so i sit and stare at my computr and brick wall constantly putting myself up on making music again. All i do is sit and do nothing, I'm too fucked up to make music. it's not even that, I'm so scared of letting myself be happy. Functionality has never been my strong point. But i think that i need to start doing something with my life again. the end ( Read more... )

i set everything up in ym sound studio, and I don't know what to do know. I end of jsut listening to music rather than making ym own. I'm not surprised, but more annoyed, that i can't do work jsut because I'm too afriad at what my emotions have in store for me. I've started drawing more, or at all.. and i'm liking the sketches that are coming out ( Read more... )

i rode my new 12 speed today, and it was surprisingly hard. I never fully realized how much work my legs do while riding a fixed gear. I felt like i was going to fall whenever i came to a stop because i would automatically try and stop with my legs instead of these things called breaks ( Read more... )

i've always hated the feeling of being nervous about going to a class, or maybe more of anxious about going. Having German 4 nights a week is a bit much, but I'm glad I'm getting this out fo the way and know not to take summer classes again. I don't understand why schools don't treat summer like a normal semester. sheeit... the newest b fleischmann ( Read more... )

I don't know what we're listening to. it's all weird. one of my knuckles itches, so i itched it. I just had a tunfa sandwich i made at home and it's awesome. Hefty is great, but there is this one guy here that has a subtle power complex, that treats me like a kid just because I'm interning, he's jsut the money guy, all others here are awesome. I am ( Read more... )

German is shit hard. I don't like this everyday thing, it's a bit too chaotic with everything that is going on with two jobs and me starting a third on saturdays volunteering at an organic farm. But things are so crazy right now. The meds are still inside and those damn demons are coming out. It can get very ugly, I was trying to get mad at my ( Read more... )

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Mexico is pretty amazing. I wasn{t sure how i was going to enjoy it, I{m still a little offset by the main part of playa de carmen, that i continually refer to as the santa monica promenade. Of course my back is burnt from the first day in the sun. But there is this hotty that is european that lays out all day and jumps in the water.. very nice eye ( Read more... )

everything is optional i guess ( Read more... )

yueah, so wednesday night i went to see deerhoof at the empty bottle, it rocked, but when it was over, i was contacted by my sis and friends that my apt. building was on fire. I went home and yes, it was on fire. half of the building, including my good friend's, kate and max, apt. is gone. Thankfully my sis and my apt. just has water and smoke ( Read more... )