Tonight is my first show. I'm scared as shit already. I've already got the shakes and can't believe it. Oh god.

I feel ugly. I feel like I've been acting ugly. I've had an ugly attitude and an ugly idea of everything and it's making look very very ugly. Everything feels very ugly at this moment and I hate it.


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Good morning ( Read more... )

I kind of want to run away ( Read more... )

I am in a hugely anxiety filled place right now. There are some good and some not so good things happening and some things that are ripping me apart inside. What do you do with feelings that can lead nowhere good. I suppose you throw them away, you destroy, or ignore, or let go... get rid of them somehow. But what if they are in your face everyday ( Read more... )

YIPES ( Read more... )

I'm a tired old lady ( Read more... )

I'm sick and I have to go to work. Happy new year by the way. I'm so tired so instead of showering and getting ready for work I did this.

1.The Age you will be your next birthday:

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Is is too much to ask to have one holiday off? I've worked every single one since I started here. I don't want to work Christmas again. I really think it's not fair at all. She even said I deserve it. I hate my job. Other people could have worked. Some people haven't worked a single holiday... and didn't request Christmas off. But I still get ( Read more... )

Fuck stupid gay boys and their retarded drama. I don't CARE!