Ah, a beautiful day today- and only 14 more minutes untill class, i spent a whooooole lotta time with my piano practice, which might i add- i'm getting to be much better hahahaha... I managed to comment on katz lj, and i might on sex-panda's too- hmm.. i don't know- sometimes i'm so confused as to why i'm not always commenting on all the entries i ( Read more... )

mellow luvs tool: i need ur help ( Read more... )

"The wolf in the clothing of a sheep- or is it just a pig in a j-rock costume ( Read more... )

Today has been shit. Nothing but pain fills my head, and i cannot think beyond it.. I had to sing- I didn't feel much like it at all.. I was late comming in from break because i was in one of the practice rooms crying.. Life has lost everything about it I enjoy'd- everything and everyone doesn't seem to care, I feel so worthless and so dry, so very ( Read more... )

there is a place in me, where no one goes, a place in me, that seems almost sewn shut, and i can't help but feel, every time the stiches are pulled out, that there are oceans of tears waiting to come about.

okay. wow.. i just got an interesting call.. me and my now ex are finished. done. over. he just "wants to be friends" - i thought what we had was actually going somewhere- I try to be loving and gentle- just because i get depressed, and bring up the fact he said, that i wasn't "the one" - GOD DAMNIT!! i didn't need this. i really didn't need this. ( Read more... )

"Once upon a midnight dreary, while i pondered, stoned and teary, over many quaint and curious volume of romantics bofore- while i haunted, hardly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, as of someone gently cracking, cracking in my eve of lore. "Tis of little'er," I muttered, cracking in my eve of lore, only this, and yet so much more. And yet the ( Read more... )

Wow... Things seem really weird this morning... I guess a night of good sleep can fight off a lot of things... Or maybe it's just that the beatles always heal broken hearts... lol, that's pretty fuckin' cool i'd say- *sigh* i mean, last night i wrote an that entry and just let the tears stream down my face... i'd say that whole entry could have ( Read more... )

I will wait untill the blood stops or slows it's steep.. Like the warm sun, on open sources, like open sores, agenst darkness, between dreaming walkways.. I don't know why I bother to write anything anymore... And then I think it might just be a phase... This something that has come over me totally, an all consuming wicked force that seems like I' ( Read more... )

Wow.. okay so- you can only guess why i've been so busy--- *sigh* things have been going on in the life that eain knew to be peace and nothingness forever untill death parted him from the living. the end. NOT! well... umm- i uh- aside from being pretty crazy right now, have a mega-awesome sense of joy that seems to flow through my veins and sprout ( Read more... )