It's been several days. It feels like several days. Christmas is...well, two days from now, since it's still technically Tuesday. It kind of snuck up on me, more than usual. Maybe it's because I was preoccupied with everything else...yeah, that must've been it. Scary stuff, overall. Let's see what's happened ( Read more... )

My house lost power on Thursday night at 10:00. Haven't gotten it back yet. Friday night, we spent the night at the Courtyard Marriott near Horseshoe Pond in Concord. Problem was, my father didn't have his snore-prevention machine, so he was snoring so loud that the entire floor was probably awake...and I got about 30 minutes of sleep. Saturday ( Read more... )

I find it incredibly intriguing how easy it is for me to slide from one end of the scale to the other, from darkness to light. There was a long time where I knew only darkness, and then there was a shorter time when I wanted nothing to do with it ever again, and now I've come to realize that it's always going to be a part of who I am and the trick ( Read more... )

Today's the seventh of the month. I didn't sleep last night, because I couldn't get myself too, and I'm pretty tired at the moment. But that's kind of a good thing...I have to focus all my energy on the task at hand, and don't have much time for idle wonderings. Maybe today will be better ( Read more... )

I've never felt so detached...so alone, so miserably ambiguous. I don't know what color I am, I don't know what to do. I can't sleep, though I'm exhausted...I can't cry, though I feel like I should and I'm sure it would probably help. I can't turn to anyone to hug and hold and kiss, because I have no one. The only person that would let me do so ( Read more... )

It's been a few days since my last entry, as as always it seems, a lot has happened ( Read more... )

This is my third day with a sinus-throaty kind of messup...my throat and third eye chakras, along with everything in between, are severely out of balance because of the uncertainty of the immediate future. I'm not sure where I'll go or where I'll end up, and the bad ol' familiar feelings of solitude are seeping back in through the cracks. It's ( Read more... )

I met with a naturopathic doctor yesterday and had a nice long chat about the opportunities in alternative medicine that don't require a college degree but can be lived off of. We also discussed indigo people (of whom I am one) and the difficulties they all face fitting in any cookie cutter mold that the current world order lays out for them ( Read more... )

Not really though ( Read more... )

A day full of good food, good company and good memories ( Read more... )