[038] Staying
Title: Staying
Pairing: Eeteuk/Kibum
Prompt: 038. "I want you to stay forever."
Summary: Kibum makes a decision.
Disclaimer: Don't own them...but I'd be happy to take twelve of them...someone can keep Kibum *gets bricked by ELFs*
He could feel the eyes of every single person in the silent room boring into his head as he looked down. He didn’t care about any of them, except for the 12 people he knew were hurting the most.
“Wh-what?!” Eunhyuk finally croaked. Kibum cringed. The cameras flashed and the reporters leapt from their seats, shouting above one another, questions after questions, the roar too much for Kibum to handle. Somewhere in the back of his mind, Kibum dully pictured tomorrow’s headlines: “Kim Kibum finally announces departure from pop idol group Super Junior”. Their managers, perhaps sensing the members’ confusion turning quickly into other emotions, or the reporters getting out of control, quickly ushered all thirteen of them back into a meeting room.
There, all hell broke loose. Kangin and Heechul pounded the table and screamed profanities while Hankyung struggled to calm both of them down. Donghae, Eunhyuk and Ryeowook burst into tears, begging him to change his mind, promising him anything and everything under to sun, like it was their fault that Kibum was leaving. Siwon’s face was frozen in shock, his eyebrows so high up on his face it looked like someone had stuck them in the wrong position. Yesung, Sungmin, Shindong and Kyuhyun said nothing, but Kibum knew that if he dared to look up, he would see them looking at him with a mixture of sadness and anger evident in their eyes. He couldn’t bring himself to look at his band mates- no, ex-band mates, to look at the pain so deeply etched into each of their faces. The pain caused by his decision.
After Kangin and Heechul had shouted themselves hoarse and severed all ties with Kibum, they stormed from the room, dragging the other members with them. Kibum heard his three hyungs’ cries get softer and softer until he could hear it no longer. Until all he heard was the pounding of his own heart and the insistent ticking of the clock mounted on the wall.
When he finally brought his head back up, he was shocked to see that Eeteuk had remained behind, surveying him from across the room. Kibum didn’t know what to say to the hyung who’d been his leader and his family for so long, the hyung who comforted him when he missed his mother in the US, or when the stress of acting buckled him down.
“Why?” Eeteuk spoke for the first time since the announcement.
Kibum focused on the clock above Eeteuk’s head, watching the second hand as it made a round around the clock face once, twice…
In a voice barely above a whisper, Kibum said, “I don’t feel like I belong in Super Junior anymore”.
Eeteuk’s eyes widened and welled up with tears. Kibum could see that his words had broken his ex-leader’s heart and felt his own heart cracking slightly at the poor man crumbling before him.
When had he stopped feeling like a part of Super Junior? Did he ever feel like a Super Junior member, all those times when they yelled, “Hello, we’re Super Juni-OR”?
Somehow, over the years, Super Junior had become a 12-membered group, leaving Kibum in the sidelines, watching their performances or appearances several days late (if he remembered to tape them). Subgroups were formed one after another, but his name never appeared on the member list- not for K.R.Y, SJ-T, SJ-H or SJ-M. He knew K.R.Y was out of the question, what with his singing ability, or lack thereof, and that he could never master the Chinese language to be in SJ-M. He wondered what it would be like to be a part of SJ-T or SJ-H, but after watching the MV for Rukkugo and Pyjama Party, cringed and breathed a sigh of relieve that he wasn’t a member of either group after all.
He had thrown himself into one acting job after another, convincing himself that it was him who was too busy to participate in the recording activities of the 3rd album, and not that they hadn’t given him any lines to sing. Absences in performances were noticed and discussed by fans and antis alike, until it became a given that Kim Kibum wouldn’t be present due to his “acting lessons”.
Eeteuk strode forward, closing the space between him and Kibum. He threw his arms around his dongsaeng’s shoulders and held him tightly, as if Eeteuk could change Kibum’s mind if he just held tightly enough. Kibum could feel Eeteuk’s ribcage against his own, and wondered when Eeteuk had lost so much weight. He tried to remember the last time he hugged his hyung, but came up empty. When was the last time he had a meal with his hyung, or even with any of the other members? He couldn’t remember.
“I want you to stay forever. With Super Junior. With us… with m-mee.” Eeteuk’s voice broke and Kibum felt his shirt dampening with the older man’s tears. Kibum said nothing, did nothing, as he felt his hyung tighten his arms around his shoulders. He swore to himself that he wouldn’t break, that he wouldn’t look back, that he wouldn’t regret, but at that moment, something in his heart snapped. He pushed Eeteuk away and turned from him just before the first tear rolled down his face.
I wish I could stay forever too…
[I started writing this before SuJu announced the Super Show II plans, so initially, Kibum was supposed to be the 'bad'' person here...after they announced the concert, and that Kibum would be there, I re-wrote some of it to what you've just read. NOW, it has been announced that Kibum wouldn't be participating in the concert afterall, and I had half a mind to re-write the whole thing, just because I'm rather pissed right now. If you haven't heard the news, go to Omona They Didn''t- read the comments as well, all 270+ of them....I'm thinking like they're thinking: STOP SCREWING WITH US! ...Sorry...just had to get that off my chest...who knows? I might even post up another version of this prompt.]
