He's a machine.
Title: He's a machine.
Pairing: Kris/Tao
Genre: Romance, Angst (One little part), Smut
Rating: NC-17
Summary: There are two new students at school. Tao sees it as his task to free the emotions of this guy named Kris.
I'm reading her eyes, the language of her lips
But find a closed-up heart
Tightly shut like a forbidden district
Or maybe when you get closer you can hear her crying
Or maybe she does return your feelings
But her expression remains still
Exo-M - Machine
Walking around on the campus with Yixing, I found out about the new kids. One was Korean and the other was Canadian-Korean. Yixing was talking about them the whole way to our class. Their appearance was apparently very interesting, since that was the only thing he was talking about. “You can’t miss him, he is so tall!” Yixing exclaimed while we crossed the grass. The sun shone on my frizzy black hair, heating it up so you could fry an egg on it. How it ever crossed my mind is unknown, but I walked around in flip-flops. That’s probably one of the most unstylish things I ever wore in my life. But it was so hot outside, it left me no choice. The grass also felt warm to my toes. It gave me a nice spring feeling. The damp on the grass wet my feet and my pants. I didn’t really care though, for now. When I would be in class, I would probably be annoyed to death by the warm water stinging to my legs. Yixing was still babbling like crazy. Let him talk, about a view minutes he can’t say anything. My bangs fell into my eyes, like usually. It helped like a good pair of sunglasses. Yixing on the other hand was wiping his brown bangs out of his hair, which were covered with sweat. I still wasn’t listening until one sentence that turned my perfect image of a day upside down. “I heard the new kids are in our class.” There it goes, my fantasies of a perfect day, like all the other days. Ruined by two new kids in our class. “Isn’t that awesome?” Yixing clapped his hands at the idea, while I had my other opinions about it. “Yeah, awesome.” I said sarcastically. We reached the building just in time. The classroom was nicely cooled by air-conditioning. The air-conditioning had been placed last year, back then the warmth was even worse. Many students didn’t come to class, because in their dorms it was cooler than in the classroom. So the staff decided to put at least one air-conditioning system in every classroom. The moment I stepped into the classroom, I immediately felt the water on my pants. A very uncomfortable feeling I had to deal with at least until lunch. Yixing and I took our usual places in the school benches, my side free, at his side Luhan the cute, baby faced guy. “Now everyone is finally here.” The teacher began, with a meaningful look our way “I’ll introduce the new students. Or even better, they will introduce themselves.” All the students looked bored. “Hello, my name is Kim Min Seok.” The short, brown haired guy said in almost flawless Chinese. Then a really tall guy came in. He was probably as tall as a giant. “I’m Kris.” His Chinese really was flawless. I wondered if he was sure he wasn’t Chinese. “Take a seat. Next to Tao is one empty and next to Hangeng.” O God, o God, o God, nooo. One of the new kids has to sit next to me. “Next time we switch places.” I whisper in Yixing’s ear. He nods without hesitation. “Fine ge.” Slowly the two new students work their way up the stairs. I hear that they’re coming closer. I wished for the smaller guy to sit next to me, but vainly. With a thud, Kris sat next to me. Staring emotionless to the teacher. So he couldn’t notice, I went closer to Yixing with millimeters. “Do I scare you?” He asked, looking at me. I froze in my way over to Yixing and shook my head. “No, I don’t want a new kid to sit next to me. And I don’t want those unstylish clothes to touch my Gucci shirt.” Defending myself was easier than explaining the weird feeling I always have with foreigners. Kris’s face didn’t show any reaction, instead he sat closer to me. So our arms were touching. “Damn it.” I huffed under my breath. I heard a contend sound coming from Kris’s side. This wasn’t going to make class any easier, since class already was hard to follow. Despite that, my grades were high and I didn’t have to do my best for school.
I spent the rest of the class scooting over to Yixing, and I successfully completed my mission. Kris’s and my arm weren’t touching anymore. The bell rang, class was over. Kris didn’t make any movement to leave the school bench. “Hello? Class is over. Can I go?” I asked him, waving my hand in front of his arrogant face. “You can leave on the other side, I have to stay here a little longer.” I longed to punching him in the face, but I had a reputation to keep high. Yixing pulled my arm. “Let’s go.” He waved at Kris, smiled and pulled me out of the school benches. Minseok was also sitting left alone on the school benches in the corner of the classroom. “Tao, wait, I want you to stay for a while.” Yixing looked at the teacher. “Has he done something?” The teacher shook his head. “Please leave Yixing.” Upset, he let go of my arm. In the other corner of the classroom was another guy, I didn’t know the name of. “Because Kris and Minseok have to catch up with class. You two are going to tutor them. You’re the best students I have in this class. It’s your task to make them feel comfortable and home. Lead them around the school, for example. Tao you’re tutoring Kris, and you are tutoring Minseok.” If this day could get any worse, I would eat my Gucci bag. I sighed. “Good day, students.” The teacher walked out of the classroom and left us. Kris finally stood up. “So, tutor.” He said in hateful voice, all though, his face still showed no emotions. “Are you going to show me around?” Now he stood next to me, hovering above me. “I have class.” I said. I tried to walk away, but his hand caught my wrist. “New students don’t have to go to class if there are things to do. I think that’s the same for the tutors.” I pulled my arm out of his grasp. “I can’t leave Yixing alone.” “Oh, that guy, he seems smart. He can survive without an arrogant hero.” The image of a blooding Kris, lying on the floor crossed my mind. “Okay.” I inhaled slowly to calm myself. “Let’s go.” Meanwhile Minseok and his tutor had already left.
“And why did you have to sit so close to me?” I asked as we walked over the grass I’d walked with Yixing in the morning. “To make you feel uncomfortable.” Kris answered simply. He did make me feel uncomfortable. With everything he did. Sitting close to me, showing no emotion, being a tall ass. Those were also reasons why I’d punch him in the face in the future. I started to wonder if he actually had emotions. What if I’d kick him or insult him? Would he get angry? Maybe I should try later. The damp on the grass was gone, so now the grass felt nice and warm. It somehow calmed me immensely. On a bench under a tree sat Minseok. “Where’s your tutor?” Kris asked. “He’s gone, I guess. He said he was going to smoke or something. I didn’t really understand him.” They had been talking in Korean and it made me mad again. “We’re in China, can you please talk Chinese?” I commented. “Sorry.” Minseok bowed. “So, Minseok, are you coming with us then?” I was relieved that if he said yes, I wouldn’t have to be alone with Kris anymore. Minseok chuckled at my pronunciation of his name. “You can call me Xiumin if you want, that would be easier.” I smile. “Thank you.” It did sound gibberish and I was glad he offered me to call him else. “Can we go now?” Kris said. Xiumin and I nodded in unison. I walked behind Kris with Xiumin, he wanted to lead us somehow, so I had a clear view at his back. He wore a blouse with the sleeve rolled up, so his underarms were visible. It occurred me, that his skin was kind of white. And as the sun shone it on it’s full power, it looked like the porcelain cups my mother always drunk out of. The white of his blouse was just a bit whiter than his skin. “Is it normal for a skin to look almost transparent?” I asked Xiumin. He turned to me. “Huh?” “Never mind, I’ll ask Yixing.” Xiumin nodded. Kris had stopped in front of the head entrance. “Tutor, you should go ahead of the new kids.” I scoffed. With a lot of hesitation and a battle inside my brain, I left Xiumin’s side.
I let myself fall on one of the plastic chairs in the cafeteria. I almost showed every corner of the building, because Kris commanded me to. “Wow, you look exhausted.” Yixing commented on the bangs in front of my eyes and the way I lay me head on the chair. “Thank you Yixing.” Luhan sat on the opposite of us. “Are they nice? Minseok seems nice.” I noticed that his pronunciation was perfectly fine. “Can you speak Korean?” Luhan nodded, the noodles that hung out of his mouth, bouncing with the movement. “So, did you survive?” I threw Yixing a skeptic glare. “No, I’m actually dead.” Finally I realized my stomach was screaming for food. “I’ll be back.” With a lot of puffs and struggling, I stood up. The only things left were dumplings, so there wasn’t really a choice. When I returned to our table, I saw Kris. I shook my head disapprovingly. “You’re here.” He’d taken the chair next to Luhan, which was also next to mine. “Apparently.” The tray I held in my hand fell on the table with a loud bang, shaking some of the students out of their eating trance. “You’re my tutor, you’re supposed to take care of the poor new student, who doesn’t know anything about the school.” “Hmpf.” “Is the first tutoring this evening.” “Hm.” That’s all the words that were said. Talking to a robot wasn’t really my hobby.
