I don't even know what that means. And I don't know why it popped into my head. Oh well. Yeah, life is looking up. I've decided that I'm too good for Chris anyways. Why spend all my time mourning and crying over some guy who didn't even have the decency to talk to me about what was bothering him before he just lied and broke it off completely? He ( Read more... )

hey man. school. haha. yeah it's not too bad. i think it'll occupy my mind. hopefully. i'm doing better with the chris thing. but i'm still unhappy. i've never been an unhappy person. maybe i'm just over reacting. actually, i know i am. but right now, i really am not happy. i will be someday..soon i'm sure. i bounce back well. just not so easily ( Read more... )

I went to Harrisburg on Wednesday to see chris with Sarah. I thought it would be amazing. Boy was I wrong. We had to hang out with everyone of his friends, which is fine, but I didn't get any any any Chris/Amber time at all. I mean we got to talk in the woods for like fifteen minutes. In which time I was put in a bad/upset mood and I apparently ( Read more... )

CLEARLY I SUCK AT LIFE. Oh boy. Chris dumped me. He's calling tonight to talk. B/C you know he dumped me with two other people in his car. Maybe now he can explain why the heck I spent some much time/money/energy/emotions on him and why I put some many friendships on the line.

<3amb//this may be the last thing that I write for long

yay! I talked to Sarah and she said she can go to Harrisburg on Wednesday. All I have to do is talk to dad and get permissino to go out there for the day, just the day.
OH YAY. i hope so

<3amb

So yeah. Chris is dropping out of school and saving money to move out on his own and stuff. I dunno. It's hard to be there 100% for him, but I will be. I can't change his mind and I can't force him to do anything, especially from such a distance..so I'm just going to do what I can to support his decisions. I don't think it's very wise. But he's ( Read more... )

Oh boy. I'm really bummed out. I had a good day in all. It's actually not even 5pm yet. But I hung out with Kt and Kema and then we decided we wanted to make a day trip to the beach so we picked a date and now we just have to talk to our parents and all. We're gonna invite the boys and it'll be fun. But I was thinking about Chris ( Read more... )

Kema's on her way over and we're going on the Great American Job Hunt. Haha. So fun. We better find something. And then we're going to the movies w/Zac & Kevin which should be interesting. Kevin got mad at me b/c I didn't say hi to him at warped tour. Hhaha

<3amb//i just died in your arms tonight!

When's it gonna be friday? I'm sick of work. Next week is my last week :) BUT REALLY NOT, b/c I'm going job hunting today..I need a new job asap man! Oh well. I really hope I find one though. Something decent. Not too painful to go everyday. Haha. kema's coming with, b/c her job sucks too. Haha ( Read more... )

Bleh. Saying goodbye really sucks. This weekend was ahsome. Chris got here around 4, and then we just hung out. We went and god his eyebrow peirced friday night. Then we hung out at the house. Saturday we went to Shady maple w/Kema and her parents. That was fun. But people really do have a staring problem. People were looking at him like he was ( Read more... )