twelve times.
The sorrow was like a rat that ate your heart like a fresh meat and made a hole in your blackened feeling because of the sorrow.
The tears were recognition of the feeling that he couldn’t express in his real life.
The light from the room made refraction in is crystal tears and mad a rainbow from the salt liquid. A small one that no one could ever see it. The flower and the beauty were blossomed from broken ashes that were the heart of the man.
“Junsu…” he whispered softly as he gasped the name of the man that made his heart all cried in agony. The gory feeling could be tasted by his tongue as he took a breath like the air was full with the poison from the addiction with the man that was his former lover.
And for the first time in his life, Yoochun cried for his ex-lover.
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“Junsu hyung…..” Changmin whined as he tugged the other man’s hand, all too harsh and made Junsu winced in pain and glared to him. Well, he had just known that a soul could feel a pain too. Yes, Changmin was calling him Hyung because he insisted the other soul to do that. Even, he protested at first because he was wandering around longer than Junsu, but in the real life Changmin was a year younger than him. In the end Changmin agreed, of course with a pout in his mouth.
“I’m boring… What do you wait here?” Changmin asked him as he paced back and forth like a five years old that his lollipop was taken by Junsu.
“This is the last day we wait here…” Junsu sighed as he raised his eyebrows in annoyance.
“Who is the one that you wait, hyung?” He asked Junsu, as the other stood up from his seat.
“Let’s go wandering around, Minnie…” He exclaimed.
“But, how about the one that you wait, Hyung?”
“It had already five days, Minnie…”
Junsu stared at the blue sky outside the room. The clear sky with no cloud was obviously the opposite with his heart that held a very big disappointment.
“He won’t come for me…” He whispered softly as the gentle breeze of the wind made the leaves outside fell to the ground.
Yoochun wouldn’t come for him. He didn’t have any connection with him. However, his heart still refused to release the e love that he held for the man. A regular ache once again grazed down his chest.
He turned his head to Changmin and presented his sweetest and his best smile, but the tears were wetting his eyes. He couldn’t control it. He couldn’t control himself when it was about Yoochun.
“Hyung…” Changmin used his thumb to wipe away the tars in the older cheek.
“It is okay, Minnie… Let’s go and have fun…”
He felt the younger hugged him tightly inside his arms. However the cold heart of his was still aching even in the warm hug of the other wandering soul. It was aching for Yoochun…
“I’m okay, Minnie…”
“Are you sure, Hyung?”
The older but the smaller man nodded as he smiled and erased his tears from his cheeks and laughed slightly. Changmin smiled at the smiling man in front of him.
“Do you want to see my office, Minnie?”
“Yes… Show me, Hyung…” Changmin got back to his previous jumpy mood... Junsu laughed loudly at the sight of the already grown man jumped up and down like a child.
However, Junsu knew more than Changmin why he suggested the other to go see his office. He told the other to go to his office, because he wanted to see Yoochun. He wanted so badly to see the man. Even, Yoochun couldn’t se him, or cared about him.
His heart was longing for the other man; even he knew that he was selfish that he dragged Changmin to his personal wanted. He wanted to see Yoochun’s reaction after their break up. He hoped that he was showing the same desperateness that Junsu had…
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