Comments | oubliette_eve: Mother, again.

oubliette_eve

Mother, again.

May 12, 2004 23:16

So soon after mother's day, I know ( Read more... )

Comments 6

baldsug May 13 2004, 06:57:41 UTC

My best friend and roommate is an amazingly talented woman. She is an untrained artist, an untrained singer, and an untrained actress. She is one of the best of each of these that I have ever seen, particularly as a singer, It took her 32 years before she was able to believe that she had the right to pursue a career in the arts, that she was good enough ( ... )

sug_chan May 13 2004, 10:28:35 UTC

You've made plenty of good points..

For me on the other hand I've had some encouragement and I feel like I still can't do what I want to do. And all I want to to is be an artist I just don't feel that I'm strong enough to fulfill my dreams or else I think no one wants my work. *shrugs*

Well actually I'll have to take some of that back. My parents both real and step haven't really supported me. They were like (lets just nod and smile) - type of deal you know how it goes I'm sure.. Not opinionated or doubtful just like ok, whatever.

baldsug May 13 2004, 11:00:38 UTC

I guess you have to get out of other people's definitions of what it means to be an artist. Just keep doing the work you want to do, keep expressing yourself. Listen to criticism but decide for yourself what is valid and isn't. You may not be a world shaking success, but you'll be happy. It may not ever pay the rent, but as long as rent gets paid somehow (day job or whatever) and you get to keep doing what you want, that's success and what is there to regret ( ... )

oubliette_eve May 14 2004, 16:17:18 UTC

Everyone has a dream job. I'm not sure how many actually get to it in the end, but much of it is hindered by talent. I'm not confident enough to say that what I'm interested in is good enough to make a good living, but there's always a way to keep doing it. I guess I won't be quitting my day job. ^^; In the end, I decided to try to go as high as I can go, with my education.

anrui_no_tenshi May 14 2004, 10:20:42 UTC

I think that your mother needs to have some sort of wake up call. If you are always online..then normally you wouldn't be in the classification of "people who think that they are all that". Rather that normally means that there is some sort of connection that you feel that you don't have unless you've got what you are familiar with. Different from the things your mother was saying. REALLY different infact ( ... )

oubliette_eve May 14 2004, 15:50:29 UTC

Sometimes I don't think she knows who I am... can't really blame her, I haven't exactly opened up myself to her. Our heart to hearts consists of me making up little things for her to believe about me. Because everytime I tell her anything worth shit about my feelings she'll use it against me in one of our later arguements. That hardly makes me more eager to bond with her. I do look forward to going off to university and living on my own. Though it seems that now she wants me to stay in the house because she doesn't trust me. She thinks that I won't be able to take care of myself and will embarrass her. >> I just hope dad can talk her out of it. He's the best. At least, a lot more understanding than she is.