At the End of Forever (oneshot)

[orionsroad]

Title: At the End of Forever
Rating: R
Form: Oneshot
Words: 4 282
Pairings: YunJae
Genre: Drama, angst, romance. Vampire!fic.
Summary: Forever is just a pretty word in romance books, and eternity means watching everyone around you die.

A/N: Thanks to my beta, tatsunotoshi, who put up with some nonsense from me. Don’t try to proof your work when tipsy folks.

Comments

[xox_roxygurl]

it seems like it's been a while since you've written hehe.
but wow.. i really enjoyed this :] vampire fics are love!!

jae continuing on life forever, i feel like he's going to be very lonely
without yunho anymore~

[orionsroad]

It has been a while. :/ I sadly haven't really had it in me to write much recently. Fingers crossed I get my mojo back. :3

Jaejoong's is a lonely existence entirely I think. I always thought that, behind it all, vampires must be very lonely creatures.

[eskiie]

Er. I was listening to 'Timeless' as i read this, so got a bit teary towards the end >_>

You wrote this beautifully. It definitely wasn't your cliche vampire fic, it had far too much feeling for that. The entrancement and clear happiness of Yunho at the beginning, the passing of time and love and contentment between he and JaeJoong, and then the obvious conclusion. Your writing made us hurt along with Yunho, felt his aging and JaeJoong's eternal youth.

How are you made out of so much awesome!

[orionsroad]

I tried to go the complete opposite direction of most vampire stories, because, well, as fun as they are sometimes, I can never quite find them emotionally realistic. Especially the vampire+human stories like Twilight which always make no sense at all to me, because time does not work the same way for them.

I don't know. I think we are in love with the idea of a forever-love, but don't really understand what that means. I think it would be incredibly lonely, because love doesn't even last a lifetime for 99% of people, let alone eternity.

Thanks for reading hun, glad you liked it. :)

[eskiie]

Exactly, time wouldn't work the same for them! I should think for an eternal being - in this case a vampire - a human's life span would feel like a year to them. Or even only a day. I forgot to mention that i also liked how you addressed the issues of the age differences, and not just physically. JJ's lived a score of years and years. Yunho's far far younger than him, even when he reaches a ripe age physically and JJ's form is still so youthful. It's sort of a little bit creepy. >__> i don't even know what i'm trying to say :p oh oh I read your response to riiche's comment; it definitely adds extra ouch to think of memories catching up to JJ and him eventually forsaking eternity. Gives me Anne Rice vibes. (typing this from phone, hence lack of space between points :p)

[orionsroad]

Dude, you type well on a phone. I don't have the patience to do it at all! XD

It is a bit creepy, really, and hard to wrap the mind around. Cuz, yes, even when Yunho's all wrinkly and stuff, JJ looks like a teenager but he's still so much older then Yunho mentally. It's all a bit weird, really. I guess I focused on that at the expense of the 'other' vampire problems. Like feeding, and being evil. Cuz neither are addressed really in this fic. I saw ways around them, but I couldn't see ways around the age thing.

Yeah, JJ's eventual, inevitable ending is a bit of a downer. :/ Poor guy. It'd really suck to live forever, I think.

[riiche]

They always made it seem far more romantic in books.

And even if this tale doesn't end with a happily ever after, it's just as beautiful as any happy ending. I've tears in my eyes. This was gorgeous.

I don't even really have the words, except - I love this so much. The way you told the story seemed to flow so easily, quietly, that Yunho's own realization of his age creeps up to him as suddenly as it did to me. And it's heartbreaking, be it for JaeJoong and Yunho, because they're both dealing with life as an eternity and as something transient with only each other as their constant.

Thank you for sharing this ♥ just beautiful.

Edited because dkjs I read it as JaeJoong dying as well - but I reread the end it doesn't seem that way. But. Yunho lives on, somewhere, but it cannot be in Jaejoong. If he did, Jaejoong too would crumble to dust. dfljs lovely. :( ♥

[orionsroad]

^_^ Thank you! I'm so glad you like it.

I actually had to think about how I wanted to make this story go. I had the base idea for a while, and a few paragraphs to play around with, but I changed the course of the story several times til I got something that felt 'right'. I was trying to think about what it would really mean to have a relationship with a vampire/eternal being, and nothing that came to mind was very 'happy' at all. I think it would be an extreamly hard thing, and not for the reasons most stories go for. I feel really sorry for anything/person who was eternal. It'd be so very very lonely.

And lol! When I wrote the ending the first time, I made Jaejoong go off to meet the sunrise after Yunho died. But then I thought, that's really sort of what you might expect him to do. So he keeps going, I guess, until too many forgotten memories catch up with him and he too forsakes eternity.

[blinkable]

So no turning into dust for JaeJungie? *sobs*
I need to stop reading fic today...all my fave writers nothing but angst and making me sad D:
I didn't watch/read Twilight either~~~~

[orionsroad]

No... I contemplated making him die at the end too, but that's kind of what would usually happen in a vampire fic I guess, and I wanted this to go against the grain.

Sorry for making you sad! Hope you found some fluff to cheer you up!

[reveriepooh]

its a beauty. love the ending. unusual, unexpected, but good.

[orionsroad]

Thank you. :D I did try to make it different from the standard vampire stories/ideas. Glad you liked it!