I was sitting in my dorm room. I had asked Yixing to stay, but the brat said he was going to town. So here I was, all alone, waiting for some emotionless guy I should tutor. My feet were on the desk, my arms under my head, the perfect relaxing position. I had changed into a pair of sweatpants, because the pants I wore before were dirty from the grass. “Inhale, exhale” Were the only things that kept my mind busy at that moment. “Hello, Tao.” I opened my eye slightly to peak at the tall guy from the corner of my eye. “Sit down.” I said, closing my eye again. I heard Kris feet shuffle a bit. “There’s no place to sit.” “Are you blind. There’s a bed right next to you.” Kris huffed, but sat down anyways. I spun in my chair. “So, what do I need to help you with?” Kris grabbed his bag from the floor. He took out two books, history and math. “Seriously?” I sneered. It was my mission of the evening to make him angry. One of the easiest emotions in this world. “Yes, seriously.” While explaining I tried to insult him as good as I could. At the end I threw away his book. “Why can’t you just get angry?” I yelled and kicked his leg. He bit his lip. “Why do you want me to get angry? That doesn’t make sense.” “YES IT DOES.” I was hundred percent sure, the other dorms could hear me. “Why don’t you show any emotions. It’s the first day and it’s already freaking me out!” Kris returned to his serene mask. “Why would I tell you.” He picked up his books. “Bye, thank you Tao.” In a normal pace he walked away, swinging his bag over his shoulder. Even my outburst didn’t make him angry, not even my rude question. I kicked the desk. If I couldn’t even normally live the first day, how was I going to survive this year? Or maybe, longer than this year? “Is everything okay? I heard you yell? What did Kris do?” Yixing stood leaning to the doorpost, sipping on a straw in his Bubble Tea. “Nothing. That is the problem. He did nothing.” I had turned to my desk again. “Yixing!” I said. I stood up and shook my friends shoulders. The Bubble Tea poured over the rim of the cup. He looked down at the tea. “What?” He pouted cutely. “You have to help me. We’re going to make a list of emotions and try to identify them on Kris.” Yixing looked up from into my eyes. “Why should I?” “I’m giving you a new cup of Bubble Tea…” Yixing pouted another time “Everyday.” He nodded. “Okay ge.” Money was no problem, so this would do. Yixing hopped away. “We’re starting now!” Yixing stopped abruptly. “Ge~ It’s ten ‘o clock.” “Now, Yixing.” And that’s how it happened that Yixing and I spent an hour on making a list of emotions.
The first emotion we came up with was fear. We had to scare him. This sure wasn’t easy. Yixing and I discovered quickly. We tried to scare him by jumping around the corner suddenly. All he did was stand still and then walk past us. Making us look like retards. “We have to try something else.” Yixing sighed during lunch. I was busy googling on my phone. “What are you doing?” “Searching for scary stuff.” Luhan heard our conversation and was now invading it. “Maybe you could go to a haunted house?” We looked up at him in unison. “That’s a great idea!” Luhan smiled. “Can I come too? And Minseok?” I looked at Yixing, who nodded happily. “Sure.” I nudged him with my elbow, unseen for Luhan. Yixing just smiled at me with his attractive dimples. “It’s going to be fun.” “It isn’t supposed to be fun. This is a mission, remember?” Yixing rolled his eyes. “What you say ge.”
So the haunted house was quite a good idea. I rented one, so no other people were there. Especially not those annoying screaming kids, who run past you, causing your eyes to fall off. “Is he coming too?” Kris asked as Xiumin guided him to the entrance of the haunted house. Obviously he meant me, all thought you couldn’t figure out by his tone or gaze. “Yes, isn’t that fun?” Xiumin said, as he went to walk next to Luhan. Kris put his hands in his pocket. “Okay.” Yixing said, he looked between me and Kris, and then quickly run off to take the left over space between Luhan and Xiumin. I stared at Kris, he stared back. I was the first to avert my gaze and enter the haunted house. Kris followed a view steps behind me. We already heart a view squeals from Xiumin when we entered. I chuckled. “Let’s go.” We walked in silent, as we let the ‘scary’ creatures pop up around us. We constantly heard yelps coming from our three friends in front of us. I had checked the route of the haunted house, so nothing actually scared me. Kris was now walking close behind me. “Scared?” I asked. “No.” His mask maybe hid his fear, but I couldn’t look through his mask. Every time something randomly shoot up from the ground, I saw Kris stop. At least, I thought. I could’ve just imagined it. Anyways, we left the haunted house with three extremely shocked guys, but the two of us weren’t scared even a little bit. “Why weren’t you scared?” Yixing asked in the bus back to our school. “I checked the route, of course. If I’d be scared, Kris would think I’m a coward. That wouldn’t help our mission.” Yixing sighed and looked out of the window. “You could at least let me know the route too.” “No, no I couln’t.”
The next on our list was jealousy, but since Kris was a natural beauty, we didn’t think he had anything to be jealous at. Without hesitation I scratched it away with a thick pen. “Next?” Yixing asked. We had agreed to meet every day after Kris’s tutor session. Which I had spent by showing all my expensive stuff. What didn’t impress him at all, so that’s why we gave up on trying out anything else. “Admiration.” But I showed him all my stuff, so I don’t think that is a good one either.” Yixing lay on his back on my bed. He was throwing a football, I have no clue where he’d found it, up and down in front of his stomach. “Hate. Do you think he hates me?” “Nah, he’s just emotionless he doesn’t hate anyone, but he also doesn’t like anyone.” I nodded. “Boredom.” Yixing stopped throwing the ball. “Neither, even when we had the most boring lecture in history, his face was abnormally serene.” I scratched the word off the list. “He obviously doesn’t know what happiness is, so we don’t even have to try that one.” Yixing nodded in agreement. “True.” I shifted the list upwards on my desk. “Shame!” I smirked. “Yixing, I have a perfect idea on how we are going to perform shame.” Yixing looked up from his game. “I have no idea what you’re thinking of, but your smirk is kinda scary.” I smiled.
I didn’t tell Yixing what my plan was until the perfect day to complete it. “Embarrassment is almost the same as shame, right?” I asked Yixing, who was sitting next to me and Luhan. “I guess so. Why? Are you going to do it today? In this class?” Yixing’s eyes went wide as I smirked again. “No! You’re not going to do that!” “Yixing, if you’re planning on talking, please do that while running.” The teacher shouted our way. We stood up from our places and went to jog around with the others. “I am going to do that. And you’re going to help me. My dear ge-ge.” I saw Yixing swallow. My smirk grew even wider. Yixing advised the teacher to talk to Kris about the rules of basketball, because he didn’t do very well. So I could prepare everything. Everyone left after showering and changing. I stayed in the changing room, waiting for Yixing and Kris to return. As if I stayed to wait for Yixing. “There you are. What took you so long?” I said to Yixing. He shrugged. “Ah you know, talking to the teacher for a while. Hey, but I’m only going to change, I’m in a hurry.” I nodded, “I’ll wait for you ge.” Kris meanwhile went into the showers. Yixing changed as quickly as he could. “Good.” I whispered. “I don’t have any classes now, so I can wait outside to see his shame. Please take his clothes and bring them to his dorm room. Oh, and his sport outfit too.” Yixing nodded. He wasn’t comfortable, taking someone’s clothes to do something like this. But he trusted me, so he did everything I asked him to do. Yixing walked to Kris’s dorm, I took my place next to the wall on the opposite of the changing room. Now all I had to do, was wait for the show to begin. After a view minutes, almost half an hour, the door of the changing room opened. I had leaned forward all the time, to appear sleeping, but I could see through my bangs. First Kris’s head peaked around the corner. He stopped when he saw me. I inhaled and exhaled slowly. Then the rest of his body went into the hall. He had a towel around his lower body. I looked up a little more, because I felt perverted looking at the towel, to his upper body. Damn, Kris had abs. His was skinny and he had abs. Kris inspected the halls. I knew he had to walk through the cafeteria to reach his dorm. I’d asked Yixing to take place in the cafeteria after bringing Kris’s clothes to his dorm. And nonchalantly play on his phone, while he was actually filming. When Kris was a view steps away, I quickly texted him. “The robot is coming your way.” I didn’t need a text back. Kris was half way the hallway. I saw him stop and then he continued. I stood up from my place, slowly I strolled through the hall. Kris a view meters ahead of me. He was there, the door of the cafeteria. He opened it. Shocked noises and giggles from girls were the first noises to reach my ear. I started to walk faster. Smirk never leaving my face. Kris walked out of the cafeteria, which was left in a total shocked state. “Bow down to the master.” Lay said when he saw me. The people around me laughed. “Tao, did you do that?” I didn’t answer, instead I quickly sat down next to my friend. “Show me.” Yixing opened the map that said videos. I was honestly disappointed, his face was still the same. “Now you and Kris are probably the most wanted boys together.” I slapped Yixing on the back of his head.
“I know it was you, you know?” Kris said when he entered my dorm. “Yep, I know.” “Why? What did you want to reach with it? Make me popular? Thanks, but no thanks.” I sighed and rubbed my eyes. “Of course not, I’m the popular one.” “Then what?” I didn’t answer him. “Tell me.” Kris turned my chair to look into my eyes. Even though I’d expected him angry, he still wasn’t. “I wanted to see shame or embarrassment. You know, I’m checking your emotions.” Kris let go of the armrests. “Okay. Stop that. Now explain this to me.” He threw a book at my head. I’ve never been this happy to get a book thrown at my head. Because it meant that he was angry.
