words cant explain how i feel. the're just words on a page that are motionless, cold, and black. the only way for someone to turely understand is to be there, wach, and listen. but even then no one really understands. they have to be right there, in your head. but that never happends and seems that it never will. there are so many emotions running ( Read more... )

so. . . . ya. . . . sorry to any one who read my journal yesterday.i was kinda upset. i think i was having a bad day.

i dont know what to say. i just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be ok. i dont know whats wrong with me. its so hard to keep all this in and to keep from falling apart. i didnt ask for any of this. everything i touch turns to shit. everything i want is taken away. when im given a chance i fuck it up. the one thing i ( Read more... )

so i cant sleep and im really tired(that makes a lot of sence!!) any hoo i felt bad cuz i havent writen in a while, so here i am ( Read more... )

i just wanted to say thank you to all my friends who have been there for me. iv been thinking and im not sure what i would have done without you guys. so thank you shane, heather, nate, laycee, becka, mattie, joe and to anyone else i may have left out. youve all been the greatest friends anyone could ever have. and i know with friends like you, i ( Read more... )

ahhh! here i am, in the library feelin tired,sick and sad. all i want to do is go home. im not handeling today as well as i thought. thers too many questions and stairs as im walking down the hall. i got no sleep last night cuz i was up all night trying to get something in my mountin of homework done. but of corse i accomplished very little. what a ( Read more... )

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yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life. (for those of you who alredy know, good, cuz im not going into details) there is so much swiming around inside me that i dont know how to deal with ( Read more... )

dont have much to say today. too much to explain.
i'll write more later when i have it figured out.