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At last...
Dare I say it?? Or if, by speaking it aloud, will I break the spell and the curse will return in full force times ten? I am in love ( Read more... ) -
limbo
Waiting for what, I don't know, but the silence of the morning is deafening. Trying to come up out of the ooze......this hole that sucks me further and further in.......made some new friends, laugh a lot, which helps, but what if they turn on me too? I feel like the only prey in a forest of hungry predators ( Read more... ) -
rebirth??
I have been in this place for a month now.......I want to go home, but that yawning chasm of emptiness scares the hell out of me. This is also the time of year that brings with it the most ghosts, and I am not in a hurry to be alone when they come ( Read more... ) -
It's been a long time....
...since I have journaled, and I think that is perhaps part of my problem. I write here because everything I write in the other one keeps posting to facebook, and I haven't yet figured out how to make it stop ( Read more... ) -
Dying
Rivulets of red that run-
tears and blood
have become one.
The chasm yawns
and opens wider-
my terror dies;
my screams grow quieter.
There is no use
in fighting now-
the script is writ,
my fate somehow
has come to this,
and only this....
an empty grave,
no one to miss
me when I'm done.
Not gone, just finished.
An end to pain...
that's all I -
Dear God....
I wish you would just kill me. What is the point to existing if everyday breaks your heart? Pieces so shattered; no longer able to put back together, tears and holes in the hollowness where my soul used to live. Rain has purpose; sunshine has a reason; even a mosquito has a place in the world. Where is mine? Where do I fit in to the vast empty ( Read more... )