“Sadness.” I said when Yixing entered my room after the tutor session. “Wow, what happened to your head.” He pointed at the red spot. I smiled “I got a book thrown at my head, apparently he can get angry.” Yixing smiled back. “I’ve never seen a person get happy over a book hitting his head.” I shrugged. “I’m not normal ge. You should’ve known that by now.” “So sadness. How are you going to do that?” “I don’t know, I don’t know anything about him. I think we’ll skip that one for a while.” Yixing took his usual place on my bed. “You know, I saw perfection is counted under emotions too.” He suggested. “Yixing, he is pure perfection we already know that. But I don’t see it as an emotion on him.” “You could try love.” My eyes widened. “You want him to fall in love with me?” Yixing shook his head. “Hook him up with a girl or something, not you.” I nodded. “Yeah, most girls like now they’ve seen his abs.” Yixing nodded and yawned. “Can I go? I’m really tired.”
“Kris, buddy.” I walked up to Kris in the hall. “What?” He asked me. “You know, have you seen that girl? That’s Liu Yifei. You should talk to her. I think she likes you.” Kris looked at the girl. She was standing with a view girls giggling and pointing at Kris. “She seems like a stereotypical girl. Only paying attention to those with a nice body.” I felt like punching him. Yifei was one of the prettiest girls on school. “Okay then. What about her.” I pointed at a girl sitting on a bench on her own. A book in her hand. “I can see she’s hard to communicate with. I also don’t have the same interests, judging by the math book she’s reading.” “Okay, whatever. I give up. Then you stay alone for the rest of your life.” He looked at me. “I don’t bother living alone for the rest of my life.” Form under my bangs I shot him a weird glare. “Tao!” Yifei shouted at me. “If you don’t want her, I’m going to talk to her. See ya.” I felt a hand around my wrist, again. “No, I’ll talk to her. If you are so concerned about me living alone for the rest of my life.” He let go of my wrist and walked over to the girls. Once again, I succeeded.
“What?” I asked the man. “We’re painting your room. You have to sleep somewhere else. The two rooms around you are also getting painted. Get your stuff and move.” I stared at him for a while. That meant that also Luhan and Yixing had to move out. I got all the stuff I’d need for one or two days and just stood in front of my room. Luhan walked out of his room. “I’m going to Xiumin, bye!” I waved at him, with a dazed expression on my face. Yixing walked out of the other room next to me. “I’m going to Hangeng. And you?” He blinked at me. “I have no idea.” He shrugged. “You’ll figure something out. You’re really popular, right.” I nodded. “Right.” But I ended up sitting in front of my room for almost an hour. “What are you doing?” a deep voice asked me. “Oh you know, hunting dinosaurs in Egypt.” I swear I heard him chuckle. “Are they painting your room?” I nodded. “So where are you going to tutor me now? The library?” I shot him a death glare. “Are you serious? The library? If I’d even take one step in there. My reputation would be ruined.” I wiped away my bangs proudly. “Whatever. My room then?” That sound any more appealing, but I agreed anyways.
His room was neat, there weren’t any clothes on the floor and the books were organized on the shelves above his desk. “Take a seat.” He said as he sat down on the only chair. “There is no seat.” I said, when I dropped my bag. “Are you blind? There is a bed right next to you.” I sat down on the bed, crossed arms. “You really enjoy this don’t you?” I said, looking in the other direction. “Yes.” “So, how was your talk with Yifei?” Curiosity wins over everything. “I don’t like her at all. She’s really mean to her friends.” Inwardly, I was laughing. He should know how I treat Yixing. But Yixing is still me friend after all. “Hm.” I only said, to not show any emotion, just like him. “So, do you have a place to stay?” I shook my head. “Not really.” Actually I expected him to offer me to stay in his place, but thank God he didn’t. “Maybe I’ll go to Yifei. I know that it’s not allowed, who cares?” “No, you can stay here.” His voice was even deeper. “I-I mean. You shouln’t get in trouble. You know.” I nodded slowly, observing the little emotions he had just shown. “Interesting.” He looked up at me. His cold eyes staring into me. It got me wondering what he was hiding in them. Why he was like that. Were his eyes showing sincerity, was he really like that, or mystery what was he hiding. I realized that I had been staring at him. I cleared my throat. Only making the situation more awkward. “What do I need to help you with?” “Nothing actually, I’m catching up quickly now.” I nodded, bangs falling into my eyes, to hide the flush spreading across my face. “Well, uh. I have to do something. So just make yourself home, I guess.” Kris stood up. He took one last glance at me blinked in his normal frequency and left. After sitting on Kris’s bed for a view minutes I picked my phone.
“What are you doing?” I asked when the annoying tone was over. “Tao ge, where are you now? Did you find anywhere to sleep?” Yixing’s voice sounded concerned through the phone. I sighed heavily. “I’m sleeping in Kris’s dorm.” I heard a shocked sound. Yixing coughed a view times, then calmed down. “Ah, this is a part of one of your missions?” “Yeah.” I said. It would be better not to tell him much about it. My phone got grabbed out of my hands and thrown away. “Who are you calling?” Kris asked. “What the hell. I was just calling Yixing.” “What mission, Tao, I thought you’d stopped?” The way he said my name wasn’t sounding very good. “Ah, that’s what this is about. Yes, I have stopped,” I lied easily. “But telling Yixing that you offered me to stay here would be embarrassing.” “It’s about your reputation once again.” Kris sighed. I never heard him sigh. Maybe it was actually working. Maybe I could free his feelings out of that secured hart, if he had one. “Uhm, do you have a mattress or something.” I looked at him sarcastically “Yeah, I actually always carry a view mattresses with me. You never know when you need one.” The corner of his mouth slightly shot up. “It was just a question. I mean, you have to sleep on the ground, in the chair or…” He stopped. “Uh…” I got what he was referring to. “I’m sorry, but I’m not going to sleep in the chair or on the floor. Do you know how bad that is for your back and neck?” He nodded. “Well it’s almost ten now. So the lights have to go out…” I picked my pajama out of my bag. “We just turn each other the back, nothing wrong.” He nodded again. It was weird changing in the same room as Kris, when it was so silent that you could only hear the noises of the rustling clothes.
Lying in the same bed as Kris was even worse, I figured. He was tall and took more than halve of the bed as his property. I lay squeezed between the wall and his body, since he said he was getting up at six. He fell asleep pretty quickly, so I lay in silent, eyes wide open. After a view minutes, I got bored with staring at the ceiling. I turned my head to look at the sleeping body. Only out of pure curiosity, I swear, I moved my head to lay on his chest. I didn’t feel a heartbeat nor heard any noises. Did he really not have a heart? Or was it a dust-covered heart, tightly guarded as if it was an restricted area, so no one would know it was there? Suddenly I heard someone speaking. I froze on my place, to scared to move away. I couldn’t understand a word from what he was saying. It sounded much like, Cantonese? I looked up, Kris’s lips were moving and the foreign words came out. But he had his eyes closed. Could he breath? I brought my ear closer to his mouth. Only words, no air. Maybe he really was a robot, or some sort of toy. But even then, I should’ve heard some rattling noises in his chest, right? What I realized is, that his skin wasn’t as cold as before. When first felt his skin, it was ice-cold. Now, it was a nice human-like temperature. I decided that was enough research. I lay back on my place again, nothing better than being squeezed between a wall and a body of something that doesn’t even breath.
I woke slowly, my breath rebounded to me as I exhaled. I sat up immediately, my eyes went wide. “I thought you’d never wake up.” Kris rubbed his eyes. I woke up lying with my head on his chest, legs around him. I knew I turned red, so I hid my face in my hands. I heard him chuckle. “You looked so comfortable, I wouldn’t wake you up.” I could cry of shame. I really did that. “It’s okay. I got a text that I didn’t have to come to the appointment with the school counselor.” I didn’t answer, once again. I just hid my face in my hands. “One word about this and you won’t live any longer.” I pointed my finger at him. His lips were curled up in a smile, it didn’t reach his eyes, but it was enough for me. I felt a heat curling up in my stomach. “We should get dressed.” I sighed. “It’s Saturday.” “So? Let’s do something then.” My eyes narrowed. “What?” “It’s Saturday. I don’t want to stay here. I want to see the city. And you’re my tutor, so you have to show me around.” He smiled the whole time he was talking. “Hpmf.” I said and threw the sheets of me. We got dressed the same as we changed the day before. The feeling of my hot cheeks got only worse. It calmed down when I saw Yixing in the hall. “Hey. Did you survive?” I looked behind me to Kris, who had put his emotionless mask on again. But I saw he tried not to smile. “No, I’m dead. And now I mean it.” Yixing smiled, “A well. Me Luhan, Xiumin and Hangeng are going to the amusement park today. You can come if you want.” This sentence made me angry again. “No, Kris wants to see the city.” Yixing laughed. “A date!” He screamed. “What are you talking about. No, I have to lead him. I’m his tutor, after all.” Yixing didn’t stop smiling. “First sleeping in the same room, then going out to the city. I’m afraid this is going too fast for me.” I nudged his side. “Stop.” I threw him a death glare that only made him smile brighter. “Have fun ge.” He hopped away to Xiumin. “I hope you’re happy, because I ain’t.” “I think I’m going to kill your friend in his sleep. You don’t mind right.” Kris rubbed his hands together. “Go ahead.” I’d left my bag in Kris’s room, because the painters told me it was going to take at least another day. “Let’s go.” Kris said. “Shouldn’t we have breakfast.” “We can eat in the city, let’s go.” He pulled me on my arm. A group of girls pointed at us. I shook my arm free. “I can walk myself. I learned it when I was around fourteen months old.” Kris just grabbed my arm again.
