Airel told me she wanted a break last night. I honestly don't know what to say. I'm so shattered and torn right now, I feel so sick and upset...I just can't explain it. The feeling is so horrible, so depressing, so stomach turning. Where do I go from here? She says it's just "a break." But I honestly don't know. Every night when Cegro gets home, ( Read more... )

Well, this is a letter to you, explaining why I'm feeling the way I do, and exactly what I am feeling. I guess I'm not really too sure where to start with this, but I needed to put these thoughts down so that you can understand the way I'm reacting. I want you to know that I am in no way trying to pin any blame on you, I just want you to understand ( Read more... )

Gooooooood I can't friggin sleep! Heh, I'm wired right now on coffee. I miss Airel so much right now, and wish I could talk to her. I love her so much and I can't get my mind off of her right now. I wish she was here right now so I could hold her and caress her body. She has me going crazy and she turns me on so much when she talks. I wanna kiss ( Read more... )

I wake up in the morning as the alarm clock buzzes. I swat it instinctively, cursing it because I never get enough sleep. I force myself to climb out of bed and will myself to at least put on a pair of jeans. I slide open the sliding door to my room and I walk over to the computer. I plop down in the chair with a soft thud and I place my thumb on ( Read more... )

She walked out of the heavy metal doors and made her way down the steps to the bench. As was her custom, she sat down, pulled out her MP3 Player, and jammed away while waiting for her ride. She usually listened to Ryan Cabrera as the first song in her lineup. She laid back against the bench and slumped down as she let the music slowly take her away ( Read more... )

I was surfing the web today and listening to launchcast, heh. That seems to be a regular activity for me now, freeeeee music! YEA! But yea, I was listening and a song came on that totally reminded me of Jamie and the problems I'm having letting her go. I just thought I'd share the song with all of you because I figured it might also mean something ( Read more... )

Well it's a lil late tonight, heh. I've had a lot on my mind these past couple of weeks. I've been so confused I don't even know what to do these days. I met yet another girl a few weeks ago, and we hit it off again. It really seems like I've had a lot of those doesn't it? Every single time I turn around, there's a new girl in my life. Tonight I ( Read more... )

Had a lot on my mind lately, mostly about friends I've lost and made these past few years. Friends seem to be few and far between since I moved. I am now on my 5th week of class and I've still not made any good friends. I'm beginning to wonder whether or not I'm supposed to have any friends out here. Everyday is a boring day, I dread waking up ( Read more... )

Tonight has been somewhat uneventful for me so far. Been somewhat depressing, kinda seems surreal. I'm not really sure what this feeling I'm feeling right now is, but it makes me uncomfortable. Have you ever wanted something so bad it's as if you feel it all around you? Ever wanted something so bad that no matter how hard you try, you cannot push ( Read more... )

Well shit, I dunno how long it's been, but it's definantly time for an update. Think it has been 2 weeks since my last entry. I'm doing great now, despite being grounded for that week by my mom. Lemme tell ya, that week was hell on earth. All I did was sit at home, watch movies, and talk on the phone to my friends back home. THink I mighta gained ( Read more... )