water water everywhere
and not a drop to drink.

the way
the leaves
were falling
they sounded
like footsteps
and my heels
cracked
like porcelain.

i'm dizzy
this week sucks.
i refuse to do anymore work.
tonight's tv lineup is the only thing
that made me happy.

so the interview was today ( Read more... )

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the problem is ( Read more... )

it's one in the morning ( Read more... )

i hung up on the
young daughter of the brown alumnus
that is interviewing me...

i'm off to a great start.

i wish
that just for
one night
my friends
could
stay sober
and
come
see
me
when it mattered
most.

and now i am here
playing j.holiday illegally on the teacher's computer
smelling of cheap hairspray and continually
tasting red lipstick
running lines over and over again through my mind
thinking about the next cue
the next burst of applause
and i have decided there is no where i rather be
because this is what i love.

c