“The bus?” I said with a grossed out tone in my voice. “Yeah. The bus.” “I can call a taxi.” “No you can’t.” I glared at him. “Watch.” I took out my phone, which got snatched out of my hand. Kris turned it off and put it in his back pocket. “Give back.” I said, stretching out my hand to him. “No.” “I’m going to get it if you don’t give it.” Kris shrugged “Go ahead.” Okay, I wasn’t really going to do that. “Nevermind.”
“Iew, normal people.” Kris pulled me on a seat next to him in the back of the bus. “I’m normal too.” He said. “Yes, and you gross me out just as much.” He went to stare out of the window. I was highly aware of the fact that he was sitting on my phone. I sighed heavily. Then I would just buy a new phone. Two girls next to me stared at Kris. “He’s so hot.” “Do you think he has a girlfriend?” I chuckled inwardly, Kris and a girlfriend, that was impossible. “It’s rude to talk about someone in a whispering tone.” Kris said as he turned to the girls. They shut up right away. “We were just wondering if you have a girlfriend.” One of them said. “Yes, now leave me please.” The girls seemed upset. “You have a girlfriend?” I said softly. “No, I just need don’t want them to talk about me.” I nodded.
“Where do you want to go?” Kris had pushed me out of the bus, because I had no idea where to get off the bus. While I live here longer, so that was pretty embarrassing. “The Tian Tan Buddha.” I sighed. “So mainstream. Can’t we just eat first?” Kris shook his head. “Just buy something from one of the stalls next to the road. There are enough of them.” “You just force me to live like I’m poor.” Kris chuckled. “That’s good for you.” So I munched on some greasy street food while walking to the Tian Tan. “It’s huge!” Kris exclaimed. “That’s what she said.” “But, I’m a guy.” I rolled my eyes. The way over to the Buddha we had already seen a lot and I was already tired. It took us three hours to get here, because Kris continually wanted to stop to look at something. I think I have told him almost three lessons worth of history about all the stuff we’ve seen. Now he finally let me rest in a restaurant. A proper restaurant. “Wow, you know much.” He said. I shrugged. The menu had a lot of expensive things, only expensive things. “You know I can’t afford this.” “I pay.” I said pointing up a finger. “I’ll pay you back.” “Whatever.”
After that our food is finally brought to us, I can’t help but ask what has been bothering me ever since I met him. “Why don’t you ever show emotions. Well, you do. Only now, with me. And it’s freaking me out.” Kris looked up from his kimchi. “Why? Do you mind it if I’m nice to you?” “No…” Kris returned to his ramen. “But you’re not going to tell me?” “No.” “Oh.” He nodded.
“How was the day out?” Yixing asked me as soon as Kris and I entered the cafeteria after another view hours of walking around Hongkong. We visited almost all of the islands. “It was okay.” I said. He smiled mysteriously. “That’s good.” It must not have looked nice, me stuffing my cheeks full of food, like I was a squirrel. “Calm down. It isn’t good for your weight if you eat so fast.” Kris said, with his usual flat tone. “Like you care about how I treat my body.” A flush spread across his face for a second. “No.” I didn’t see it, but I saw how Yixing was looking at Kris, who was looking discretely at his food. I narrowed my eyes to Yixing and shook my head. He just smiled.
“What have they done?” Kris opened his door, he first locked it, because he apparently didn’t lock it and was now standing in his room. I opened the door further. More than a hundred candles were lit up and sprawled in the room. “What the hell?” I asked. Trying not to burn my pants as I took a step in. “Did Yixing do this?” Kris asked me. “I bet he did.” The candles close to de door had gone out. “I’ll just gonna-“ I went on my knees and blew out some candles. Kris followed my example. Together we blew all the air out of lungs. “What a waste of candles!” I sighed when I threw the stuff in the bin. Kris nodded slowly. “Can we just go to sleep now? I’m tired.” I said to Kris.
I lay in between the wall and Kris’s body again. Unable to move. Kris turned towards me. I didn’t look at him. “Tao ge.” I choked on my tongue. He just called me brother? What the hell was going on? I turned my head. He smiled. This was the first time the smile truly reached his eyes. I blinked at him, totally mesmerized by his beauty in the dimly-lit room. He leaned closer to me, into my personal space. There was no way I could back up, the wall was already pressed into my back. His lips brushed against mine. All the air I owned was gone, I couldn’t breathe. I could only stare at Kris. He pressed our lips together. After a view seconds, I let my eyes fall shut. His lips started to slowly move against mine. Even his tongue came into my mouth, exploring my cavern. His hand stroked away my hair. “Sleep well, my beauty.” He smiled and turned on his back again. I was in total shock. There was no way I could fall asleep now, with my heart beating so incredibly fast it could be a heart attack. I felt his hand pull me closer. He pulled me to lay on my side. The only thing I could do was move my arm to lie on his stomach and my head to lie on his chest. I heard his heart beating.
I woke up in the same position as before, but now I didn’t pull away. No, I still tried to progress what happened last night. “Good morning.” Kris placed a kiss on my head. I felt a blush creep on my face. His body was so warm, I thought I would never be able to let go. I nuzzled my nose in his shirt. “You change a lot when you’re sleepy.” He ruffled my hair. “I’ve decided to tell you.” I looked up. “Tell me what?” He smiled. “What do you think? Tell you about why I’m so ‘emotionless’ towards most people.” I nodded and lay my head back on his heart. “Promise me something.” “What?” I whisper in the soft fabric of his shirt. “Don’t show any emotions while I talk.” What kind of promise was that? But I nodded again. “Okay, so.” He cleared his throat. “I killed someone.” I almost lift my head in shock, but I made a promise and lay still. “I killed my sister. When I was young my sister was always better than me. And I denied her that. She was lovely over all. But she went the wrong path. She chose to marry a drugs dealer. She asked my parents to give me to her. I was like ten years younger than her. They didn’t agree with her. So she let someone kill my parents. It was in my house, in my room even. I was eight, when two men in black suits came to our house. I heard my father yell stuff to my mother. I can’t really remember what it was. My mother ran up to my room, locked it and picked me up. I was way too heavy, and tall, to be picked up. She looked around the room. There were heavy footsteps on the stairs, running towards us, the door flew open,” Kris stopped the exhale slowly. It was a shaky breath. “a knife was thrown in here back.” I sobbed. I let my hand roam over his stomach to sooth him. “She didn’t let me go. She pressed me against her body and sunk through her knees. One of the men took me out her grasp. The other, slid her throat open. I saw it all.” He stopped again, this time to let the tears roll over his cheek. I wiped them away with my thumb. “For a view years, I thought the two men were assassins or something like that. But on my thirteenth birthday, I heard my sister talk to her husband about those men who still weren’t paid. I was furious that she really killed my and so also her own parents. I couldn’t take that. I took a gun from the counter and shot her. I shot her. And I shot her husband. I ran away.” I kissed away the tears that were falling down again. “A view days later, someone found me and took me to her house. She took care of me until I told her what I was old enough to move out of the house. I moved to Korea. To forget everything. And to not bother anyone with anything, I kept myself reserved, so no one would know. The woman that took care of me didn’t even know.” He was still crying, I was still crying. His arm was around me, my arm was caressing his stomach. “So now you know.” He smiled. I didn’t say anything. “Not showing any emotions doesn’t mean you have to keep quiet.” “I know, I’m just startled.” We lay there for an hour, maybe two, crying. We calmed down after half an hour though, we just lay down. “KRIS!” Yixing knocked on the door. “Damn it.” He swore under his breath. “What now?” I asked, but before we had any choice to do anything, the door swung open. Revealing a concerned Yixing and a normal looking Luhan. “AAAAAAAAAAA! I KNEW YOU TWO WERE DATING!” Yixing yelled, he pulled Luhan on his arm, threw the door closed and we were alone again. “Uh?” Kris said. “Fine, now everybody knows what happened.” I sighed “Does it matter to you?” He looked at me. “Does it to you?” He shook his head, pulling me down on his chest. “No, you’re mine.” I wanted to cough. Even though he had kissed me and he told me his heartbreaking life story, I didn’t really expect him to be so clingy. “Yeah.” I let my head fall on his chest. “I think we should get up now.” I grunted “No.” He pushed me away slightly. “Yes.”
When we were done dressing and we we’re ready to leave, we were surprised by a big group of people in front of Kris’s dorm room. “Omg!” “Tao?” “No way!” “Kris is gay?” “So now the two most attractive guys are dating?” “My feelings!” “I can’t.” Kris was honestly shocked. Before we went out he said to me that if I didn’t want anyone to know about us, we could just say Yixing is an idiot. I grabbed his hand and raised my head. “That’s right, he’s mine. Now get out of our way.” I pulled Kris with me, but the group followed us. “Are they serious?” I turned around. “Would you please mind you own business and leave us alone.” Everyone stood still. “Thank you.”
http://ottoiskoewl.livejournal.com/7259.html
Pairing: Kris/Tao
Genre: Romance, Angst (One little part), Smut
Rating: NC-17
Summary: There are two new students at school. Tao sees it as his task to free the emotions of this guy named Kris.
