ugh..

[organizdkaos19]

ugh.. i'm so irritated. why try really? why? there's no point to it.. none whatsoever. damned of i do, damned if i don't. i feel like crap because i'm not doing what i should be doing to get somewhere with people but when i do.. it doesn't work my way in the end anyway. fucking fuck.. aaaaaaaahh. why is this so frustrating, i just want everything

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[encumbrado_bebe]

Another entry which brings about the assfuck feeling. Nothing's really changed feeling wise, I'm just trying to remain sane, not sure what all that'll take but I'm seriously scared to start anything right now... and I'm just a lazy bum about making plans to hang out and such, sorry for that... it all goes with the marijuana, it affects the memory which screws with my mental daily planner... I know tonight I'm going to hang out with my friend Kenny because he's going off to college Saturday, and Saturday night I'm most likely gonna make sure my last night of summer is well spent, you should def attend that if you can though. Should be lots of funnnnnnnnn...

[organizdkaos19]

that sounds good.. we'll see what happens on saturday. i still think a good way to keep your sanity is to have someONE who can help you do so.. instead of someTHING.. if you understand..