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[openwaters]

I got up this morning and thought of you.  I put a pen in my pocket that had a particularly good squishy grip.  I had found it yesterday at work and thinking of you placed it in my pocket.  When I pulled it out on my deliveries and handed it to people to sign the slip I gave it a little squish and enjoyed a privet smile thinking of you.

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[wanderlust85]

A package would be nice. I know that my reaction at the club may have been painful, but I had to do what I had to do. Your energy is like a vortex for me and if I let myself get pulled in, I feel all my emotions and self-control break down. It's bad enough that I can't be a part of the local Madison TNG group because the atmosphere is too intimate if you are there, but I really really wanted to go to the club, and did the best thing I knew how to do for me, that is, simply blocking you out there. I knew Ali would probably talk to you and I accepted that. But when it comes to you, I still need distance. I had to take you off "Facebook" because every time I saw a profile update it upset me. Not to snub you. But if every time I think about you I want to cry, then I can't imagine what would happen if I interacted with you in person. I've been moving on, but that involves focusing exclusively on the present and future. And I'm sorry, but you represent a painful past to me