Sitting in the bathrrom on an uninterrupted break ( Read more... )

The move was rocky. Life is rocky. Internet is shaky. Whenever I get reestablished and organized I'll figure out how to flesh this all out.

'"We switched beds," she said, as she luxuriated in the feel of another's presence. She explained further: "As I toss and turn in bed I cover my skin with the scent and the feel of what is very male and very mine."'

I should make a postsecret:

Sometimes my fantasies are about other people and I feel guilty that it gets me off to think about them more than my fiance.

Do you think he would get it and read it and know it was from me?

With everything going on in my life, I miss him. I keep having dreams and these thoughts that wake me up in the middle of the night and keep me awake so that I’m never quite sure what’s going on or the exact time. I want to make my peace with him, but it’s too hard because of all the emotional complications. To be honest, I’m scared about what ( Read more... )

This weekend was amazing. It was so nice to get away from everything and spend time with a good friend. I wish I could do it more often at the same time that I wish I could have stayed. We talked about everything and I want more than ever to make my peace with him. It's my only regret in life and one I wish could be left in the past.

I bought a cat today. We went to the Metrowest Humane Society which just houses cats that were either brought in or caught feral in the Metrowest (specifically around Framingham) area. His name is Duncan. He's a long hair, black kitty who is 5 years old. He's FIV+ which means he has to be an indoor cat, which is fine because we can't have an ( Read more... )

Today is Father's Day and I wouldn't expect it to go any differently than it has. Matthew and I went to his Uncle John's house and hung out with his family. My dad went out to western MA to spend time with my sister. He took my brother and the dog. I was supposed to cook a special dinner for him tonight. He asked to reschedule so it would fit ( Read more... )

My realizations have made thinking easier this week. I just wish that I didn't have to do so much worrying about everyone else.

I think God is sending me messages through Greenday.