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[orphius]

Rejection sucks. Pity is worse.

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[thorondae]

That is mighty vague and cryptic indeed. What's goin' on?

[book_babe]

Crypticccc. What happened?

[orphius]

Ugh, it shouldn't have even been a big deal. I've pretty much gotten over it now. I applied to Scripps back in November for their cool scholarship, even though it was normal decision. So today the letter about the scholarship came today. And it was all "if this had been a few years ago, most of you would have had this scholarship no problem, but this year we had a whole bunch of applicants so...no scholarship for you." Now, I was disappointed, sure, but really I was like "ok, well, they still say I have a chance. I'll live." And was actually doing ok. But I opened in front of my parents, who have been waiting for this thing as much as I have and they gave me these looks . And I would have been fine, pity and comfort were just not actually what I wanted at that moment. Ever had that when you get bad news? So I got teary-eyed and actually upset that I didn't get in, and then the 'urg why aren't I good enough to get in places' kicked in, and then I got mad at myself for getting upset. Just...urg. Sometimes you don't want that look,

[snowusagi]

hey kid. you're cool. i love you. for really.

(no sympathy in there... cuz you don't want it?)

♥

[orphius]

♥ haha still, thanks.

yeah I know it kind of didn't make sense. It was just like.. sometimes you can handle things better, but then everyone expects you to be all sad and not take it well, so you don't? Lol I still don't make sense. I shoveled some snow after it all happened and that helped me get it all out.