she doesn't love me anymore.... what the fuck am i doing here?

i feel so sick to my stomach right now ( Read more... )

So ya thought ya might like to go to the show.
To feel the warm thrill of confusion
That space cadet glow.
Tell me is something eluding you, sunshine?
Is this not what you expected to see?
If you wanna find out what's behind these cold eyes,
You'll just have to claw your way through this disguise.

Now for the seperate, rant entry.

I feel like there's this glass wall between me and Lyssa. I feel there has been some communication break down because specific, important things have become very unclear between us. I feel like there is a lack of understanding between us. I sincerely hope these hundreds of dollars aren't going to waste...

So... I have to work tomorrow. This saddens me. Tomorrow is the 25 year anniversary of John Lennon's murder. One that I typically recognize alone, but for once would like to get with some people and have some sort of macro-jam session to honor the man's memory. If I were a little bit more computer literate, i would make a layout for it. I ( Read more... )

I've become over run by that mystic emotion again. That kind of feeling where nothing is wrong at all but I just feel like shit. I know exactly what's bothering me and where it came from but I'm too wrapped up in pretending that it doesn't bother me that I'm not entirely sure of how it makes me feel or what to do about it. I'm too worried about ( Read more... )

so... i'm updating ( Read more... )

i'm taking somewhat of a violent u-turn as far as my college life goes. i'm dropping all my classes for next semester and only taking one painting class. no one really knows this but i painted and drew a lot when i was young and then i dropped it all to play guitar. now, not knowing where my life is going, i'm currently choosing to not fill my ( Read more... )

LASTS._ ( Read more... )

Thanks to all who replied with those memories, all of which were good. I know that I've done a lot of bad before; but you were all good enough to put those things away and see only the good between us. I love you all. Thanks for not giving up on me. I love you all again.