when i cry i cant catch my breath. when i think of you, when i see things like that my heart drops and it shocks my body into numbness. then all of a sudden it comes on, and i come apart.

Heart Meditation ( Read more... )

i feel sick.

i miss my mom

nothing is what it seems. fuck this. i woke up angry at the fucking world.

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I mean, I waste a lot of time and energy missing someone else ( Read more... )

gross...im retarded. umm yea. just im sorry brandon for being all depressed tonight. usually when i drink im really fun and stuff, but i guess the moral of the story is not to drink when your already really depressed

so my trip to wisconsin was too short i think. the first day that i came, my grandpa passed away. but i got to say goodbye and told him i loved him and all. i hope he heard me, i dont know if i talked loud enough though. he always was hard of hearing. i think he tried to talk a couple times , he would move his tounge and eyebrows and murmur a ( Read more... )

last night was so much fun! we went to the house for "alumni night" and it turned out we found out who our big sis was! of course i knew it was Kelly the whole time, but im still really really really excited about it! I LOVE YOU BIG SIS ( Read more... )

well all i can say is tonight has been pretty emotional for me. im just praying that my grandpa makes it until saturday. i want to tell him i love him and bye. im going to call him tomorrow but im really scared to. i hope he doesnt suffer too much. i miss my mom and i just hope i have enough strength myself to take care of her ( Read more... )