I'm reading her eyes, the language of her lips
But find a closed-up heart
Tightly shut like a forbidden district
Or maybe when you get closer you can hear her crying
Or maybe she does return your feelings
But her expression remains still
Exo-M - Machine
Walking around on the campus with Yixing, I found out about the new kids. One was Korean and the other was Canadian-Korean. Yixing was talking about them the whole way to our class. Their appearance was apparently very interesting, since that was the only thing he was talking about. “You can’t miss him, he is so tall!” Yixing exclaimed while we crossed the grass. The sun shone on my frizzy black hair, heating it up so you could fry an egg on it. How it ever crossed my mind is unknown, but I walked around in flip-flops. That’s probably one of the most unstylish things I ever wore in my life. But it was so hot outside, it left me no choice. The grass also felt warm to my toes. It gave me a nice spring feeling. The damp on the grass wet my feet and my pants. I didn’t really care though, for now. When I would be in class, I would probably be annoyed to death by the warm water stinging to my legs. Yixing was still babbling like crazy. Let him talk, about a view minutes he can’t say anything. My bangs fell into my eyes, like usually. It helped like a good pair of sunglasses. Yixing on the other hand was wiping his brown bangs out of his hair, which were covered with sweat. I still wasn’t listening until one sentence that turned my perfect image of a day upside down. “I heard the new kids are in our class.” There it goes, my fantasies of a perfect day, like all the other days. Ruined by two new kids in our class. “Isn’t that awesome?” Yixing clapped his hands at the idea, while I had my other opinions about it. “Yeah, awesome.” I said sarcastically. We reached the building just in time. The classroom was nicely cooled by air-conditioning. The air-conditioning had been placed last year, back then the warmth was even worse. Many students didn’t come to class, because in their dorms it was cooler than in the classroom. So the staff decided to put at least one air-conditioning system in every classroom. The moment I stepped into the classroom, I immediately felt the water on my pants. A very uncomfortable feeling I had to deal with at least until lunch. Yixing and I took our usual places in the school benches, my side free, at his side Luhan the cute, baby faced guy. “Now everyone is finally here.” The teacher began, with a meaningful look our way “I’ll introduce the new students. Or even better, they will introduce themselves.” All the students looked bored. “Hello, my name is Kim Min Seok.” The short, brown haired guy said in almost flawless Chinese. Then a really tall guy came in. He was probably as tall as a giant. “I’m Kris.” His Chinese really was flawless. I wondered if he was sure he wasn’t Chinese. “Take a seat. Next to Tao is one empty and next to Hangeng.” O God, o God, o God, nooo. One of the new kids has to sit next to me. “Next time we switch places.” I whisper in Yixing’s ear. He nods without hesitation. “Fine ge.” Slowly the two new students work their way up the stairs. I hear that they’re coming closer. I wished for the smaller guy to sit next to me, but vainly. With a thud, Kris sat next to me. Staring emotionless to the teacher. So he couldn’t notice, I went closer to Yixing with millimeters. “Do I scare you?” He asked, looking at me. I froze in my way over to Yixing and shook my head. “No, I don’t want a new kid to sit next to me. And I don’t want those unstylish clothes to touch my Gucci shirt.” Defending myself was easier than explaining the weird feeling I always have with foreigners. Kris’s face didn’t show any reaction, instead he sat closer to me. So our arms were touching. “Damn it.” I huffed under my breath. I heard a contend sound coming from Kris’s side. This wasn’t going to make class any easier, since class already was hard to follow. Despite that, my grades were high and I didn’t have to do my best for school.
I spent the rest of the class scooting over to Yixing, and I successfully completed my mission. Kris’s and my arm weren’t touching anymore. The bell rang, class was over. Kris didn’t make any movement to leave the school bench. “Hello? Class is over. Can I go?” I asked him, waving my hand in front of his arrogant face. “You can leave on the other side, I have to stay here a little longer.” I longed to punching him in the face, but I had a reputation to keep high. Yixing pulled my arm. “Let’s go.” He waved at Kris, smiled and pulled me out of the school benches. Minseok was also sitting left alone on the school benches in the corner of the classroom. “Tao, wait, I want you to stay for a while.” Yixing looked at the teacher. “Has he done something?” The teacher shook his head. “Please leave Yixing.” Upset, he let go of my arm. In the other corner of the classroom was another guy, I didn’t know the name of. “Because Kris and Minseok have to catch up with class. You two are going to tutor them. You’re the best students I have in this class. It’s your task to make them feel comfortable and home. Lead them around the school, for example. Tao you’re tutoring Kris, and you are tutoring Minseok.” If this day could get any worse, I would eat my Gucci bag. I sighed. “Good day, students.” The teacher walked out of the classroom and left us. Kris finally stood up. “So, tutor.” He said in hateful voice, all though, his face still showed no emotions. “Are you going to show me around?” Now he stood next to me, hovering above me. “I have class.” I said. I tried to walk away, but his hand caught my wrist. “New students don’t have to go to class if there are things to do. I think that’s the same for the tutors.” I pulled my arm out of his grasp. “I can’t leave Yixing alone.” “Oh, that guy, he seems smart. He can survive without an arrogant hero.” The image of a blooding Kris, lying on the floor crossed my mind. “Okay.” I inhaled slowly to calm myself. “Let’s go.” Meanwhile Minseok and his tutor had already left.
“And why did you have to sit so close to me?” I asked as we walked over the grass I’d walked with Yixing in the morning. “To make you feel uncomfortable.” Kris answered simply. He did make me feel uncomfortable. With everything he did. Sitting close to me, showing no emotion, being a tall ass. Those were also reasons why I’d punch him in the face in the future. I started to wonder if he actually had emotions. What if I’d kick him or insult him? Would he get angry? Maybe I should try later. The damp on the grass was gone, so now the grass felt nice and warm. It somehow calmed me immensely. On a bench under a tree sat Minseok. “Where’s your tutor?” Kris asked. “He’s gone, I guess. He said he was going to smoke or something. I didn’t really understand him.” They had been talking in Korean and it made me mad again. “We’re in China, can you please talk Chinese?” I commented. “Sorry.” Minseok bowed. “So, Minseok, are you coming with us then?” I was relieved that if he said yes, I wouldn’t have to be alone with Kris anymore. Minseok chuckled at my pronunciation of his name. “You can call me Xiumin if you want, that would be easier.” I smile. “Thank you.” It did sound gibberish and I was glad he offered me to call him else. “Can we go now?” Kris said. Xiumin and I nodded in unison. I walked behind Kris with Xiumin, he wanted to lead us somehow, so I had a clear view at his back. He wore a blouse with the sleeve rolled up, so his underarms were visible. It occurred me, that his skin was kind of white. And as the sun shone it on it’s full power, it looked like the porcelain cups my mother always drunk out of. The white of his blouse was just a bit whiter than his skin. “Is it normal for a skin to look almost transparent?” I asked Xiumin. He turned to me. “Huh?” “Never mind, I’ll ask Yixing.” Xiumin nodded. Kris had stopped in front of the head entrance. “Tutor, you should go ahead of the new kids.” I scoffed. With a lot of hesitation and a battle inside my brain, I left Xiumin’s side.
I let myself fall on one of the plastic chairs in the cafeteria. I almost showed every corner of the building, because Kris commanded me to. “Wow, you look exhausted.” Yixing commented on the bangs in front of my eyes and the way I lay me head on the chair. “Thank you Yixing.” Luhan sat on the opposite of us. “Are they nice? Minseok seems nice.” I noticed that his pronunciation was perfectly fine. “Can you speak Korean?” Luhan nodded, the noodles that hung out of his mouth, bouncing with the movement. “So, did you survive?” I threw Yixing a skeptic glare. “No, I’m actually dead.” Finally I realized my stomach was screaming for food. “I’ll be back.” With a lot of puffs and struggling, I stood up. The only things left were dumplings, so there wasn’t really a choice. When I returned to our table, I saw Kris. I shook my head disapprovingly. “You’re here.” He’d taken the chair next to Luhan, which was also next to mine. “Apparently.” The tray I held in my hand fell on the table with a loud bang, shaking some of the students out of their eating trance. “You’re my tutor, you’re supposed to take care of the poor new student, who doesn’t know anything about the school.” “Hmpf.” “Is the first tutoring this evening.” “Hm.” That’s all the words that were said. Talking to a robot wasn’t really my hobby.
