Call Me, Please (Ch3)
Empty Hope
Beta by : _supa; on Season-of-mist
The sky crapper building made Changmin gaped in awe as the wandering soul began to shout happily and dash towards the building. The all too excited wandering soul dragged the other one which made him nearly tripped in his own feet. The happy blue autumn sky decorated the building and it was stood outstandingly. The breeze of gentle wind flowed toward the two wandering souls as they practically ran to enter the building.
The door itself made a small melancholic feeling into the smaller one as they passed it. Soon they were greeted by the black marble floor and beautiful modern furniture of the interior. People walked busily from one place to another place and they didn’t bother by the two wandering souls which one of them shouted excitedly. They couldn’t see them and if they could Junsu still wondered whether they would ignore them.
“Minnie, quiet... You are embarrassing me…” He told the other soul as he whacked the head of him harshly.
“Awe…. What did you do, Hyung? They won’t hear us…”
Junsu bit his lips hesitantly as you remembered the fact that at the moment you two were wandering souls without any physical body. You lowered your head at embarrassment and eyed the marble floor as the other rolled his eyed to you.
“I’m sorry, I guess I haven’t felt comfortable with this entire situation,” Junsu told the taller man who was still pouting.
“It is okay, just don’t do it again. Even we are souls, we still feel pain, you know…” He told Junsu as he held his head.
“Okay, hyung… Show me your office room…” The taller one exclaimed happily suddenly as he didn’t feel anything at the beginning. His eyes glittered in happiness as he saw the beautiful interior of the building.
“Okay…” Junsu mumbled as he walked toward the elevator. He saw the closing elevator door and then suddenly, his brain had a very annoying question and he couldn’t help but felt curious about it.
“Minnie, can we… go through the wall?”
Changmin nodded as he confidently walked toward the elevator door and made Junsu gasped in surprise.
“Minnie… Min, how could you do that?” He called Changmin as the other disappeared toward the closing door. Was Changmin leaving you alone here in front of the elevator door? He didn’t know what to do if he was wandering alone.
Just when he wanted to move from that place to the emergency ladder, he saw a hand went through the elevator door and pulled him into the elevator.
“You are a slowpoke, hyung. How does it feel to go through the door for the first time?”
Junsu gasped as he eyed the still closing door and he eyed the elevator.
“Did I just do that?”
Changmin nodded and rolled his eyes because of the other was still gasping disbelievingly. Changmin decided to let Junsu in his own surprise world. He tried to press the elevator button and he realized that he couldn’t press it since he was a soul without any physical body. He eyed Junsu with his wide eyes as the other countered his stare with a horror frozen one.
“What will do next Hyung?”
“Umm… How about we use the emergency stair?”
“Damn…”
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“Why is your office so damn high?”
“Shut up, Minnie…” You hissed at the whining one when you two finally reached the floor where he worked.
“Wow... This floor is damn good, Hyung…”
“Of course, I am one of the best employees…” You smirked proudly as you walked toward the lobby and eyed the window when you slowly walked. The floor was silent and quiet as the dash of the autumn sun shone and made the glass of the window glittered and brightened the your eyes.
This was the place you met your ex-lover for the first time. You remembered when you saw your partner for the first time he entered this place. All flirty with wink in his right eyes and he sent a flying kiss to the soon fainted women that he passed by. Yoochun was a huge charmer, a hottie that every woman would die for.
He was exactly the opposite of you. You were more innocent and you stunned at his charm when he just eyed you and passed you by with a smirk in his lips. Your heart fell at that moment.
You thought that your confession for him was nothing but a moment where you were embarrassing yourself.
A regular pain again winced in his heart as again he felt the regret in your heart.
“Hyung… Where is your room…?” Changmin whined to you as he tugged your arm.
“That one at the corner,” You told him and he skipped happily to the room.
You saw the door of the room and saw Changmin went through the door without open it. You followed the man inside the room and you gasped with what you saw at the room. You saw your Yoochun stood at the center of the square white room and beside him stood his new secretary, Yoona.
