so 4am is probably the worst time to have a mental break down, but hey. I can't choose when this happens ( Read more... )

So fucking conflicted.

So I am SUPER stoked to go to Searchmont on Friday. It's a snowboarding hill in Canada. At least at 20 I can drink there. Not so much excited for the ride. 6 to 7 hours with nothing but a radio, and in the middle of nowhere Canada, that means jesus country crap songs. FUN. Normally I'd probably sleep the whole way but I'll be driving with Abbie ( Read more... )

So much for snowboarding today. Slept through my class. Well, I woke up like 45 minutes before it, looked outside, realized it was still raining ice, and went back to bed, even though class wasn't canceled ( Read more... )

I had the weirdest dream last night. I wish I could remember all of it. I remember fighting for something I believed in. I remember getting the shit kicked out of me. I remember being covered in bruises and bleeding. It was odd, but I can see how I dreamt it ( Read more... )

Meaningless

Love is what everyone lives for,
Love is what people die for.
It's what helps us breathe
and what takes our breath away.
It is complete happiness
and also everything that makes us suffer.
Without it, we live
and without it,
we die.
The question is
Do I live for you?
Or die for you?

Sooo I went snowboarding today for my class for the first time. I ended up being like a half hour late due to a series of unfortunate events, but somehow managed to find them at the bottom of some chair lift. So there's 3 groups: beginners, intermediate, and advanced. I thought for sure I would be in advanced because of how long I've been boarding ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I am losing myself.

Last night I dreamt I was battling sharks underwater. A cute boy I saw on myspace earlier that day was in it too. I don't remember what he was doing, I just remember thinking, "boy from myspace!"
Odd.

Fight Club is on.

I'M SURROUNDED BY STUPID STUPID PEOPLE.