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[oubliette_eve]

Sometimes it is hard to tell what is most important to us when time blurs the consequences of our present. I cannot see into my future... even a hypothetical one. There are too many doubts obscuring my line of vision, for my goals in life itself is clouded in reluctance, and the fear of possible regrets

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[baldsug]

You work and study art for the ability to improve the impact of your expression. You study physics and chemistry for the same reason, to improve the impact of your expression as a doctor - not to throw a wrench in the monkey works but do you want to express yourself as a doctor? It doesn't sound like it. You describe it as dull rather than something that engages and challenges you. You have to enjoy the journey as well as the goal.

If not, there are other career paths that can offer you stability and respect that do not require as much effort and attention away from things that do excite you, but medicine and law are 2 of the most arduous pursuits made even moreso by a lack of passion for them.

[oubliette_eve]

You're right about this, as you have been with all the things you've said to me. Yet would it not be cowardly of me to stop now and pick up what's easiest for me? I am no genius of anything... should I become an artist or writer, I would accomplish nothing more than just enough to get by. I cannot be content with being mediocre, because everyone was born with creativity, but no one was born with the knowledge to become doctors or lawyers.

[baldsug]

It's not about what's easy, it's about what inspires you and gives you passion. Just because something is hard, doesn't mean it's more worthy of your attention. By the way, the things I'm most passionate about rarely come easy to me but I go through with them because I'm passionate about these things, not because I'm passionate about the struggle

[oubliette_eve]

I guess you could say I am very aware of the fallacies of my resolve. All my thoughts converge, and one cannot exist with the others, and it feels like I've bitten off more than I can chew. Exactly what I can do about this is still unclear... the most I've thought of doing is do a minor in philosophy, or learn French. I've heard stories about people who come out of medical school, do their practicum and decided they didn't want to do it for a living. Perhaps I'll simply keep going and see if I am indeed interested. I still have time, part of the advantages of youth. The disadvantage being, indecisiveness.