“So you are here to take some document from Junsu’s desk, Yoochun-sshi?”
“Yes..." He answered and you heard the greasy voice of his that you missed do much. His voice was gravely smooth that could always catch your heart again and again.
“Why do you looking for me, Yoona?” He asked the pretty woman with beautiful wavy chocolate hair as the woman blushed at the confession of his.
“I just want to ask you that... Umm… Maybe you think that I am too blunt for a girl but I want to know, are you single, Yoochun-sshi?”
You saw him hesitantly and shut his lips tightly as you could see the thought in his head.
Changmin nudged at your arms and whispered to you, he asked you who the man at your room was. You wanted to tell him that Yoochun was your lover; however your body seemed to freeze in anticipation as you waited for his answer with the breath still kept in your lungs.
‘Please… Say you aren’t… Please…’
The answer that you heard was surely breaking your heart even more, this time you felt that you could hear the sound of the glass of your heart shattered on the floor.
You saw he grinned flirtatiously and he told the woman with his sweetest tone.
“I’m not in relationship with someone... Why did you ask it, Yoona?”
“You are single, then…” You saw the girl blushed brightly. “I want to tell you that I like you, Yoochun-sshi and you know, even I am your secretary but I hope that…”
You gasped in horror as you heard the words from Yoona’s pretty mouth. You eyed the woman; you knew too well that she was definitely caught Yoochun’s eyes.
Yoochun bit his lips and for a moment you wanted to cheer. That was before you heard another words from the mouth that you loved to peck when you two were in a relationship.
“I know, Yoona… Do you want to go out with me?” He asked the woman as his eyes bored to the woman’s and made her blushed at the stare of the chocolate brown orbs that you loved so dearly.
“What?” That was Yoona’s.
“What?” This one was spilled from your lips at the same time.
“Do you want to go out with me? This night, we can go clubbing together at ‘Sinner’ if you want…”
You looked that Yoona was obviously glowing as she nodded her pretty head. The happy glimmer made the already beautiful face got prettier.
You felt empty and numb before you felt Changmin’s held for your hand and dragged you quietly from the office. You didn’t even bother with where Changmin would bring you. The feeling of the broken heart was too strong and made you too numb for everything that around you. All you saw was the back of Changmin that walked faster to bring you out from the building.
Then suddenly he turned and faced you, eyes demanded for an explanation.
“Who is he, Hyung?”
“No one…” You lied, and you guessed that you were not a good liar because you saw Changmin’s eyebrow twitched into frown.
“He is the one that make you don’t want to go back to your body, isn’t he, hyung?”
“How do you so sure that it is him?”
“I can see it in your eyes, Hyung? Do you think that I don’t pay attention to your face when he asked the woman to go out? You were looking like nothing but a kicked puppy…”
You looked at the wide eyes of your friend and sighed.
“Okay… Yes, he is the reason why I don’t want to go back to my body… He is my ex.”
Yes, Yoochun were nothing to you but your ex and you were nothing to him but another former lover. You thought who you were, when you hoped that at least he said that he was in relationship with you. You two were over. The flower of love and happiness had already withered and died, and there you stood and heard him, then hoped that he would reject the woman. It was so not Yoochun if he did that.
You mustn’t wish that he wouldn’t find another replacement to you. You knew it was so easy for him to get any kind of person that he liked.
You just couldn’t get it over, yet.
“You look so sad, Hyung. Don’t use that face…”
You looked to Changmin and forced the smile again to him.
“It is okay, Minnie. I am the one who can’t get over it…”
“Do you want me to lend an ear, Hyung? I hope it can make you feel better…”
You sighed, this entire situation obviously used all of sighs in one years.
“I am the one who want to break up with him.”
“Why did you do that, Hyung? I thought you still love him.”
“Yes, I still. However, he hasn’t loved me since the beginning. I always the one that told him that I loved him, he hadn’t ever told me. I was the one who asked him to go out… And, Minnie…” You stared at his wide innocent eyes and you sighed before continued your story.