Pairing: Eeteuk/Kibum
Prompt: 038. "I want you to stay forever."
Summary: Kibum makes a decision.
Disclaimer: Don't own them...but I'd be happy to take twelve of them...someone can keep Kibum *gets bricked by ELFs*
He could feel the eyes of every single person in the silent room boring into his head as he looked down. He didn’t care about any of them, except for the 12 people he knew were hurting the most.
“Wh-what?!” Eunhyuk finally croaked. Kibum cringed. The cameras flashed and the reporters leapt from their seats, shouting above one another, questions after questions, the roar too much for Kibum to handle. Somewhere in the back of his mind, Kibum dully pictured tomorrow’s headlines: “Kim Kibum finally announces departure from pop idol group Super Junior”. Their managers, perhaps sensing the members’ confusion turning quickly into other emotions, or the reporters getting out of control, quickly ushered all thirteen of them back into a meeting room.
There, all hell broke loose. Kangin and Heechul pounded the table and screamed profanities while Hankyung struggled to calm both of them down. Donghae, Eunhyuk and Ryeowook burst into tears, begging him to change his mind, promising him anything and everything under to sun, like it was their fault that Kibum was leaving. Siwon’s face was frozen in shock, his eyebrows so high up on his face it looked like someone had stuck them in the wrong position. Yesung, Sungmin, Shindong and Kyuhyun said nothing, but Kibum knew that if he dared to look up, he would see them looking at him with a mixture of sadness and anger evident in their eyes. He couldn’t bring himself to look at his band mates- no, ex-band mates, to look at the pain so deeply etched into each of their faces. The pain caused by his decision.
After Kangin and Heechul had shouted themselves hoarse and severed all ties with Kibum, they stormed from the room, dragging the other members with them. Kibum heard his three hyungs’ cries get softer and softer until he could hear it no longer. Until all he heard was the pounding of his own heart and the insistent ticking of the clock mounted on the wall.
When he finally brought his head back up, he was shocked to see that Eeteuk had remained behind, surveying him from across the room. Kibum didn’t know what to say to the hyung who’d been his leader and his family for so long, the hyung who comforted him when he missed his mother in the US, or when the stress of acting buckled him down.
“Why?” Eeteuk spoke for the first time since the announcement.
Kibum focused on the clock above Eeteuk’s head, watching the second hand as it made a round around the clock face once, twice…
In a voice barely above a whisper, Kibum said, “I don’t feel like I belong in Super Junior anymore”.
Eeteuk’s eyes widened and welled up with tears. Kibum could see that his words had broken his ex-leader’s heart and felt his own heart cracking slightly at the poor man crumbling before him.
When had he stopped feeling like a part of Super Junior? Did he ever feel like a Super Junior member, all those times when they yelled, “Hello, we’re Super Juni-OR”?
Somehow, over the years, Super Junior had become a 12-membered group, leaving Kibum in the sidelines, watching their performances or appearances several days late (if he remembered to tape them). Subgroups were formed one after another, but his name never appeared on the member list- not for K.R.Y, SJ-T, SJ-H or SJ-M. He knew K.R.Y was out of the question, what with his singing ability, or lack thereof, and that he could never master the Chinese language to be in SJ-M. He wondered what it would be like to be a part of SJ-T or SJ-H, but after watching the MV for Rukkugo and Pyjama Party, cringed and breathed a sigh of relieve that he wasn’t a member of either group after all.
He had thrown himself into one acting job after another, convincing himself that it was him who was too busy to participate in the recording activities of the 3rd album, and not that they hadn’t given him any lines to sing. Absences in performances were noticed and discussed by fans and antis alike, until it became a given that Kim Kibum wouldn’t be present due to his “acting lessons”.
Eeteuk strode forward, closing the space between him and Kibum. He threw his arms around his dongsaeng’s shoulders and held him tightly, as if Eeteuk could change Kibum’s mind if he just held tightly enough. Kibum could feel Eeteuk’s ribcage against his own, and wondered when Eeteuk had lost so much weight. He tried to remember the last time he hugged his hyung, but came up empty. When was the last time he had a meal with his hyung, or even with any of the other members? He couldn’t remember.
“I want you to stay forever. With Super Junior. With us… with m-mee.” Eeteuk’s voice broke and Kibum felt his shirt dampening with the older man’s tears. Kibum said nothing, did nothing, as he felt his hyung tighten his arms around his shoulders. He swore to himself that he wouldn’t break, that he wouldn’t look back, that he wouldn’t regret, but at that moment, something in his heart snapped. He pushed Eeteuk away and turned from him just before the first tear rolled down his face.
I wish I could stay forever too…
[I started writing this before SuJu announced the Super Show II plans, so initially, Kibum was supposed to be the 'bad'' person here...after they announced the concert, and that Kibum would be there, I re-wrote some of it to what you've just read. NOW, it has been announced that Kibum wouldn't be participating in the concert afterall, and I had half a mind to re-write the whole thing, just because I'm rather pissed right now. If you haven't heard the news, go to Omona They Didn''t- read the comments as well, all 270+ of them....I'm thinking like they're thinking: STOP SCREWING WITH US! ...Sorry...just had to get that off my chest...who knows? I might even post up another version of this prompt.]