i feel decent right now. from my observations, i realized today how many idiots we have in our school. most of them are my friends but dear christ, it gets old when you cant discuss something like abortion or religion without their ass getting upset. i skipped lunch today and went in the forums instead. what a good diet! itll be awesome when i ( Read more... )

i don't know who or what to hate. i'm sick of feeling happy and then fucking miserble. i'm trying to hold in my tears. i should suck it up. i probably won't go to sleep until 3-4 again tonight. i'm getting raccoon eyes. every fucking night i'm getting pushed farther and farther. i have no one close to talk to here. i feel so lonely. i cant talk to ( Read more... )

i can hardly breathe. im tearing up so much...ive been begging my mom to give me back my keyboard, comical somewhat, so i can talk to my friends. by the time she gave me it they all got offline. i havent felt this shitty in a long time...i felt really good today...thea and i went to mankato and shopped around...and when i came home, my mom ...she ( Read more... )

yeah, today went pretty good. i didnt want school to end. i was really calm yet my heart was beating fast. i wasnt so easily irritated. i found out im passing some classes too. i need to get my grades up though, jeez. im not even pissed off at my mom, yesterday however...i probably would have done something to her if she would have kept talking. so ( Read more... )

i seriously should get a fucking knife and jab her throat and the rest of her mom. i hate her so fucking much, i seriously wish she would die at times. it's evil to say but i hate her. i want to get a fucking gun and shoot her 39432575882 times. go to hell you useless whore.

so okay last night i talked this guy named rob, one of matts friend on the phone for a few hours...anywho i was trying to get him to come to the game because it was our school against them. the girls lost by twenty to their team and the guys killed their guys by 20 points. haha, strange. i contributed to bad sportsmanship by yelling profane things ( Read more... )

new years eve this year wasnt too shabby. after thea got off work we went to hang out with matt at this one party. it took us forever to find the house so we just called and had the guy wave at us when he saw us. i never knew windom had a lot of "scene" errr "punk" kids. i dont know how to describe them. i shouldnt really label them. whatever, it ( Read more... )

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i feel drained. i felt really fucking hyper before. i havent slept yet. i dont plan to sleep. its weird. sup, so we fucking slaughtered comfrey hicks last night for the game. yeah, bastards. im so dumb, i took an adderall pill along with my depakote pills so i could be a bit hyper at 7pm. well, it didnt kick in until later and yeah...my heart was ( Read more... )

this will probably sound lame or ill probably contradict myself but whatever. i got it from elizabeths update ( Read more... )