“I was the one who called him. He hadn’t ever called me… He won’t call me, even for once.”
Okay, it came back again. Your eyes began to sting as the tears had already created and pooled in your eyes. You spent too many crystal liquid from your eyes for him only.
“I gave him the last chance, before I ended this hurtful relationship… To call me…” You sobbed because of the sadness that you couldn’t hold inside your heart.
“Just to call me, only to call me that night for the sign that he did care for me. I waited all night long in tears and broken heart and the phone didn’t ever ring…”
You remembered the night you hoped the phone at your apartment to ring and you could hear his voice. You remembered at all the insecurities that you had endured when you stared blankly at the pale moonlight that went through from the window and sneaked into your room. And you remembered the fact that he didn’t call you that night and you knew what had you promised to yourself. All the strings of love were broken because he cut them with the insecurities that he planted into the deep valley of your heart.
And still, at the moment… Even you let him go; he was still hurting your heart.
“So I broke up with him and…”
“And you got into an accident… He was the one that you waited at the hospital…” It was more like a statement than a question.
You nodded, “Look Minnie… He even didn’t visit me. At least he would visit me…”
Changmin pulled you into one bear hug as you clutched so dearly at the clothes of the wandering soul. Eyes full of tears, heart full of ashes and you felt nothing but a want to disappear completely from the world.
“Hyung… Don’t cry. You will soon forget him…”
However you knew that you couldn’t.
“Minnie…”
“Let’s go to ‘Sinner’ this night…”
“What…” He pulled away from his bear hug and looked at you disbelievingly.
“Hyung, stop hurting yourself, you must get over it, not go wherever he goes…”
“Min, please... I just want to know, if he still cared for me. I just wanted to see…”
“Hyung, you will only get hurt again…”
“No, I promise… I won’t, Minnie.”
You knew you sounded nothing but ridiculous, plainly funny until you wanted to laugh at your own thought. However, a hope that he would ever care for you even for a little was tickling you more than the fact that your heart could get break again even for the worst.
You wanted to know if there was even a slightest chance that you could get back with him. You waited for even a slightest sign that he cared and loved you for the beginning.
“Okay… if you want, Hyung. We have no where to go, since we are wandering souls. So we must wander around, right?” He sighed before he agreed with you and you gave a smile to thank him. Changmin was surely a good friend.
“Thank you, Minnie…”
“No problem at all, Hyung…” He smiled back at you even his smile didn’t reach his eyes. However, Yoochun had already blinded you and you couldn’t see the fake happiness and the still worried eyes from him. All that you saw was Yoochun and the empty hope of yours.
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Yoochun stood quietly at his former lover room. Yoona had just gone from the room after he asked the pretty woman to go out with him. The sadness came back again and crept into his previous flirtatious eyes. He stared at the empty desk of the man that used to be his boyfriend. All the emotions were running and flooding the brain of his as he remembered the smile from the dolphin boy that he got when he entered the room to ask him for some document. A sweet peck would accompany the files.
He saw their photo in a frame at the desk; he couldn’t help but felt so lonely. Deep down inside his heart a black and deep hollow of sadness began to consume the heart of the Casanova little by little.
He had already tried to shrug the sadness. However, he couldn’t. He touched the desk and imagined the cute man happily sat there and told about everything and he just stilled and lent his ears.
Everything was over now, There was nowhere on earth he could feel it again. The disguise of the broken heart was too perfect until no one could see it, because he knew that if the world knew it, then all he got would be a guffaw for his loneliness. The haughtiness still won every corner of your heart and it made you lost what you most treasured.
The fraught happiness was in hole and it spilled out and made the bowl of his heart began to empty. The genuine sadness crept into his heart, where it was only him that felt it…
The whole world was blind and only he could feel it…
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Listen to my sorrow, feel my broken heart.
It was beating for you, baby…
If you weren’t there anymore with me,
Then, how could my heart beat again?
If the reason was gone
An the purpose was disappeared
How could it support me to live again?
