So In all of this i have lost someone very close to me I fear. I don't know what to do. Isn't really anything I can do. I do miss you ( Read more... )

So Jeni and I are officially not girlfriends anymore, yet we seem to have agreeed upon going about our daily lives doing most girlfriendly things together, still cuddle and kiss and to things for each other....but we're not together. It's very strange and hard to wrap your brain around. I don't know. So here we are.

So there is this point we have come to I suppose. We have I believe, come to the realization, that we are not going to be together forever. Perhaps we are not meant for one another. We still love each other. We will always be friends. Not one moment spent with Jeni has been a moment wasted or regretted. I don't know where we are now really. It ( Read more... )

So last night the person I care about most in this world tells me she isn't sure wheather she is still in love with me or not.......

I am at a breaking point.

Everything is so strange lately. I don't quite know how to/if I can fix them, Everything is off-balance...in a huge, silent, inward uproar. I need to find my center again. I need to reclaim the confidence I used to have. I am so low on myself these days...I don't know why I feel so.....wrong. My self esteem is in the toilet...slowly climbing its ( Read more... )

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by limitedbythesky

opacity_down's LJ New Year Party (Now At Least 28% Politically Correct!)

Started : 31st December 2005 07:57:20 PM

Ended : 01st January 2006 07:50:16 AM
Alco Money! : $ 142

Guests of Honour
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I wish she could be happy...I don't see her smile much lately. The holidays are not a happy time for her. She is so uncertain about everything. I just want to make our own memories and make it a happy time for her. I want to be a big huge bandage for her. But she will never let me in completely.