I'm surprised almost by the frequency with which I miss him. Yesterday I was looking at pictures and that was really hard, and today this. It's mostly things I want to show him, like my back yard, and things I want to talk to him about, like stuff that's going on with Ian.
It's hard when I feel that "missing" feeling to have that not lead directly to that "why" and "oh god it's so pointless and so fucking sad" but I'm trying to just let myself miss him and be sad about it and not cut that off with more anger/bitterness which isn't the original emotion of missing/sad/love/loss but instead something else darker and not as productive.
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Sheila in NJ
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I'm surprised almost by the frequency with which I miss him. Yesterday I was looking at pictures and that was really hard, and today this. It's mostly things I want to show him, like my back yard, and things I want to talk to him about, like stuff that's going on with Ian.
It's hard when I feel that "missing" feeling to have that not lead directly to that "why" and "oh god it's so pointless and so fucking sad" but I'm trying to just let myself miss him and be sad about it and not cut that off with more anger/bitterness which isn't the original emotion of missing/sad/love/loss but instead something else darker and not as productive.
I'm just talking it out here, don't mind me.
Love you.
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