im going to fucking make it through these last 8 days. he only asked for a week-week and a half but i will make it two and if he wants to call before that, thats amazing. otherwise im waiting and going to prove i can really do it for him. im so determined and i have the most brilliant motivation i have ever had. im going through this really ( Read more... )

i dont want to know that you are overwhelmed and unhappy. i can make you feel better right now so why dont you just let me do it?! i fucking love you so much.

i thought he had blue eyes to go with that brown hair. theyre green. thats not even all thats wrong. i fucked him to make myself feel better. i feel worse. i dont like the way he cuddles. i dont like the way he talks. i dont like the way he is obsessed with the tony danza tapdance extravaganza. i dont like how much he likes me. i dont like ( Read more... )

im really nervous for tomorrow. ill call him while im screaming in pain so he doesnt get the chance to forget that this is all happening because of him. ive never wanted to do this in my life and now i get to think about how i ended up having to do it because of some dick. i couldnt even describe how much i hate him right now. homeboy better ( Read more... )

i was finally able to block dane out of my head long enough to FUCK THE SHIT out of josh. hahaha. the best part about that is that dane asked him not to get involved with me. SUCKER. the fact that its something he really doesnt want to happen is cool. but the fact that josh is actually really hot and awesome and amazing is ten times better. im ( Read more... )

im not going to lie. i really lost it last night. i havent been at my house in a little over a week. sleeping with people in random beds. wanting absolutely nothing to do with anything familiar. my mind is officially fucked and this is probably the best place for me to be while im growing children. yeah definitely. thanks to selfish, ( Read more... )

lets count the really awesome things that have happened to me this month.

-two car accidents.
-tortured for a month by some fucking asshole.
-car got broken into.
-miscarriage.
-body was poisoned by my own fucking baby.

i am really glad its almost over because the fucking chest piece is coming by the 31st suckas.

that fucking alien child that was in my body fucking poisoned me. i dont blame it, my body totally attacked it and killed it but GODDAMN i am fucking tired of being sick. the other one is obviously going to be the better child ( Read more... )

oh yeah tonight work was amazing. you know, until i had to leave at 7:30 and go to the emergency room. that was fun. and i only had to stay there for SIX DAMN HOURS. awesome ( Read more... )

i cant wait to find a REAL man. like one that opens doors pays for MY shit rather than me having to always pay for everything. one that actually DEALS WITH PROBLEMS rather than trying to ignore them and pretend theyre not there and then blows up and hurts everyone they love. one that doesnt have to act like A FUCKING DICK to cover up what hes ( Read more... )