I need you…
Just you…
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Beta by : _supa; on Season-of-mist
The sky crapper building made Changmin gaped in awe as the wandering soul began to shout happily and dash towards the building. The all too excited wandering soul dragged the other one which made him nearly tripped in his own feet. The happy blue autumn sky decorated the building and it was stood outstandingly. The breeze of gentle wind flowed toward the two wandering souls as they practically ran to enter the building.
The door itself made a small melancholic feeling into the smaller one as they passed it. Soon they were greeted by the black marble floor and beautiful modern furniture of the interior. People walked busily from one place to another place and they didn’t bother by the two wandering souls which one of them shouted excitedly. They couldn’t see them and if they could Junsu still wondered whether they would ignore them.
“Minnie, quiet... You are embarrassing me…” He told the other soul as he whacked the head of him harshly.
“Awe…. What did you do, Hyung? They won’t hear us…”
Junsu bit his lips hesitantly as you remembered the fact that at the moment you two were wandering souls without any physical body. You lowered your head at embarrassment and eyed the marble floor as the other rolled his eyed to you.
“I’m sorry, I guess I haven’t felt comfortable with this entire situation,” Junsu told the taller man who was still pouting.
“It is okay, just don’t do it again. Even we are souls, we still feel pain, you know…” He told Junsu as he held his head.
“Okay, hyung… Show me your office room…” The taller one exclaimed happily suddenly as he didn’t feel anything at the beginning. His eyes glittered in happiness as he saw the beautiful interior of the building.
“Okay…” Junsu mumbled as he walked toward the elevator. He saw the closing elevator door and then suddenly, his brain had a very annoying question and he couldn’t help but felt curious about it.
“Minnie, can we… go through the wall?”
Changmin nodded as he confidently walked toward the elevator door and made Junsu gasped in surprise.
“Minnie… Min, how could you do that?” He called Changmin as the other disappeared toward the closing door. Was Changmin leaving you alone here in front of the elevator door? He didn’t know what to do if he was wandering alone.
Just when he wanted to move from that place to the emergency ladder, he saw a hand went through the elevator door and pulled him into the elevator.
“You are a slowpoke, hyung. How does it feel to go through the door for the first time?”
Junsu gasped as he eyed the still closing door and he eyed the elevator.
“Did I just do that?”
Changmin nodded and rolled his eyes because of the other was still gasping disbelievingly. Changmin decided to let Junsu in his own surprise world. He tried to press the elevator button and he realized that he couldn’t press it since he was a soul without any physical body. He eyed Junsu with his wide eyes as the other countered his stare with a horror frozen one.
“What will do next Hyung?”
“Umm… How about we use the emergency stair?”
“Damn…”
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“Why is your office so damn high?”
“Shut up, Minnie…” You hissed at the whining one when you two finally reached the floor where he worked.
“Wow... This floor is damn good, Hyung…”
“Of course, I am one of the best employees…” You smirked proudly as you walked toward the lobby and eyed the window when you slowly walked. The floor was silent and quiet as the dash of the autumn sun shone and made the glass of the window glittered and brightened the your eyes.
This was the place you met your ex-lover for the first time. You remembered when you saw your partner for the first time he entered this place. All flirty with wink in his right eyes and he sent a flying kiss to the soon fainted women that he passed by. Yoochun was a huge charmer, a hottie that every woman would die for.
He was exactly the opposite of you. You were more innocent and you stunned at his charm when he just eyed you and passed you by with a smirk in his lips. Your heart fell at that moment.
You thought that your confession for him was nothing but a moment where you were embarrassing yourself.
A regular pain again winced in his heart as again he felt the regret in your heart.
“Hyung… Where is your room…?” Changmin whined to you as he tugged your arm.
“That one at the corner,” You told him and he skipped happily to the room.
You saw the door of the room and saw Changmin went through the door without open it. You followed the man inside the room and you gasped with what you saw at the room. You saw your Yoochun stood at the center of the square white room and beside him stood his new secretary, Yoona.