I was sitting in my dorm room. I had asked Yixing to stay, but the brat said he was going to town. So here I was, all alone, waiting for some emotionless guy I should tutor. My feet were on the desk, my arms under my head, the perfect relaxing position. I had changed into a pair of sweatpants, because the pants I wore before were dirty from the grass. “Inhale, exhale” Were the only things that kept my mind busy at that moment. “Hello, Tao.” I opened my eye slightly to peak at the tall guy from the corner of my eye. “Sit down.” I said, closing my eye again. I heard Kris feet shuffle a bit. “There’s no place to sit.” “Are you blind. There’s a bed right next to you.” Kris huffed, but sat down anyways. I spun in my chair. “So, what do I need to help you with?” Kris grabbed his bag from the floor. He took out two books, history and math. “Seriously?” I sneered. It was my mission of the evening to make him angry. One of the easiest emotions in this world. “Yes, seriously.” While explaining I tried to insult him as good as I could. At the end I threw away his book. “Why can’t you just get angry?” I yelled and kicked his leg. He bit his lip. “Why do you want me to get angry? That doesn’t make sense.” “YES IT DOES.” I was hundred percent sure, the other dorms could hear me. “Why don’t you show any emotions. It’s the first day and it’s already freaking me out!” Kris returned to his serene mask. “Why would I tell you.” He picked up his books. “Bye, thank you Tao.” In a normal pace he walked away, swinging his bag over his shoulder. Even my outburst didn’t make him angry, not even my rude question. I kicked the desk. If I couldn’t even normally live the first day, how was I going to survive this year? Or maybe, longer than this year? “Is everything okay? I heard you yell? What did Kris do?” Yixing stood leaning to the doorpost, sipping on a straw in his Bubble Tea. “Nothing. That is the problem. He did nothing.” I had turned to my desk again. “Yixing!” I said. I stood up and shook my friends shoulders. The Bubble Tea poured over the rim of the cup. He looked down at the tea. “What?” He pouted cutely. “You have to help me. We’re going to make a list of emotions and try to identify them on Kris.” Yixing looked up from into my eyes. “Why should I?” “I’m giving you a new cup of Bubble Tea…” Yixing pouted another time “Everyday.” He nodded. “Okay ge.” Money was no problem, so this would do. Yixing hopped away. “We’re starting now!” Yixing stopped abruptly. “Ge~ It’s ten ‘o clock.” “Now, Yixing.” And that’s how it happened that Yixing and I spent an hour on making a list of emotions.
The first emotion we came up with was fear. We had to scare him. This sure wasn’t easy. Yixing and I discovered quickly. We tried to scare him by jumping around the corner suddenly. All he did was stand still and then walk past us. Making us look like retards. “We have to try something else.” Yixing sighed during lunch. I was busy googling on my phone. “What are you doing?” “Searching for scary stuff.” Luhan heard our conversation and was now invading it. “Maybe you could go to a haunted house?” We looked up at him in unison. “That’s a great idea!” Luhan smiled. “Can I come too? And Minseok?” I looked at Yixing, who nodded happily. “Sure.” I nudged him with my elbow, unseen for Luhan. Yixing just smiled at me with his attractive dimples. “It’s going to be fun.” “It isn’t supposed to be fun. This is a mission, remember?” Yixing rolled his eyes. “What you say ge.”
So the haunted house was quite a good idea. I rented one, so no other people were there. Especially not those annoying screaming kids, who run past you, causing your eyes to fall off. “Is he coming too?” Kris asked as Xiumin guided him to the entrance of the haunted house. Obviously he meant me, all thought you couldn’t figure out by his tone or gaze. “Yes, isn’t that fun?” Xiumin said, as he went to walk next to Luhan. Kris put his hands in his pocket. “Okay.” Yixing said, he looked between me and Kris, and then quickly run off to take the left over space between Luhan and Xiumin. I stared at Kris, he stared back. I was the first to avert my gaze and enter the haunted house. Kris followed a view steps behind me. We already heart a view squeals from Xiumin when we entered. I chuckled. “Let’s go.” We walked in silent, as we let the ‘scary’ creatures pop up around us. We constantly heard yelps coming from our three friends in front of us. I had checked the route of the haunted house, so nothing actually scared me. Kris was now walking close behind me. “Scared?” I asked. “No.” His mask maybe hid his fear, but I couldn’t look through his mask. Every time something randomly shoot up from the ground, I saw Kris stop. At least, I thought. I could’ve just imagined it. Anyways, we left the haunted house with three extremely shocked guys, but the two of us weren’t scared even a little bit. “Why weren’t you scared?” Yixing asked in the bus back to our school. “I checked the route, of course. If I’d be scared, Kris would think I’m a coward. That wouldn’t help our mission.” Yixing sighed and looked out of the window. “You could at least let me know the route too.” “No, no I couln’t.”
The next on our list was jealousy, but since Kris was a natural beauty, we didn’t think he had anything to be jealous at. Without hesitation I scratched it away with a thick pen. “Next?” Yixing asked. We had agreed to meet every day after Kris’s tutor session. Which I had spent by showing all my expensive stuff. What didn’t impress him at all, so that’s why we gave up on trying out anything else. “Admiration.” But I showed him all my stuff, so I don’t think that is a good one either.” Yixing lay on his back on my bed. He was throwing a football, I have no clue where he’d found it, up and down in front of his stomach. “Hate. Do you think he hates me?” “Nah, he’s just emotionless he doesn’t hate anyone, but he also doesn’t like anyone.” I nodded. “Boredom.” Yixing stopped throwing the ball. “Neither, even when we had the most boring lecture in history, his face was abnormally serene.” I scratched the word off the list. “He obviously doesn’t know what happiness is, so we don’t even have to try that one.” Yixing nodded in agreement. “True.” I shifted the list upwards on my desk. “Shame!” I smirked. “Yixing, I have a perfect idea on how we are going to perform shame.” Yixing looked up from his game. “I have no idea what you’re thinking of, but your smirk is kinda scary.” I smiled.
I didn’t tell Yixing what my plan was until the perfect day to complete it. “Embarrassment is almost the same as shame, right?” I asked Yixing, who was sitting next to me and Luhan. “I guess so. Why? Are you going to do it today? In this class?” Yixing’s eyes went wide as I smirked again. “No! You’re not going to do that!” “Yixing, if you’re planning on talking, please do that while running.” The teacher shouted our way. We stood up from our places and went to jog around with the others. “I am going to do that. And you’re going to help me. My dear ge-ge.” I saw Yixing swallow. My smirk grew even wider. Yixing advised the teacher to talk to Kris about the rules of basketball, because he didn’t do very well. So I could prepare everything. Everyone left after showering and changing. I stayed in the changing room, waiting for Yixing and Kris to return. As if I stayed to wait for Yixing. “There you are. What took you so long?” I said to Yixing. He shrugged. “Ah you know, talking to the teacher for a while. Hey, but I’m only going to change, I’m in a hurry.” I nodded, “I’ll wait for you ge.” Kris meanwhile went into the showers. Yixing changed as quickly as he could. “Good.” I whispered. “I don’t have any classes now, so I can wait outside to see his shame. Please take his clothes and bring them to his dorm room. Oh, and his sport outfit too.” Yixing nodded. He wasn’t comfortable, taking someone’s clothes to do something like this. But he trusted me, so he did everything I asked him to do. Yixing walked to Kris’s dorm, I took my place next to the wall on the opposite of the changing room. Now all I had to do, was wait for the show to begin. After a view minutes, almost half an hour, the door of the changing room opened. I had leaned forward all the time, to appear sleeping, but I could see through my bangs. First Kris’s head peaked around the corner. He stopped when he saw me. I inhaled and exhaled slowly. Then the rest of his body went into the hall. He had a towel around his lower body. I looked up a little more, because I felt perverted looking at the towel, to his upper body. Damn, Kris had abs. His was skinny and he had abs. Kris inspected the halls. I knew he had to walk through the cafeteria to reach his dorm. I’d asked Yixing to take place in the cafeteria after bringing Kris’s clothes to his dorm. And nonchalantly play on his phone, while he was actually filming. When Kris was a view steps away, I quickly texted him. “The robot is coming your way.” I didn’t need a text back. Kris was half way the hallway. I saw him stop and then he continued. I stood up from my place, slowly I strolled through the hall. Kris a view meters ahead of me. He was there, the door of the cafeteria. He opened it. Shocked noises and giggles from girls were the first noises to reach my ear. I started to walk faster. Smirk never leaving my face. Kris walked out of the cafeteria, which was left in a total shocked state. “Bow down to the master.” Lay said when he saw me. The people around me laughed. “Tao, did you do that?” I didn’t answer, instead I quickly sat down next to my friend. “Show me.” Yixing opened the map that said videos. I was honestly disappointed, his face was still the same. “Now you and Kris are probably the most wanted boys together.” I slapped Yixing on the back of his head.
“I know it was you, you know?” Kris said when he entered my dorm. “Yep, I know.” “Why? What did you want to reach with it? Make me popular? Thanks, but no thanks.” I sighed and rubbed my eyes. “Of course not, I’m the popular one.” “Then what?” I didn’t answer him. “Tell me.” Kris turned my chair to look into my eyes. Even though I’d expected him angry, he still wasn’t. “I wanted to see shame or embarrassment. You know, I’m checking your emotions.” Kris let go of the armrests. “Okay. Stop that. Now explain this to me.” He threw a book at my head. I’ve never been this happy to get a book thrown at my head. Because it meant that he was angry.
