for like the past week all i can find myself doing is listenning to the pumpkins. it's really been the right mood. ok well i guess i'm in a little bit of a better mood now. it's been really strange this weekend and i don't want to elaborate on this stupid journal. what i will say is that a person i didn't feel noticed my emotions and the ( Read more... )

just about the time i think that happiness can actually happen. i find out that i'm truly wrong. i'd like to believe that there is a man in this world for me but i honestly don't. i give up. all i find in a mans embrace is tears, a broken heart, and everlasting misery. his touch, his hold, soft and bold...true that might be but without passion ( Read more... )

lately i've been having the feeling that i just need something. for the longest i couldn't figure out what it was. i need a muse. you know that one person who influences your work and inspires you. i just need to be inspired. for quite sometime pain has been my inspiration. i'd sit down and put on the most hateful music i could find and draw ( Read more... )

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 58% Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Activity Level ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Enthusiasm |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Extroversion ||||||||||||||||||||| 67% ( Read more... )

oh guess what...i'm sure you all know by now but i'm going to tell you anyway. TREY'S COMING TO VISIT!!! *bites lip* yeah i'm not really all that excited about it...nicole's coming too amd my margie(i love you!!!)*but of course not in the whole lesbian sense* um yeah james is coming but he kinda weirded me out the other night...it would have ( Read more... )

today has really been a tool day... i went with j to get wood today and tool was on the radio like every two seconds. it was great. i've really been in the mood for it lately. it's strange how you get in the mood for certain things, like i've really been in a smashing pumpkins mood for a while. maybe it's because both of these bands are really ( Read more... )

oh how i wish you could have been in my head as i slept last night...all i'm going to say for now is mashed potatos and peas should not be in a tunnel with cartoon characters...

explain to me why men are so weird. they never know what they want. "you're beatiful" blah blah blah "wow..you look...wow" blah blah blah "i love to talk to you. you always say something worth hearing" blah blah blah ok.. yeah.. um.. so...if i'm so beautiful and you want to constantly talk to me. you can't stop thinking about me. i'm just so ( Read more... )

ok so i guess i should address the snow. i would have come to this sooner but i've actually been out doing something. suprise suprise. so here it goes. the snow starts. i'm up at 745 getting ready for my 9:00 class. the stupid fuckers can't get the alert line working. rachael and i leave 30 mins after class has started only to find out we ( Read more... )

i hate to say it but..i'm absolutely inlove. in love with a guy that i can't have. it's sad to say but according to my def. of love, i have to be. maybe it's an obsession but how can you not obsess over someone who understands you so well. someone who you can fight with just for the sheer joy of fighting. he's got a great mind, a beautiful ( Read more... )