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Both Franca and Meme in the same week. I don't understand. I'm glad that they've returned to their families...both of them. Meme especially was so young. Neither of them deserved to be trapped here.
But still I... I feel sick. Sick. This is the price you pay when you let yourself become attached. When you care too much. No matter how much I know I need to be happy for them, I can't stop feeling angry. Angry at myself, at this place...! Will they even remember me? So many times people leave and return without their memories. Will all our time together become void, as if it never happened?
When I sit and think about the only people I care for who are still here, who haven't left and forgotten... I can think of Cirucci, Faye, and Nill. Cirucci is dead much like me, but... I'm certain Miss Valentine and Nill are alive, despite previous events. Why are they still here?
Edward will leave again once more, I know this. It's just how the pattern is. And if I can help it, it will be sooner rather than later.
This is the price for staying. I wonder what the price for leaving is.
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To the friends of Franca and Meme...they're both gone. Be sure to wish them the best.
As for the outbreaks of disease...I'm sorry to those affected. I really hope this is just another one of those curses that is lasting longer than normal. I wouldn't put it past the City to play it's ridiculous pranks on us in this way. Like that last entry of mine...was that a curse, too?
Both Franca and Meme in the same week. I don't understand. I'm glad that they've returned to their families...both of them. Meme especially was so young. Neither of them deserved to be trapped here.
But still I... I feel sick. Sick. This is the price you pay when you let yourself become attached. When you care too much. No matter how much I know I need to be happy for them, I can't stop feeling angry. Angry at myself, at this place...! Will they even remember me? So many times people leave and return without their memories. Will all our time together become void, as if it never happened?
When I sit and think about the only people I care for who are still here, who haven't left and forgotten... I can think of Cirucci, Faye, and Nill. Cirucci is dead much like me, but... I'm certain Miss Valentine and Nill are alive, despite previous events. Why are they still here?
Edward will leave again once more, I know this. It's just how the pattern is. And if I can help it, it will be sooner rather than later.
This is the price for staying. I wonder what the price for leaving is.
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To the friends of Franca and Meme...they're both gone. Be sure to wish them the best.
As for the outbreaks of disease...I'm sorry to those affected. I really hope this is just another one of those curses that is lasting longer than normal. I wouldn't put it past the City to play it's ridiculous pranks on us in this way. Like that last entry of mine...was that a curse, too?