“So you are here to take some document from Junsu’s desk, Yoochun-sshi?”
“Yes..." He answered and you heard the greasy voice of his that you missed do much. His voice was gravely smooth that could always catch your heart again and again.
“Why do you looking for me, Yoona?” He asked the pretty woman with beautiful wavy chocolate hair as the woman blushed at the confession of his.
“I just want to ask you that... Umm… Maybe you think that I am too blunt for a girl but I want to know, are you single, Yoochun-sshi?”
You saw him hesitantly and shut his lips tightly as you could see the thought in his head.
Changmin nudged at your arms and whispered to you, he asked you who the man at your room was. You wanted to tell him that Yoochun was your lover; however your body seemed to freeze in anticipation as you waited for his answer with the breath still kept in your lungs.
‘Please… Say you aren’t… Please…’
The answer that you heard was surely breaking your heart even more, this time you felt that you could hear the sound of the glass of your heart shattered on the floor.
You saw he grinned flirtatiously and he told the woman with his sweetest tone.
“I’m not in relationship with someone... Why did you ask it, Yoona?”
“You are single, then…” You saw the girl blushed brightly. “I want to tell you that I like you, Yoochun-sshi and you know, even I am your secretary but I hope that…”
You gasped in horror as you heard the words from Yoona’s pretty mouth. You eyed the woman; you knew too well that she was definitely caught Yoochun’s eyes.
Yoochun bit his lips and for a moment you wanted to cheer. That was before you heard another words from the mouth that you loved to peck when you two were in a relationship.
“I know, Yoona… Do you want to go out with me?” He asked the woman as his eyes bored to the woman’s and made her blushed at the stare of the chocolate brown orbs that you loved so dearly.
“What?” That was Yoona’s.
“What?” This one was spilled from your lips at the same time.
“Do you want to go out with me? This night, we can go clubbing together at ‘Sinner’ if you want…”
You looked that Yoona was obviously glowing as she nodded her pretty head. The happy glimmer made the already beautiful face got prettier.
You felt empty and numb before you felt Changmin’s held for your hand and dragged you quietly from the office. You didn’t even bother with where Changmin would bring you. The feeling of the broken heart was too strong and made you too numb for everything that around you. All you saw was the back of Changmin that walked faster to bring you out from the building.
Then suddenly he turned and faced you, eyes demanded for an explanation.
“Who is he, Hyung?”
“No one…” You lied, and you guessed that you were not a good liar because you saw Changmin’s eyebrow twitched into frown.
“He is the one that make you don’t want to go back to your body, isn’t he, hyung?”
“How do you so sure that it is him?”
“I can see it in your eyes, Hyung? Do you think that I don’t pay attention to your face when he asked the woman to go out? You were looking like nothing but a kicked puppy…”
You looked at the wide eyes of your friend and sighed.
“Okay… Yes, he is the reason why I don’t want to go back to my body… He is my ex.”
Yes, Yoochun were nothing to you but your ex and you were nothing to him but another former lover. You thought who you were, when you hoped that at least he said that he was in relationship with you. You two were over. The flower of love and happiness had already withered and died, and there you stood and heard him, then hoped that he would reject the woman. It was so not Yoochun if he did that.
You mustn’t wish that he wouldn’t find another replacement to you. You knew it was so easy for him to get any kind of person that he liked.
You just couldn’t get it over, yet.
“You look so sad, Hyung. Don’t use that face…”
You looked to Changmin and forced the smile again to him.
“It is okay, Minnie. I am the one who can’t get over it…”
“Do you want me to lend an ear, Hyung? I hope it can make you feel better…”
You sighed, this entire situation obviously used all of sighs in one years.
“I am the one who want to break up with him.”
“Why did you do that, Hyung? I thought you still love him.”
“Yes, I still. However, he hasn’t loved me since the beginning. I always the one that told him that I loved him, he hadn’t ever told me. I was the one who asked him to go out… And, Minnie…” You stared at his wide innocent eyes and you sighed before continued your story.
