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been sick the last couple of days =\
probably gonna go back to school tomorrow though so i can go out tomorrow night. probably goin to a party with danny if plans dont change.
i hate this. i hate what we were, what we did. i hate what i saw in you, i hate not knowing if u even saw anything in me at all. i hate the way you treated me, & the way you treat the people around you. i hate how i treated u like gold.. u were precious to me. i hate the way you're so fucked up in the head! we're all a little fucked up, but not like you. i hate how you're the only person who could tear my hopes & dreams apart. i hate that i love you.. love u with everything i have. i hate how no matter how much i say i hate you, i still break down and cry for you to come back. i hate you seeing me like this. i hate that u know how i feel... & that u dont care. i hate that u and i will never be like we were. i hate how everything u ever told me was a lie, & that i believed every word. i hate your twinkling eyes.. why do they get me every time? i hate picturing you with some other girl. i hate that i couldnt change your mind.. mostly though, i hate that its really over. & that no matter what i do.. its gonna stay that way..