I should not have let my feelings out in the open. Nothing good comes out of letting your feelings free. I just want someone to shoot me right now.

She still loves me apparently, and I had a talk with her one I needed to have with her. I now know a little more of what is going on in her head. She told me not to type in here any more where every one who wanted to could read what was going on between me and her. But I have not really gotten to talk with her in a while, and if this is the only ( Read more... )

She still loves me.

This may be the last time I write I don't think I need it any more.

It is now almost 8:00am and I still have yet to sleep. I watched music videos till nsync came on, then I changed it to cartoons Bugs Bunny to be precise. I wonder what I should do, I have been wondering that most of the night. It seems to me I am making a big deal out of stuff that is not actually that big. That's what Love will do to a guy. It ( Read more... )

I can't sleep, and it has been that way since it happened. So anyway I just decided to get up and listen to Pink Floyd while I type on the computer ( Read more... )

Well I'm still here hanging by a thread. I was tricked today in a round about way they got me to eat food. Not enough to give me what I need, but enough probably to keep me alive for a little longer. Just so I can live with more pain, and suffering I guess I kind of brought this upon myself. I hope she takes care of her self once I am gone, and I ( Read more... )

I have not ate anything for the last two days, and I will not eat again today or the next day. I am more hungry than I have ever been before I hope I die soon. I have also been helping my self die. I have been letting my blood slowly drip from my body. I can't stop shaking, but for some reason I still have energy. I have been drinking liquids so my ( Read more... )

Hey, I have noticed that you have been ending every one of you entires with AND THE FOREST WILL ECHO WITH LAUGHTER. A line from Stairway to Heaven. I actually have that song memorized look and see ( Read more... )

Maby I should cry, but I can not let myself do that. God know I want to more than I ever have before, but I can't it simply hurts to much I want to curl up, fold over, and die. Maby I should die I see nothing left for me here. From what I can tell once love is lost along with it goes the will to live. Yet I try not to obsess, but what I don't ( Read more... )

I thought if I were to sleep the pain would subside. It did not I want to die, I want some one to kill me, if nobody does I will do it myself sooner or later. Probably sooner than later.