I've been single for nearly a month now. it's rather strange. though, i'm not having much trouble adjusting. it's been trips to the bar, rides on the boat, drinks at the beach. (ha. this is my twisted, nonsense humor kicking here but....it could have been 'drinks at the bar, trips on the boat, and rides at the beach.' a little noun/verb flip- ( Read more... )

it's become goodnight without the kiss; happiness without the bliss. Lots of taking, without giving..a life not quite worth living. This companion makes you so lonely. The days keep passing more and more slowly. You know the love is gone, but can't help holding on. You don't know how he can't see that where you really need to be is nowhere near ( Read more... )

He doesn't understand that I need a life of my own.

He forgets that I'm not yet twenty-one years old....that I still have a lot of 'growing up' to do, whatever that means.

I'M CHICKENSHIT.

This is the only time in my [be it, short] life I have ever felt such a connection to a single person.

I did, rather.

It's not that it's gone. I can still ( Read more... )

this was a funny story. and i promised myself to write it down.

my friend sara, who doubles as a bartender at the Quarterdeck [mostly the reason we're friendly], stayed after work for a few drinks this tuesday. over the appetizers of miller light, and refreshing cigarettes, we got to talking about shots. she's a fan of the faithful irish car ( Read more... )

'did you hear about louie?' she asked me.
'no. why, what happened?'
'yeah. he's fucking dead.'

that was november, 2003.

yes, november of 2003, as in two months after september of 2003, as in the month that doug died. 8 weeks apart. two dead. neither of them had reached 20 ( Read more... )

these are ridiculous things that have been said over the past few months...all induced by intoxication. they won't make any sense to you, but they were great entertainment, regardless, and i didn't want to forget them ( Read more... )

so, yeah ( Read more... )

this duplicity of sorts has me questioning my sanity ( Read more... )

christmas is in 10 days ( Read more... )

"Please let me in," I laughed. He blocked the door like one of those little trolls guarding a bridge ( Read more... )