“Sadness.” I said when Yixing entered my room after the tutor session. “Wow, what happened to your head.” He pointed at the red spot. I smiled “I got a book thrown at my head, apparently he can get angry.” Yixing smiled back. “I’ve never seen a person get happy over a book hitting his head.” I shrugged. “I’m not normal ge. You should’ve known that by now.” “So sadness. How are you going to do that?” “I don’t know, I don’t know anything about him. I think we’ll skip that one for a while.” Yixing took his usual place on my bed. “You know, I saw perfection is counted under emotions too.” He suggested. “Yixing, he is pure perfection we already know that. But I don’t see it as an emotion on him.” “You could try love.” My eyes widened. “You want him to fall in love with me?” Yixing shook his head. “Hook him up with a girl or something, not you.” I nodded. “Yeah, most girls like now they’ve seen his abs.” Yixing nodded and yawned. “Can I go? I’m really tired.”
“Kris, buddy.” I walked up to Kris in the hall. “What?” He asked me. “You know, have you seen that girl? That’s Liu Yifei. You should talk to her. I think she likes you.” Kris looked at the girl. She was standing with a view girls giggling and pointing at Kris. “She seems like a stereotypical girl. Only paying attention to those with a nice body.” I felt like punching him. Yifei was one of the prettiest girls on school. “Okay then. What about her.” I pointed at a girl sitting on a bench on her own. A book in her hand. “I can see she’s hard to communicate with. I also don’t have the same interests, judging by the math book she’s reading.” “Okay, whatever. I give up. Then you stay alone for the rest of your life.” He looked at me. “I don’t bother living alone for the rest of my life.” Form under my bangs I shot him a weird glare. “Tao!” Yifei shouted at me. “If you don’t want her, I’m going to talk to her. See ya.” I felt a hand around my wrist, again. “No, I’ll talk to her. If you are so concerned about me living alone for the rest of my life.” He let go of my wrist and walked over to the girls. Once again, I succeeded.
“What?” I asked the man. “We’re painting your room. You have to sleep somewhere else. The two rooms around you are also getting painted. Get your stuff and move.” I stared at him for a while. That meant that also Luhan and Yixing had to move out. I got all the stuff I’d need for one or two days and just stood in front of my room. Luhan walked out of his room. “I’m going to Xiumin, bye!” I waved at him, with a dazed expression on my face. Yixing walked out of the other room next to me. “I’m going to Hangeng. And you?” He blinked at me. “I have no idea.” He shrugged. “You’ll figure something out. You’re really popular, right.” I nodded. “Right.” But I ended up sitting in front of my room for almost an hour. “What are you doing?” a deep voice asked me. “Oh you know, hunting dinosaurs in Egypt.” I swear I heard him chuckle. “Are they painting your room?” I nodded. “So where are you going to tutor me now? The library?” I shot him a death glare. “Are you serious? The library? If I’d even take one step in there. My reputation would be ruined.” I wiped away my bangs proudly. “Whatever. My room then?” That sound any more appealing, but I agreed anyways.
His room was neat, there weren’t any clothes on the floor and the books were organized on the shelves above his desk. “Take a seat.” He said as he sat down on the only chair. “There is no seat.” I said, when I dropped my bag. “Are you blind? There is a bed right next to you.” I sat down on the bed, crossed arms. “You really enjoy this don’t you?” I said, looking in the other direction. “Yes.” “So, how was your talk with Yifei?” Curiosity wins over everything. “I don’t like her at all. She’s really mean to her friends.” Inwardly, I was laughing. He should know how I treat Yixing. But Yixing is still me friend after all. “Hm.” I only said, to not show any emotion, just like him. “So, do you have a place to stay?” I shook my head. “Not really.” Actually I expected him to offer me to stay in his place, but thank God he didn’t. “Maybe I’ll go to Yifei. I know that it’s not allowed, who cares?” “No, you can stay here.” His voice was even deeper. “I-I mean. You shouln’t get in trouble. You know.” I nodded slowly, observing the little emotions he had just shown. “Interesting.” He looked up at me. His cold eyes staring into me. It got me wondering what he was hiding in them. Why he was like that. Were his eyes showing sincerity, was he really like that, or mystery what was he hiding. I realized that I had been staring at him. I cleared my throat. Only making the situation more awkward. “What do I need to help you with?” “Nothing actually, I’m catching up quickly now.” I nodded, bangs falling into my eyes, to hide the flush spreading across my face. “Well, uh. I have to do something. So just make yourself home, I guess.” Kris stood up. He took one last glance at me blinked in his normal frequency and left. After sitting on Kris’s bed for a view minutes I picked my phone.
“What are you doing?” I asked when the annoying tone was over. “Tao ge, where are you now? Did you find anywhere to sleep?” Yixing’s voice sounded concerned through the phone. I sighed heavily. “I’m sleeping in Kris’s dorm.” I heard a shocked sound. Yixing coughed a view times, then calmed down. “Ah, this is a part of one of your missions?” “Yeah.” I said. It would be better not to tell him much about it. My phone got grabbed out of my hands and thrown away. “Who are you calling?” Kris asked. “What the hell. I was just calling Yixing.” “What mission, Tao, I thought you’d stopped?” The way he said my name wasn’t sounding very good. “Ah, that’s what this is about. Yes, I have stopped,” I lied easily. “But telling Yixing that you offered me to stay here would be embarrassing.” “It’s about your reputation once again.” Kris sighed. I never heard him sigh. Maybe it was actually working. Maybe I could free his feelings out of that secured hart, if he had one. “Uhm, do you have a mattress or something.” I looked at him sarcastically “Yeah, I actually always carry a view mattresses with me. You never know when you need one.” The corner of his mouth slightly shot up. “It was just a question. I mean, you have to sleep on the ground, in the chair or…” He stopped. “Uh…” I got what he was referring to. “I’m sorry, but I’m not going to sleep in the chair or on the floor. Do you know how bad that is for your back and neck?” He nodded. “Well it’s almost ten now. So the lights have to go out…” I picked my pajama out of my bag. “We just turn each other the back, nothing wrong.” He nodded again. It was weird changing in the same room as Kris, when it was so silent that you could only hear the noises of the rustling clothes.
Lying in the same bed as Kris was even worse, I figured. He was tall and took more than halve of the bed as his property. I lay squeezed between the wall and his body, since he said he was getting up at six. He fell asleep pretty quickly, so I lay in silent, eyes wide open. After a view minutes, I got bored with staring at the ceiling. I turned my head to look at the sleeping body. Only out of pure curiosity, I swear, I moved my head to lay on his chest. I didn’t feel a heartbeat nor heard any noises. Did he really not have a heart? Or was it a dust-covered heart, tightly guarded as if it was an restricted area, so no one would know it was there? Suddenly I heard someone speaking. I froze on my place, to scared to move away. I couldn’t understand a word from what he was saying. It sounded much like, Cantonese? I looked up, Kris’s lips were moving and the foreign words came out. But he had his eyes closed. Could he breath? I brought my ear closer to his mouth. Only words, no air. Maybe he really was a robot, or some sort of toy. But even then, I should’ve heard some rattling noises in his chest, right? What I realized is, that his skin wasn’t as cold as before. When first felt his skin, it was ice-cold. Now, it was a nice human-like temperature. I decided that was enough research. I lay back on my place again, nothing better than being squeezed between a wall and a body of something that doesn’t even breath.
I woke slowly, my breath rebounded to me as I exhaled. I sat up immediately, my eyes went wide. “I thought you’d never wake up.” Kris rubbed his eyes. I woke up lying with my head on his chest, legs around him. I knew I turned red, so I hid my face in my hands. I heard him chuckle. “You looked so comfortable, I wouldn’t wake you up.” I could cry of shame. I really did that. “It’s okay. I got a text that I didn’t have to come to the appointment with the school counselor.” I didn’t answer, once again. I just hid my face in my hands. “One word about this and you won’t live any longer.” I pointed my finger at him. His lips were curled up in a smile, it didn’t reach his eyes, but it was enough for me. I felt a heat curling up in my stomach. “We should get dressed.” I sighed. “It’s Saturday.” “So? Let’s do something then.” My eyes narrowed. “What?” “It’s Saturday. I don’t want to stay here. I want to see the city. And you’re my tutor, so you have to show me around.” He smiled the whole time he was talking. “Hpmf.” I said and threw the sheets of me. We got dressed the same as we changed the day before. The feeling of my hot cheeks got only worse. It calmed down when I saw Yixing in the hall. “Hey. Did you survive?” I looked behind me to Kris, who had put his emotionless mask on again. But I saw he tried not to smile. “No, I’m dead. And now I mean it.” Yixing smiled, “A well. Me Luhan, Xiumin and Hangeng are going to the amusement park today. You can come if you want.” This sentence made me angry again. “No, Kris wants to see the city.” Yixing laughed. “A date!” He screamed. “What are you talking about. No, I have to lead him. I’m his tutor, after all.” Yixing didn’t stop smiling. “First sleeping in the same room, then going out to the city. I’m afraid this is going too fast for me.” I nudged his side. “Stop.” I threw him a death glare that only made him smile brighter. “Have fun ge.” He hopped away to Xiumin. “I hope you’re happy, because I ain’t.” “I think I’m going to kill your friend in his sleep. You don’t mind right.” Kris rubbed his hands together. “Go ahead.” I’d left my bag in Kris’s room, because the painters told me it was going to take at least another day. “Let’s go.” Kris said. “Shouldn’t we have breakfast.” “We can eat in the city, let’s go.” He pulled me on my arm. A group of girls pointed at us. I shook my arm free. “I can walk myself. I learned it when I was around fourteen months old.” Kris just grabbed my arm again.
