I am everything that My parents were when they conceived me; all of their flaws were reflected through me. I could not defend myself as a child because my mother did not defend herself from my father's drunken anger. I go along with anything that my parents and others want me to because my decisions were taken from me when I was circumcised. I ( Read more... )

Very time I get Craniosacral work done I have to analyze my body and find out where the tension is being kept, where is the trauma, where is the blocked, muddy, weighed down space? As I've worked I've noticed that I can not feel most of my insides, meaning my guts. Our organs hold onto out emotional traumas; we are vessels after all, vessels that ( Read more... )

I'm having to finally deal with my family and all that has gone on over the years. My parents took away most of my power to decide for myself when I was very young and I've never realized that until now. I was told what to wear, what to do, I was never encouraged to be an individual. I was always annoying them with the things I did; getting ( Read more... )

I have made a decision to be on my own for a while, which means Anthony and I have separated, broken up, however you want to put it. There was nothing done on anyones part to make me decide this. It's many different things. I'm changing. My understanding of myself and my awareness of the world around me is changing ( Read more... )

I've traveled to New Orleans with Anthony. This is one crazy city and we've had a very good time so far. Today is the last day and Anthony is out shopping ( Read more... )

I can say this with absolute certainty because the Reverend David Dechant has followed my thought processes and come up with a better conclusion than I could have.  I agree with his assesment.  I am simply gaining awareness of concepts outside of the typical realm of societal thinking.  I'm gonna explain all of this as I'm realizing it.  There's a ( Read more... )

In February of 2011 I attended my second craniosacral class which was held in Seattle, WA.  I stayed with my now fully realized friend(I had not met the man before this) bukephalus .  ANd I apologize now for not making mention of the lovely details of the trip which I don't fully recall because of the mushy state my brain attained whilst taking said class.

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She referred a friend to me.  Her friend came over and I worked on her. A couple of days later she calls up and says she heard her friend came by to see me and she just wanted to see how we were doing.  Bullshit ( Read more... )

The new  patio roof is on and I didn't feel an inch of pain doing it.  The Screen walls are a little bit taxing on the back, but I'm feeling fine!  ANd tomorrow I will finish uyp the last of what I want to get done on the patio and then I will start enjoying it.  SUnning myself naked on my patio is going to be a great thing ( Read more... )

So, my best friend Ann, whom I've known for about 10 years now and has been such a great friend to me has now gotten pissy because I'm becoming friends with her ex boyfriend of 8 months.  Russell came over to help me put my new deck in on Saturday and I was so very grateful.  I post on FaceBook about it.  Anne send me a text that says, "So are you ( Read more... )