“I was the one who called him. He hadn’t ever called me… He won’t call me, even for once.”
Okay, it came back again. Your eyes began to sting as the tears had already created and pooled in your eyes. You spent too many crystal liquid from your eyes for him only.
“I gave him the last chance, before I ended this hurtful relationship… To call me…” You sobbed because of the sadness that you couldn’t hold inside your heart.
“Just to call me, only to call me that night for the sign that he did care for me. I waited all night long in tears and broken heart and the phone didn’t ever ring…”
You remembered the night you hoped the phone at your apartment to ring and you could hear his voice. You remembered at all the insecurities that you had endured when you stared blankly at the pale moonlight that went through from the window and sneaked into your room. And you remembered the fact that he didn’t call you that night and you knew what had you promised to yourself. All the strings of love were broken because he cut them with the insecurities that he planted into the deep valley of your heart.
And still, at the moment… Even you let him go; he was still hurting your heart.
“So I broke up with him and…”
“And you got into an accident… He was the one that you waited at the hospital…” It was more like a statement than a question.
You nodded, “Look Minnie… He even didn’t visit me. At least he would visit me…”
Changmin pulled you into one bear hug as you clutched so dearly at the clothes of the wandering soul. Eyes full of tears, heart full of ashes and you felt nothing but a want to disappear completely from the world.
“Hyung… Don’t cry. You will soon forget him…”
However you knew that you couldn’t.
“Minnie…”
“Let’s go to ‘Sinner’ this night…”
“What…” He pulled away from his bear hug and looked at you disbelievingly.
“Hyung, stop hurting yourself, you must get over it, not go wherever he goes…”
“Min, please... I just want to know, if he still cared for me. I just wanted to see…”
“Hyung, you will only get hurt again…”
“No, I promise… I won’t, Minnie.”
You knew you sounded nothing but ridiculous, plainly funny until you wanted to laugh at your own thought. However, a hope that he would ever care for you even for a little was tickling you more than the fact that your heart could get break again even for the worst.
You wanted to know if there was even a slightest chance that you could get back with him. You waited for even a slightest sign that he cared and loved you for the beginning.
“Okay… if you want, Hyung. We have no where to go, since we are wandering souls. So we must wander around, right?” He sighed before he agreed with you and you gave a smile to thank him. Changmin was surely a good friend.
“Thank you, Minnie…”
“No problem at all, Hyung…” He smiled back at you even his smile didn’t reach his eyes. However, Yoochun had already blinded you and you couldn’t see the fake happiness and the still worried eyes from him. All that you saw was Yoochun and the empty hope of yours.
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Yoochun stood quietly at his former lover room. Yoona had just gone from the room after he asked the pretty woman to go out with him. The sadness came back again and crept into his previous flirtatious eyes. He stared at the empty desk of the man that used to be his boyfriend. All the emotions were running and flooding the brain of his as he remembered the smile from the dolphin boy that he got when he entered the room to ask him for some document. A sweet peck would accompany the files.
He saw their photo in a frame at the desk; he couldn’t help but felt so lonely. Deep down inside his heart a black and deep hollow of sadness began to consume the heart of the Casanova little by little.
He had already tried to shrug the sadness. However, he couldn’t. He touched the desk and imagined the cute man happily sat there and told about everything and he just stilled and lent his ears.
Everything was over now, There was nowhere on earth he could feel it again. The disguise of the broken heart was too perfect until no one could see it, because he knew that if the world knew it, then all he got would be a guffaw for his loneliness. The haughtiness still won every corner of your heart and it made you lost what you most treasured.
The fraught happiness was in hole and it spilled out and made the bowl of his heart began to empty. The genuine sadness crept into his heart, where it was only him that felt it…
The whole world was blind and only he could feel it…
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
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Listen to my sorrow, feel my broken heart.
It was beating for you, baby…
If you weren’t there anymore with me,
Then, how could my heart beat again?
If the reason was gone
An the purpose was disappeared
How could it support me to live again?
I need you…
Just you…
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