wait for logic

[openground]

i want to be someone else
im tired of being afraid to take risks, afraid to speak up, afraid to be rejected
afraid afraid afraid

i want to be someone more brave.

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[openground]

thanks for understanding

[_monroe_]

oh how i relate.
i sometimes hate myself for giving up so easily, for taking the easy route because it requires less courage.

it's all about 'what about bob'
it's all about the baby steps;
i know that sounds silly & i'm laughing to myself for even saying it, but if you take risks, one at a time, you'll be ever so pleased with the results. x

[openground]

very true

now..to do the baby steps..
*stands still* :|

the first move is always the hardest

[shrug_shoulder]

me too..

[openground]

a hug

[chrisodeo]

I remember when I was afraid. In some ways, I still am. But enough about me. It's not always easy taking risks, speaking up, becoming accepted ny others. With risks there are always those you wish you hadn't taken. With speaking up there is always something you wish you had not said. With being accepted you don't know everyone you're associated with. Someone you've never known (and probably don't care much to talk to) may come up and act as if you've known them your entire life. Or you'll hit a string of bad karma and unintentionally offend those you're close to. Perhaps you'll take the wrong risk and end up too far from yourself to recover. Sometimes, it's best to stay afraid.

[openground]

thats your advice? stay afraid?
thats the worst advice ever

at least people that take risks and come up empty handed can say theyve tried

in this state, ill always wonder what might have been if i wouldve just
taken this chance or that chance.

people that go for it dont have to wonder.

[openground]

dont talk like youre so much more experienced than me when it comes to life matters

and besides,
you and chris have your own journals to lick each others' assholes in

i dont need or want that shit in mine. and it has nothing to do with how much you mean to me

[openground]

dawn,
meh ok.
why would you post in my journal and then delete it?
if you want to talk about this, i have aim. but id rather not display this for the whole world to see on lj.
i just think its totally ironic that you call me a heartless bitch. cos ive stayed in lots of bad relationships just to avoid causing problems or hurting someone.

i will admit though, that what i said was harsh.
so maybe this is an example of when i shouldnt have spoken my mind? but its not that deep