( it is sad that this is how much i love pit, and also sad is that i did these at 3 in the morning last night )

what a good picture, even though it was so long ago. me and meg were almost twins. pretty neat, of course
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things keep killing me without even trying. it is as if all of the happiness or saddness or feeling of anyone can only penetrate me like a sponge. a sponge i can't wring out. it is so sickening to me; i feel like a robot that only can move or think with the input of another and it it gross. and i am sick of feeling like a member of a troupe of ( Read more... )

i just wanted you to know, that today i am probably the unhappiest i have ever been. i just wanted you to know that, as much as i want it to me, i can't really make it into being your fault. i just wanted you to know. i just wanted you to know that i am done daydreaming; i just wanted you to know that today i am moving into living in real life. i ( Read more... )

i am doing the best speech project in the world ever!..........an informative speech on PIT!!!!! i am so happy it is not even funny. also, yesterday this kid was running down the hallway and he was talking really loud to his friend. and then he started dancing around and screaming "BLA BLA BLA (unintelligible words) I LOVE WHEAT! I LOVE WHEAT!" and ( Read more... )

( all i ever want to do in the world is.........something that matters??? )

why do i always dobt what is real even if i know the answer. rhetorical questions suck so much. and i get really jealous of everything and pretty much i hate myself for it ( Read more... )

(to a person:)

why do you have to be so much more perfect all the time than me. you are more beautiful. you are more friendly. you are better at having conversations and you you are better at not being afraid to say what you mean. you are so much better than me at winning people over. you are so much more appealing to hang out with. you are so much ( Read more... )

am i really supposed to believe you? i want to believe. i want to so much that its not even funny. i want to believe you and i want to just be happy and then my brain starts to run and run and make me want to run-just to run and run and run and run away. run away from you and me and the world and just crawl into a cave and just live and die. when i ( Read more... )

3 hours, 52 minutes, and 9 seconds. yeesh. it didn't even seem long.

( p.s.- )