*kicks the door* OWWW!!!!! I stubbed my toe *sniffles*
ENJOY!!!!!
I deleted Diablo from my computer yesterday. I know that sounds like nothing to ya'll, but I was spending way too much time being so wrapped up in that damn game. This sounds really pathetic on my part, but I'll put it this way... after I deleted it I couldn't do nothing but think about how I was gonna get this armor and that weapon when I went back on and then remembered that I deleted it a few hours ago. That nite I drempt about it all nite. and it wasn't like I was in the world it's self. I was dreaming about sitting infront of the computer playing... yea, I think I was addicted *cough*loser*cough*... just a little bit? I guess this is a no for everquest and other games like that now. I just couldn't pull myself out of that world once I got into it.. well not til I couldn't open my eyes no more. Yea that does sound pathetic on my part. I should kick myself in the ass or something!
I did finally get to clean my computer out. After going through my music and getting rid of 2 games, I do have around half my memory back now. So i guess that's a good thing *shrugs* .... ROOM FOR MORE MUSIC!!!!!!! YAY!!!! 20 Gigs to fill >:)
Life still sucks but I'm taking babysteps onto fixing it. I started to slowly find more job leads to get out of MTM. OH!!! did I post this??? *looks* Nope I didn't... K a few days ago this kid that used to work there shows up with a lead for me. His name is Joey. Him and I were talking outside when my boss shows up and kinda glares at him. (they don't get along because Joey up and quit, Nate doesn't really like him either for the same reason) Joey says hi and oppologised for quiting. Joey had to start a job at Roberts' Dairy the next day or he woulda lost it. Well Joey and my boss were talking while I finished trash. I came in from trash detail and the first thing out of Mouth (AKA Nate) was: 'So I hear your going to quit and goto roberts with Joey' I laughed at him. He said that's what boss said then I got mad at me boss. I told him to seriously think about that. Everyone knows (and I'll let ya'll know if ya don't) that A) I HATE manual labor jobs! I will not take a full-time job that requires alot of heavy lifting, carring, storing, and standing in one spot. Partly cause I'm a lazy ass and mostly cause most of those jobs you only deal with co-workers and not the general public. I'm a people person through and through. If I cannot talk to people and deal with people then I am misurable. B) yes I consider myself nocturnal, which means I sleep during the day and work and play at nite. His job requires that he works from like 3 or 4 to about noon'ish. I'm to stubborn to adjust my habits to accompany that. C) (and most importantly) I AM A PEOPLE PERSON!!!!!! There is no way in Hell that I would give up a public job to work in a damn cooler all effing day! Yea a Part-time job maybe, I have worked as a truck unloader twice and stocker and such on a part-time basis. But I will not do it full time.
But I did apply at EMS... Ashley that used to work at the store with me now works there. *crosses fingers*
I'll be re-doing my layout again sometime soon.... just to give ya'll heads up. Bro we still gotta work on yours to don't we?
I cant wait til the holidays are over. I almost can't take all the fake people no more. (yes that's a conflict between I wanting a public job and disliking holidays) I mean don't get me wrong. I am OK with the christmas season and stuff... I juat hate how everyone is like 'nice' only at christmas time. It is annoying. Like there is this guy that HATES me. I know he does. (I dunno why but him and I got into this verbal debate/insult fest one day at work... I can call him Imputent, Senile, a bastard as well as a few other things. But the second I called him grumpy I musta crossed a line or something. He'll purposely wait for my co-worker to finish, go to his or her line to be helped then walk out. Or if I gotta help him, he won't even look at me.) Anyway we been like that since early spring. I have no problem with that but X-Mas comes around and magically he speaks to me? WHY? I know him and how grumpy he is, right after New Years we'll get into it again and he'll not talk to me again.. I just know it. he's not the type to go too long without starting some kinda chaos.
I went on a downloading spree on Limewire and found something by Evenescence... it's called Exodus. It almost made me cry. It hit home soo hard right now *teary eyed*
My black backpack's stuffed with broken dreams
20 bucks should get me through the week
Never said a word of discontentment
Fought it a thousand times but now
I'm leaving home
[CHORUS:]
Here in the shadows
I'm safe
I'm free
I've nowhere else to go but
I cannot stay where I don't belong
Two months pass by and it's getting cold
I know I'm not lost
I am just alone
But I won't cry
I won't give up
I can't go back now
Waking up is knowing who you really are
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
Show me the shadow where true meaning lies
So much more dismay in empty eyes
My brother is also an ass. I'm really starting to get tired of being alone so I slowly start to build myself up to ask this ... well 2 people out. Kristen works at Bag and Save and there is this lady that comes into my job every once and a while. I been wanting to ask for a while but I'm so damn shy around people I don't know. Anywho 'coquicidently' my brother tex's me: 'Hey a have a friend named Gabby that is looking for someone fun and mature to hang out with. You should call her!' I'm on my way to do laundry so I tex back: 'Later. I'm busy'. I went to do laundry and to see my mom at work *cough*andtoseeifKristenwasworking*cough* and I guess my brotehr went to talk to her as well. She told him I'm next door and he comes by to see if I called her yet. I say no and he tells me that she works at 5 so I better call soon. So I call her as i leave the laundry mat... turns out the damn number is for the rejection hotline (407-338-0036)... yea that helps alot. Needless to say I haven't asked either one out yet.
LATERZ!