time in between
satan is going to steal your soul
back in the Void. the plan. try to get a job, make some money, get back to reality. we'll see how that goes. i was the first person to receive a 2 year diploma from the kootenay school of the arts center of craft and design at selkirk college. my instructor carefully worded it on the podium; "the first person to receive..." it was nice they even called out max, the diploma has N. on it instead of my full first name. maybe if i legally change it it could be nick or something a little more calm than max. but i don't know max suits me. i dont know. its odd here. can't bind. and its starting to get hot outside. today i ventured out to down town and took my learner's drivers test. so now i can legally operate a motor vehicle, with a person over 25, at least a class 5 license, 0% alcohol level, only one passenger in the back seat, and only between 5am and midnight. one year then i can take the N test. but its done. 25$ later. i dont know. i enjoy my bmx, it gets me around. but there's just too many damn cars out there.
i've decided to hide the trans-ness from my family here. last night i was having a great conversation over a bottle of red wine with my uncle about life and why were here and all that shit. he told me just to find what drives me, what i want to focus my life around. then try to make money at it. he kept giving me openings to tell him, but then i thought a few steps ahead, it looked a little grim. so i just fell back on the smile and nod. although i'm still not sure what i would tell them anyways. so i think its best not to bring it up.
I think i am going to check out if there is any trans stuff here in vernon, its doubtful, but it doesn't hurt to check it out.
well more to come later, i have to go grandma-sit
back in the Void. the plan. try to get a job, make some money, get back to reality. we'll see how that goes. i was the first person to receive a 2 year diploma from the kootenay school of the arts center of craft and design at selkirk college. my instructor carefully worded it on the podium; "the first person to receive..." it was nice they even called out max, the diploma has N. on it instead of my full first name. maybe if i legally change it it could be nick or something a little more calm than max. but i don't know max suits me. i dont know. its odd here. can't bind. and its starting to get hot outside. today i ventured out to down town and took my learner's drivers test. so now i can legally operate a motor vehicle, with a person over 25, at least a class 5 license, 0% alcohol level, only one passenger in the back seat, and only between 5am and midnight. one year then i can take the N test. but its done. 25$ later. i dont know. i enjoy my bmx, it gets me around. but there's just too many damn cars out there.
i've decided to hide the trans-ness from my family here. last night i was having a great conversation over a bottle of red wine with my uncle about life and why were here and all that shit. he told me just to find what drives me, what i want to focus my life around. then try to make money at it. he kept giving me openings to tell him, but then i thought a few steps ahead, it looked a little grim. so i just fell back on the smile and nod. although i'm still not sure what i would tell them anyways. so i think its best not to bring it up.
I think i am going to check out if there is any trans stuff here in vernon, its doubtful, but it doesn't hurt to check it out.
well more to come later, i have to go grandma-sit