“The bus?” I said with a grossed out tone in my voice. “Yeah. The bus.” “I can call a taxi.” “No you can’t.” I glared at him. “Watch.” I took out my phone, which got snatched out of my hand. Kris turned it off and put it in his back pocket. “Give back.” I said, stretching out my hand to him. “No.” “I’m going to get it if you don’t give it.” Kris shrugged “Go ahead.” Okay, I wasn’t really going to do that. “Nevermind.”
“Iew, normal people.” Kris pulled me on a seat next to him in the back of the bus. “I’m normal too.” He said. “Yes, and you gross me out just as much.” He went to stare out of the window. I was highly aware of the fact that he was sitting on my phone. I sighed heavily. Then I would just buy a new phone. Two girls next to me stared at Kris. “He’s so hot.” “Do you think he has a girlfriend?” I chuckled inwardly, Kris and a girlfriend, that was impossible. “It’s rude to talk about someone in a whispering tone.” Kris said as he turned to the girls. They shut up right away. “We were just wondering if you have a girlfriend.” One of them said. “Yes, now leave me please.” The girls seemed upset. “You have a girlfriend?” I said softly. “No, I just need don’t want them to talk about me.” I nodded.
“Where do you want to go?” Kris had pushed me out of the bus, because I had no idea where to get off the bus. While I live here longer, so that was pretty embarrassing. “The Tian Tan Buddha.” I sighed. “So mainstream. Can’t we just eat first?” Kris shook his head. “Just buy something from one of the stalls next to the road. There are enough of them.” “You just force me to live like I’m poor.” Kris chuckled. “That’s good for you.” So I munched on some greasy street food while walking to the Tian Tan. “It’s huge!” Kris exclaimed. “That’s what she said.” “But, I’m a guy.” I rolled my eyes. The way over to the Buddha we had already seen a lot and I was already tired. It took us three hours to get here, because Kris continually wanted to stop to look at something. I think I have told him almost three lessons worth of history about all the stuff we’ve seen. Now he finally let me rest in a restaurant. A proper restaurant. “Wow, you know much.” He said. I shrugged. The menu had a lot of expensive things, only expensive things. “You know I can’t afford this.” “I pay.” I said pointing up a finger. “I’ll pay you back.” “Whatever.”
After that our food is finally brought to us, I can’t help but ask what has been bothering me ever since I met him. “Why don’t you ever show emotions. Well, you do. Only now, with me. And it’s freaking me out.” Kris looked up from his kimchi. “Why? Do you mind it if I’m nice to you?” “No…” Kris returned to his ramen. “But you’re not going to tell me?” “No.” “Oh.” He nodded.
“How was the day out?” Yixing asked me as soon as Kris and I entered the cafeteria after another view hours of walking around Hongkong. We visited almost all of the islands. “It was okay.” I said. He smiled mysteriously. “That’s good.” It must not have looked nice, me stuffing my cheeks full of food, like I was a squirrel. “Calm down. It isn’t good for your weight if you eat so fast.” Kris said, with his usual flat tone. “Like you care about how I treat my body.” A flush spread across his face for a second. “No.” I didn’t see it, but I saw how Yixing was looking at Kris, who was looking discretely at his food. I narrowed my eyes to Yixing and shook my head. He just smiled.
“What have they done?” Kris opened his door, he first locked it, because he apparently didn’t lock it and was now standing in his room. I opened the door further. More than a hundred candles were lit up and sprawled in the room. “What the hell?” I asked. Trying not to burn my pants as I took a step in. “Did Yixing do this?” Kris asked me. “I bet he did.” The candles close to de door had gone out. “I’ll just gonna-“ I went on my knees and blew out some candles. Kris followed my example. Together we blew all the air out of lungs. “What a waste of candles!” I sighed when I threw the stuff in the bin. Kris nodded slowly. “Can we just go to sleep now? I’m tired.” I said to Kris.
I lay in between the wall and Kris’s body again. Unable to move. Kris turned towards me. I didn’t look at him. “Tao ge.” I choked on my tongue. He just called me brother? What the hell was going on? I turned my head. He smiled. This was the first time the smile truly reached his eyes. I blinked at him, totally mesmerized by his beauty in the dimly-lit room. He leaned closer to me, into my personal space. There was no way I could back up, the wall was already pressed into my back. His lips brushed against mine. All the air I owned was gone, I couldn’t breathe. I could only stare at Kris. He pressed our lips together. After a view seconds, I let my eyes fall shut. His lips started to slowly move against mine. Even his tongue came into my mouth, exploring my cavern. His hand stroked away my hair. “Sleep well, my beauty.” He smiled and turned on his back again. I was in total shock. There was no way I could fall asleep now, with my heart beating so incredibly fast it could be a heart attack. I felt his hand pull me closer. He pulled me to lay on my side. The only thing I could do was move my arm to lie on his stomach and my head to lie on his chest. I heard his heart beating.
I woke up in the same position as before, but now I didn’t pull away. No, I still tried to progress what happened last night. “Good morning.” Kris placed a kiss on my head. I felt a blush creep on my face. His body was so warm, I thought I would never be able to let go. I nuzzled my nose in his shirt. “You change a lot when you’re sleepy.” He ruffled my hair. “I’ve decided to tell you.” I looked up. “Tell me what?” He smiled. “What do you think? Tell you about why I’m so ‘emotionless’ towards most people.” I nodded and lay my head back on his heart. “Promise me something.” “What?” I whisper in the soft fabric of his shirt. “Don’t show any emotions while I talk.” What kind of promise was that? But I nodded again. “Okay, so.” He cleared his throat. “I killed someone.” I almost lift my head in shock, but I made a promise and lay still. “I killed my sister. When I was young my sister was always better than me. And I denied her that. She was lovely over all. But she went the wrong path. She chose to marry a drugs dealer. She asked my parents to give me to her. I was like ten years younger than her. They didn’t agree with her. So she let someone kill my parents. It was in my house, in my room even. I was eight, when two men in black suits came to our house. I heard my father yell stuff to my mother. I can’t really remember what it was. My mother ran up to my room, locked it and picked me up. I was way too heavy, and tall, to be picked up. She looked around the room. There were heavy footsteps on the stairs, running towards us, the door flew open,” Kris stopped the exhale slowly. It was a shaky breath. “a knife was thrown in here back.” I sobbed. I let my hand roam over his stomach to sooth him. “She didn’t let me go. She pressed me against her body and sunk through her knees. One of the men took me out her grasp. The other, slid her throat open. I saw it all.” He stopped again, this time to let the tears roll over his cheek. I wiped them away with my thumb. “For a view years, I thought the two men were assassins or something like that. But on my thirteenth birthday, I heard my sister talk to her husband about those men who still weren’t paid. I was furious that she really killed my and so also her own parents. I couldn’t take that. I took a gun from the counter and shot her. I shot her. And I shot her husband. I ran away.” I kissed away the tears that were falling down again. “A view days later, someone found me and took me to her house. She took care of me until I told her what I was old enough to move out of the house. I moved to Korea. To forget everything. And to not bother anyone with anything, I kept myself reserved, so no one would know. The woman that took care of me didn’t even know.” He was still crying, I was still crying. His arm was around me, my arm was caressing his stomach. “So now you know.” He smiled. I didn’t say anything. “Not showing any emotions doesn’t mean you have to keep quiet.” “I know, I’m just startled.” We lay there for an hour, maybe two, crying. We calmed down after half an hour though, we just lay down. “KRIS!” Yixing knocked on the door. “Damn it.” He swore under his breath. “What now?” I asked, but before we had any choice to do anything, the door swung open. Revealing a concerned Yixing and a normal looking Luhan. “AAAAAAAAAAA! I KNEW YOU TWO WERE DATING!” Yixing yelled, he pulled Luhan on his arm, threw the door closed and we were alone again. “Uh?” Kris said. “Fine, now everybody knows what happened.” I sighed “Does it matter to you?” He looked at me. “Does it to you?” He shook his head, pulling me down on his chest. “No, you’re mine.” I wanted to cough. Even though he had kissed me and he told me his heartbreaking life story, I didn’t really expect him to be so clingy. “Yeah.” I let my head fall on his chest. “I think we should get up now.” I grunted “No.” He pushed me away slightly. “Yes.”
When we were done dressing and we we’re ready to leave, we were surprised by a big group of people in front of Kris’s dorm room. “Omg!” “Tao?” “No way!” “Kris is gay?” “So now the two most attractive guys are dating?” “My feelings!” “I can’t.” Kris was honestly shocked. Before we went out he said to me that if I didn’t want anyone to know about us, we could just say Yixing is an idiot. I grabbed his hand and raised my head. “That’s right, he’s mine. Now get out of our way.” I pulled Kris with me, but the group followed us. “Are they serious?” I turned around. “Would you please mind you own business and leave us alone.” Everyone stood still. “Thank you.”
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